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Glee and Sadness [Dec. 2nd, 2009|09:51 pm]

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[Current Music |Glee music from 112!]
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It's been a day full of ups and downs today. First the ups:

Spoilers for Glee 112 )

In other great Glee news, both Adam Lambert AND Idina Menzel would love to be on Glee!! So hopefully Ryan will be able to get them both on this season or next at the latest. Next week I will be savoring this last pre-hiatus episode sooo much it's not even funny.

On the not so great side, motivation for college is fading very very quickly. It is getting very difficult to fight my screw it, I don't care side. There have been small victories though and hopefully I'll be able to get some stuff done this weekend. Going to LA this Friday to shoot some photos for my final project, do a gallery report AND hang out with some fans so hopefully that'll go well. Another bad thing is my bike got two flat tires AGAIN after getting them replaced a month ago and I don't have the money to get them replaced. The good news though is that I got a job as an assistant here! Also made some money in an economic experiment here so that helps a lot and lets me buy a hard copy of Adam's CD and not just my free Amazon digital one :)

In sad Adam news, ABC canceled his free concert with Jimmy Kimmel. I am so sad and angry as I had a ticket to go to it. Ugh it pisses me off so much. I am so sick of this kind of crap. Add that to finding out the NY Senate voted down the Gay Marriage bill, I'm disgusted and disappointed by the discrimination in this country. I know we'll win the war in the end but goddamn it losing all the time is depressing. On the good side, Dave Valesky whose my representative who previously was on the fence voted yes! Good to know that maybe my communication with him might have had a tiny impact. So I will have to support him in his next campaign as he's up for re-election and they're sure to use it against him.

[personal profile] sdwolfpup being the awesome person she is started a Vidding Love Meme and my thread is here. It is so great to see all the vidder and vid love going on over there! I am already feeling more motivated to work on my [community profile] festivids vid this weekend :)

On a Fanfic Love note, I just want to thank ALL the writers out there who write fanfic for all of us in fandom. After reading amazing fanfic over at [profile] queenbitchfest, it reaffirmed my thankfulness of writers who create so many stories for everyone to enjoy. It reminds me that true romance exists in the world, that there are endless possibilities and so many different imaginary worlds to explore. I am in awe at the talent of the writers we have. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for bringing me and others so much joy, or dare I say it, glee.
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Birthday Reflections [Oct. 11th, 2009|09:31 am]

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[Current Music |"New Soul" by Yael Naim]
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So today is my 22nd birthday. I am very happy :D It feels very epic this year like I am finally an adult. It's just that this is the first birthday that I don't have anything to look forward to getting to do on it even if it's just one year closer to driving/voting/drinking. But I don't have that this year and it's weeeeird. I feel old lol. But not really.

It's just been inspiring me to think about how I got here and where I was ten years ago. Ten years ago, I was not into TV. Ten years ago, I wasn't in FANDOM. Ten years ago I thought I'd be researching lions and not learning web design. Ten years ago, I DIDN'T USE THE INTERNET. Ten years ago, I didn't know almost everyone here and I hadn't been to college or California or Vividcon and I wasn't aware of most of the fandoms I have now. Yeah, it's been very hard full of issues with school and friends and family and myself but somehow I made it here where it's finally starting to look up for me.

Yes, look up yay! I am hoping this is the year which I will finally take charge of my life and be happy. I'm still having a little trouble in my classes but I'm doing the work and getting it done and I feel like I can really do this. And it's reminded me what a good choice this is because I really hate essays and any long art project is always better than that. I'm learning like five programs at once now but at least I am learning and reading outside of class and loving it which is more than I ever could say two years ago. I see hope for my future and what I want to do with my life and I'm excited about it which is the best thing ever for me. I believe in me which is a really nice feeling to have again finally.

So far things are going well in terms of birthday happiness. Glee and The Office were wonderful, Adam released some Time for Miracles clips (FINALLY) and it is amaaaaazing, fic has been wonderful and yesterday I had fun hanging out with fellow slash fans which was incredibly awesome. Yes, I will have to do some homework today but I'd have rather spent time with fans yesterday and not have to be depressed about it tonight/tomorrow than not do it. Once I finish this post, I am going to DISNEYLAND and probably applying my free birthday pass to an annual pass so I can go whenever I want (except not on weekends or most days in the summer, you suck Disney). So that'll be fun. Plus I'm going clubbing tonight with people in QSA so that'll be fun and a good way to end today. Looking forward to Adam's entire TFM being released as well as The Office webepisodes with DANCING in the next week or so.

