*hugs* It is hard to feel who you are when lots of your life happens in the virtual world and it brings as much good as bad since it cuts you from the "real world" a bit. It is hard to find your inner peace. And I hear you on the pressure of vidding, but this shouldn't be something we should do. Afterall, vidding is a hobby, something that makes us happy.
So you know ? take you time, do what you wanna do, don't contrain yourself, don't overthink. It's cool to have expectations and to push yourself to do better, but you should enjoy the process too. :)
I just did a very happy PD vid and it was so reinvigorating. I just thought "why the hell am I so stressed out ? I should just vid and enjoy it". :)

That said, Pushing Daisies is just love, it brings so much happiness and yes, Ned IS the perfect boyfriend. Except for the fact he kills flowers to make pies ! ;)