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New vid: Confident (A Simple Favor) [Feb. 27th, 2019|02:47 pm]

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Title: Confident
Music: "Confident" by Demi Lovato
Fandom: A Simple Favor (2018)
Focus: Emily/Stephanie
Summary: What's wrong with being confident?
Content Notes: None.
Notes: Made for Club Femslash (dance party with women-centric vids) at TGIF/F 2019: a multi-fandom femslash convention designed to build connections, encourage discussion, and celebrate the media and characters we love.
Download Link: Confident (78MB MP4)
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I really loved the movie, A Simple Favor and knew I wanted to vid it for Club Femslash this year particularly focusing on Blake Lively's suits. I had decided on a song but it was too long for me and I couldn't make it work with the limited amount of time I had for it. I decided to use this song instead and make a short vidlet about Emily being confident and generally hot. It turned out there was a little more structure and narrative I wanted to add to the vid and I was glad I was able to make it work with the limited amount of time I had left. I added a few effects to match the music better and I was very happy with how that turned out. And let me say, it is so much easier to vid when you very much enjoy looking at the people involved ;)
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New vid: Treat You Better (Everything Sucks!) [Feb. 27th, 2019|02:41 pm]

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Title: Treat You Better
Music: "Treat You Better" by Lilly Brown (cover of Shawn Mendes) @lilly27sings
Fandom: Everything Sucks!
Focus: Kate/Emaline
Summary: I know I can treat you better than he can.
Content Notes: None.
Notes: Made for TGIF/F: a multi-fandom femslash convention designed to build connections, encourage discussion, and celebrate the media and characters we love.
Download Link: Treat You Better (83MB MP4)
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Last year, I fell in love with the show, Everything Sucks! on Netflix (watch it for great 90s era feels!) and once I had finished, I realized I needed to vid it to let out my feels. I had been listening to Lilly Brown's cover of Treat You Better which I had first heard at TGIF/F 2018 when I realized the song worked perfectly for Kate/Eveline and I couldn't wait to vid it. It was pretty easy to vid about 80% of it but once I got to the parts where I needed to include the guy, I stalled it and set it aside for awhile. Once I realized the TGIF/F 2019 vidshow deadline was getting closer, I opened up the project and forced myself to finish it which went a lot easier than I expected thankfully. I had to switch around a few parts but I thankfully found some additional ship clips I had missed the first time which helped.
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End of the Year 2018 Meme [Jan. 1st, 2019|06:21 pm]

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I do this meme every year and I'm not about to stop that now as it's cool to be able to go back to these and see how my year was.

Brief end of year update: I've found an excellent babysitting situation that I'm happy with (I really love working with kids most of the time) and I'm still doing freelancing work and working on my online business (slowly but will ramp up next year). My anti-depressants are still working energy/productivity wise and usually I'm happy but I'm still struggling with loneliness occasionally and am working on finding a solution to it (more later). I've started doing rock climbing and ninja warrior training at a local gym since September and I've made a LOT of progress. I've reconnected with a fandom friend and we're pretty close now even though she lives far away and have continued to enjoy visiting my cousin and kids and other family close by NYC. I'm taking a break from vidding (besides a TGIF/F vid) to focus on work stuff but still enjoy keeping up with fannish social media although my fannish interests mostly only align with femslash fandom (I'm over most guys) except for The Good Place.

Speaking of, I am going to be in LA from 2/14-2/24th including being at TGIF/F and hanging by the Escapade hotel during the con. Let me know if you want to make plans to hang out if you'll be in LA around that time!

End of the Year Meme 2018 )

If you are still wondering what you want to do with your life/working on getting a job you like, let me know as I am working on a business related to that topic and might be able to help in the coming year. It's always free for fannish friends :)
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Vividcon 2018 Con Report [Aug. 30th, 2018|10:12 pm]

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It's weird that this is my final Vividcon con report ever. But I started doing con reports since my first one and I want to make sure I finish the tradition. I've been super busy with RL stuff so had to put this on the backburner but finally had some time today to finish this up. Apologies if I forgot something or put the wrong person, just let me know if so and I can fix it. So here is my 13th and final Vividcon con report...