And of course my birthday is National Coming Out Day and this year, the National Equality March in DC which is awesome. I've come out in this journal right? Well if not, I'm bisexual, pansexual or no label, I just like who I like regardless of gender identity in the end. That's just me.

And now I will return to looking above my laptop at my extremely hot poster of Adam on the cover of Rolling Stone with a snake and a butterfly on his crotch because who can top that? (Kris once and awhile and I totally mean that in both ways ;)). Thank you to [personal profile] deejay, [personal profile] redina, [personal profile] talitha78 and [personal profile] sol_se for the virtual gifts! I will now enjoy and look forward to being 22 and having a great birthday and year :)
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Fandom Love (Mad Men, Project Runway, Adam/Kris) + College [Aug. 23rd, 2009|02:38 pm]

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Mad Men's back YAY! I got a download from the hotel and watched it Monday morning and have resisted getting too into it before I finished all my VVC writeups (okay I do have a couple more coming but those are not as much write asap). But here's my episode thoughts on the third season premiere!

Spoilers for Mad Men 301 )

I love this show. I love that it doesn't do what I expect, I love that it uses metaphors, I love the slowness, I love the prettyness, I love all the characters (or love to hate) and I love the history of it. And I'm so psyched that we're going to get more Sal this season! As I said at VVC, if this is the way fall TV is going to treat me, I'm going to be a very happy person this fall.

It is SO good to see the Mad Men fandom giving Sal some love. Makes me super happy :D
Links: Great Bryan Batt (Sal) interview
Old Hollywood Comparisons with Mad Men
Bryan Batt at Times Square

I am so jealous of the people who got to see Mad Men in Times Square. I love seeing Bryan Batt there and the communal viewing is so cool. I wish there was a lot more of that kind of opportunity in the world.

More Mad Men tonight OMGYAY!

And then Project Runway came back which I'm super excited about!

Spoilers for Project Runway 601 )

And then I've fallen more and more in love with Adam, Kris and Adam/Kris. Been reading some wonderful fanfic at night. My favorite so far is Apples Are Not The Only Fruit (Adam/Kris AU, NC-17) which makes me SO HAPPY. Like watching Save The Last Dance over and over again, bouncy squee kind of delight. It just perfectly captures fan squee and has a wonderful slow buildup and is basically perfect. They're just SO CUTE! It reminded me of Seduction of the Desert Prince and not just because of the fruit love. Also I loved The Fairytale Story of Adam and Kris (Picspam with captions) which is filled with hearts and flowers and sparkly unicorns!

I am just experiencing am overload of fannish squee right now with vidding/Vividcon, Mad Men, Project Runway, Adam/Kris and yes, The West Wing, I am still madly quite in love with my show. To add to that, now that Vividcon is over, it is beginning to hit me that I'm going back to college in a week OMG! Well, Friday actually. I'm the most excited I think I have ever been this year mostly because I am doing a major I'm really interested in learning about AND I have my own room (and soon car eeeeee). And I know I'm so very privileged for getting all this which is why I'm so over the moon in getting it. I just really *need* a place to myself even if it's only to be able to ask over friends and not have to apologize to a roommate for it or to be able to dance crazy and not fear a roommate walking in. Plus I'm super excited to be back in California and SoCal and with a car, I can actually explore it so much better! And this year I really want to focus on creative pursuits and getting marriage equality in CA and I'm super excited about doing both. I'm going to the OutWest Bootcamp at USC in September and I can't wait to learn more about running campaigns (in terms of overturning Prop 8).

I can just feel that this year is going to be amazing and I feel so much more in control of who I am and what I want to be. Getting my VVC reports done for once helped show I can get things accomplished even overwhelming, tempted to procrastinate ones. I know I can create the life I want and I'm excited to be on this journey and just, yay life! It is truly an awesome thing right now.
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Gay marriage hits close to home [May. 22nd, 2009|10:43 am]

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Holy shit, you guys. I just found out that David Valesky who represents me in the NY State senate is undecided toward the gay marriage bill but probably not. OH NO YOU DIDN'T!!! No fucking way is a freaking Democrat who is supposed to represent me going to vote no on gay marriage. He does say yes on civil unions so it's not entirely impossible.

Now I am going to do everything possible for him to change his mind to yes. Because seriously, this is NEW YORK, we need our gay marriage. And I just couldn't live with myself if I didn't do everything possible. I am just really scared this bill is going to fail, it's really iffy as it needs seven more votes or so and a bunch of Democrats are voting no (thanks religion, arghhh) so we may need some Republicans.