Vividcon report under the cut )

I feel like I should have some deep and meaningful thoughts that can conclude on my times at Vividcon but I feel like [personal profile] kass did that better than I ever could in the end of her con report. I'm just so glad that I found vidding as a creative outlet and that Vividcon was there for me as a community when I was young. I was 15 when I fell in love with vidding and I was so happy that I finally found a creative activity that *fit* me in a way that writing never did. I found media fandom on Livejournal in early 2003 through a google search for vidding to help improve my first vid which led me to [personal profile] bonibaru's vid recs and vid meta recs site which led me to vid meta posts and tons of amazing vids to watch. I had to wait until 2006 to come (the 2005 envy was HUGE) but I will always idealize my first year as a beautiful time where everything was new and special and finally got to meet tons of online people I admired while finally feeling like there was a place where I belonged with people who are creative, smart, kind, generous, and who work towards improvement of their vids. Even 13 years later when I have grown and changed so much, I still feel feel that sense of belonging and specialness at this con and I'm grateful it's been there for me.

It's always been so inspiring to be around so many impressive vids and people at Vividcon that helped me finish vids, learn to *read* vids better, and improve my own vids. I'm so happy that I was able to create vids for the con that people have really connected to and glad that I've made so much progress in my vidding. I've loved the panels/vid reviews where I could be around so much intelligent analysis of vids that it's hard to find online. I appreciated that Vividcon has been a place where we could be very analytical but also full of squee and emotions and that both are valued. Club Vivid has been a paradise to me whether I was drunk or not and I finally could dance in a club that was perfectly attuned to my interests and people I love being with who all celebrate vids whether they were new premieres or classic favorites. I have such fond memories of seeing various vids during vidshows and getting to have that extra emotional reaction laughing, crying or cheering with other people (see the catbaby vid!). The hotel itself became like a home to me in that I was so familiar with it, had spent so much time there over the years and had so many happy memories with the people at Vividcon. I even call the staircase to the second floor, the "Stairway to Heaven" as that's what it is to me.

Most of all, I've loved getting to know and become friends with (in various depths) so many of the amazing people who come to Vividcon. There have been so many conversations and group hangouts that I'll never forget and that left a big impact on my life and made me so happy in the moment and in memories. The room parties, the lunches (I will forever miss the Thai restaurant with the best pad thai!), the con suite and in between panel talks, the late night conversations were all so special to me and because we were all at the hotel, we could so easily connect in a special way from our online conversation. I've carried on the relationships at VVC in other locations including in LA and NYC (and while traveling) that have meant a lot to me and my life would be incredibly different (negatively) without them. I've always felt that Vividcon was a family to me in the sense that I'd see many people once a year and online and I've felt safe and supported there with both the deep relationships and shallow connections appreciated. I hope to keep seeing people in the future (lmk of any of you come to NYC or within 3-4 hours of it if you want to hang out) whether it's during travel or cons or even online. And please don't hesitate to reach out to me if you ever need someone to talk to or someone to help with resources, problem solving or advice as I will always be there for all of you, non-Vividcon attending vidding people included.

I loved knowing that each year I had something special to look forward which kept me going through the tough moments. In the last two years, when life has been the toughest ever due to depression and RL stuff, thinking of attending Vividcon has kept me from giving up and a reason to keep on going when I was sick of trying and being in pain, and I'm so grateful for that. In that process, I found other things to get me excited about living in a world without Vividcon and part of those realizations came from friends I made at Vividcon. While I disagree about some of the reasons that Vividcon was ended, I now believe it may actually be a good transition in my life as I find fewer things to be fannish about (I barely read fic or am interested in reading show/ship discussion anymore) and want to focus on other things such as starting my own business and building deeper relationships in RL and with my family. I plan to have a child in the next 5 years so I also will be spending a lot of time working on improving my childcare skills, knowledge and experience so I can be as prepared as I can. I will never say I'll stop vidding and have vids planned for the next year but not having the Vividcon pressure to make vids will be nice. Currently, I'm planning on attending TGIF/F and maybe Wiscon next year but am also excited about taking a trip to Italy next summer instead of going to a summer con as I have in the past. With a car, I also have more opportunity to visit fans in the northeast and will always stay in touch with the vidding community online along with the other fannish connections I've made.