On the other hand I am SUPER happy we have Massachusetts, Conneticut, Iowa, Vermont and almost New Hampshire and Maine (and should have the latest, hopefully 2010). So amazing.
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Even Muggles like yourself should be celebrating, this happy, happy day! [Nov. 9th, 2008|03:36 pm]

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[Current Music |"Affirmation" by Savage Garden]
[Current Mood |optimistic]

That's how I (still) feel about Obama winning. Where Muggles are people who didn't vote for him or people from other countries. It still feels so glorious and wonderful each day waking up to know the Obama (President Obama!) is going to be our next president. It's just this happiness that washes over me each morning and randomly each day. I want to chase this feeling /Toby. Already he's working on making the goverment more democratic and participatory. Check out for more including "requiring his Cabinet officials to have periodic national broadband townhall meetings to discuss issues before their agencies", not signing "any non-emergency bill without giving the American public an opportunity to review and comment on the White House website for five days", "improve the assessments used to track student progress to measure readiness for college and the workplace and improve student learning in a timely, individualized manner. Obama and Biden will also improve NCLB's accountability system so that we are supporting schools that need improvement, rather than punishing them", supporting "the principle of network neutrality" and trying to "pass the Fair Pay Act to ensure that women receive equal pay for equal work and the Employment Non-Discrimination Act to prohibit discrimination based on sexual orientation or gender identity or expression.". SO AMAZING.

Another good thing this election brought me? Rachel Maddow. Even when I was ignoring politics, I couldn't help but watch a few minutes of her show just to see how brilliant, funny and hot she is. I'm going to be involved in politics more now, watching a bit more news, reading more about what's happening, the government and the issues so this LJ may not be as politics free as it used to be but there still should still be a large amount of fandom with vidding and all the shows I watch. I just finally feel like we can bring about real change and I want to be a part of it, to do my part in making this country better.

Now about Prop 8. I'm trying to leave aside my disappointment, sadness and anger and instead channel that into actually doing something about it. On the good side, Prop 8 only applies to future marriages and there are going to be court challenges to it. I can only see that as good because it is not fair at all for the majority to take away the rights of a minority. I'm all for propositions and direct democracy but not in cases like that. Also I hope we can add a proposition to reverse Prop 8. I do think that it is horrible that people are blaming African Americans for passing this as it's everyone who voted yes for the Prop that's caused this to happen. Lashing out like that is wrong and doesn't accomplish anything. The same thing goes for acting like chickens are getting more rights. Um NO. Animal rights has nothing to do with Prop 8 and giving farm animals basic decent treatment is a good thing that should not be bashed.

I am heartened by all the anti-Proposition 8 protests happening in California although I wish I could be there to join them. But now I can and you can too! Join the Impact is organizing a nationwide protest against Prop 8 and the other measures that take away equality and civil rights next Saturday, November 15th, 1:30 - 4:30 (Eastern/10:30 am PT). I urge everyone to check out the website and find the closest location to you for the protest taking place at City Hall or another place as mentioned. I am organizing the Syracuse protest here because I really want to do something against this proposition and I urge anyone who is in a city without a organizer or that's not represented to try to help start one. So that's what I'm going to be working on this week.

In vidding news, [ profile] laurashapiro put together a vidding documentary for MIT to show to middle and high schoolers. It's here and there's a bunch of vidders there talking about vidding. I'm in it as well, the second person with the LA shirt in the What is vidding? video. I saw it at Vividcon and I was so happy to see how it turned out. Everyone should go check it out and see how awesome it is! Also if you're looking for AMAZING vid meta, check out [ profile] tishaturk for some wonderfully interesting thoughts about vidding and narrative, two of my very favorite things.

I hate the new LJ profile page. Why do they change the things that aren't broken?! At the very least they should give us an option to opt out of it. Argh.

Other good things: new Sex and the City movie next summer! Let's hope they don't give a BS reason for splitting Carrie/Big up this time and give us lots of time with all four of the gang. Also can't wait to see Quantum of Solace, mostly for the Daniel Craig hotness. Speaking of movies, I got four movies including Harry Potter 5, American Gangster and Sex and the City for only $20 dollars the other day. And I'm starting on getting one of my friends to watch The Wire and she likes it so far so I'm really happy about that. Still working on catching up on shows, did Ugly Betty, Grey's Anatomy, Entourage and working on Friday Night Lights which is amazing as usual. Hopefully I'll have some thoughts about them in a later post.
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Marriage is love. [Nov. 5th, 2008|11:07 am]

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I don't even know what to say. I was slowly accepting that Prop 8 passed last night and then waking up to it this morning was even more shocking and depressing. For the first time I feel ashamed to be a Californian. At the same time I feel proud to be American and that really, really sucks. It hit me in the car this morning on the way to class and I couldn't stop crying. How can this happen? What is wrong with people? I just don't get it and I doubt I ever will. How can anyone ever understand hate, discrimination and inequality? To take those civil rights away from people is just wrong. I cannot believe people cannot separate religion and government when separation between church and state is so important to this country from the very beginning. And makes me feel even more negative to the destructive part of (some) religions. And the worst part is so many of the same people who voted for Obama voted for this proposition and I find that so hard to believe.

I wish I could have done more. I wish I could have voted, been in California and campaigned and done everything possible to stop this disgusting proposition. It's my own fault though and that frustrates me so much. I want my state to be a beautiful, amazing, equal place to live for everyone and this is such a big stop to this. I can't believe that I trusted this state so much to do the right thing and they didn't. I feel so let down by both them and me.

Randomly bursting into tears because Obama won or because Prop 8 passed? Not fun. I want off this roller coaster right about now. Trying to cope by watching some Queer as Folk vids with plenty of love, kissing, romance and sex and although I don't want Brian and Justin to get married, I want them to have that right. I'm never one to put marriage as the biggest end goal, I NEVER say, I want to get married but I want to find true love/a long term romantic partner/etc but I want everyone that wants to get married, between two consenting adults, to have that chance. At least now that Barack Obama is president I don't have to fear constitutional bans so much and hopefully he'll help inspire people to change their minds.

So what do we do now? I'm not up to speed on California proposition rules (although I really need to catch up) but how do we overturn/repeal/etc Proposition 8? Cause no matter how much I feel beaten down, tired and like I want to give up right now, I know we have to keep fighting til the end of days. And I have to keep remembering that just like we ended slavery and gave black men (and eventually women) the right to vote, ended discrimination in the 60's and now have an African American president, our country will go in the direction of equality, oppurtunity and life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness for all. Which includes gay marriage. We'll get there no matter how much time it takes.

This is also not helped by the fact that even TV is being disrupted by this bigotness. ABC Fires Brooke Smith who basically is in a lesbian relationship on Grey's Anatomy while also changing a future bisexual character straight. I am disgusted and sickened by ABC after admiring them so much for being so gay friendly. Ugh, it just pissed me off so much.

And hopefully, I'll be back to my regularly scheduled fannish activities starting now. It's good to know that I can trust fandom to be decidingly No on Prop 8!
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I can drink! [Oct. 11th, 2008|01:30 pm]

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[Current Music |"Safe Enough to Wake Up" by The Ben Taylor Band]

It's my 21st birthday today so now I can legally drink and go into clubs and bars. Yay! The latter part is most important but it's the freedom thing that's good too. Thanks muchly to [ profile] talitha78 and [ profile] clayangel for the virtual presents, they make me very, very happy :D

So far it's been a great day. I led up into my birthday last night watching Failure to Communicate (Doris! total coincidence, next on the list) and Need to Know and then right at 12 am watched Synergy (It Had To Be You) (and then two more times) which made me drunk with House/Wilson love. Watched Once More With Feeling in the morning, had a scrumpious breakfast at iHoP and am about to be off to try to get my House/Wilson TV Guide for my birthday. And then I have a birthday party with friends and a dinner where I'll order my first drink. Can't wait! There should be plenty of Office watching, of course.

Been kind of crazy year with lots of transitions but hopefully I'll get my life going in the right direction and will be back in California next year. And there's been a lot of great memories too in the last year.

I find it funny that when I was born there was a financial crisis going on and now here we are today but oh well. In more important news though (at least to me), it's National Coming Out Day and in California, Proposition 8 is on the ballot trying to take away gay marriage. From [ profile] melina123,

There are powerful interests pouring millions of dollars to support this proposition, and there are recent polls showing we're losing. So if you can, please give some money. The minimum credit card donation is $5. If you can give that, or $10 or $20, please, please do. Or sign up to phonebank. You don't have to live in California to help.

Seriously. If we lose, we're pretty much done with this issue in California for a very long time to come -- this is a constitutional amendment and it will be very, very hard to change if it's passed. If we fail at this in California, it will only be more difficult in other states.

Think of Kevin and Scotty! Or any GLBT or slash pairing you support or you know, your friends and the people who would have their rights taken away by this proposition. This is so important and the best birthday gift I could get is if people would help support them and this proposition would get defeated.

Sorry to be negative on my birthday but it had to be said. Now back to my party! \o/
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