Thank you again to everyone on the concom and to all the people who made the con keep running each year even through the many technical issues we've had to deal with as you all have my deep admiration and gratefulness. Thank you to all the people who have made my Vividcon better in any shape and form and who have been so kind to me and given me so much happiness. My memories of Vividcon all blend together now but I mostly remember the good times and even though I will always miss this con and still wish it could last forever, I am so happy I lived through a time where Vividcon existed and I was able to find this community and share incredible moments together. I love you Vividcon and Vividcon people and always will <3
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New vid: 30 (Multi-Fandom) [Aug. 24th, 2018|08:45 pm]

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Title: 30
Music: "Riot" by Paris Carney (brief dialogue from The Office)
Fandom: Multi
Summary: "There's a riot going on in my head" A self-portrait about my experience turning 30 years old using important media sources from my life.
Content Notes: None.
Notes: Made for From There to Here at Vividcon 2018 as my last vid to show at the con. Thanks to [personal profile] lola for the beta and encouragement!
Download Link: 30 (79MB MP4)
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I began working on this vid in the fall of 2016 when I was dealing with depression (I thought it was situational but it was deeper than that) and thought it would be interesting to see if I could find a way to vid what I was going through. I was turning 29 which made turning 30 real to me and I began to realize that I wasn't even close to achieving what I wanted to create: a happy life with a great career, romantic partner, best friends and satisfaction with who I am as a person. I've been an ambitious, idealistic person since I was a kid and not living up to my expectations for myself at an age where I thought I would have made some real progress with my life was terrible for me (ie wasted potential). I started with using some clips from my favorite vids (later I remastered them with actual show footage) and important shows to me that stood out to me with the lyrics and what I wanted to show and as time went on, I would return to the vid and keep adding clips to it. It helped me a lot to process my emotions (basically viddding as therapy) as I felt that least my bad feelings could create something beautiful.

I wanted to make a few comments on the clips and general arc of the vid since it's so personal that not everything might come through. First of all, Matilda was an important book/movie to me growing up as I was a big reader who felt alone (and later bullied) so it was important to me to start with that and the quote is from The Office from a child talking to Michael Scott and I always connected deeply to it in my life even ten years ago. I've spent a lot of nights curled up in a ball on my bed crying about my life so I strongly related to those clips in the vid and also love climbing up ledges like Brian and Root, not to jump (although safely that's fun) but to feel the adrenaline of being up high and trying to figure out what to do. When I showed Rebecca quitting her job and Buffy leaving town, I wanted to show how I tend to leave jobs and places in hopes I can find something that makes me happy even though it's usually an internal mental health issue (what I didn't realize before).

I wanted to use the clip of Fraser reaching out to the train because a vid meta post impacted me that talked about how that shot meant desperately wanting something and would mean that in any context so I wanted to use it to show me trying to find romance even when it always leads to rejection and heartbreak for me. I knew I had to include something about my mom dying and how terrible it was for me and how I still wish I had her in my life a lot so I put in clips that reminded me of that including the Buffy episode I watched the day I found out she died. I used effects on the Lex violently hitting something clip which was meant to replicate the effects in [personal profile] sisabet's Without You I'm Nothing vid, which I've always loved and related to and showed that frustration I felt at the unfairness of the world. I wanted to use effects in the vid (such as glows) to highlight the emotion/mood from the source and also as a way to show my vidding progress in being able to use effects since the vid was for the From There to Here vidshow (first vid shown at Vividcon and then the last one).

Finally at the end of the vid, I wanted to show how vidding is a form of creative outlet for processing my life and emotions and how it can turn grief into beauty especially the happiness I get from showing my vids at Vividcon. I wanted to use clips from one of my favorite parts of the vid, Out Here by [personal profile] heresluck (who also made my favorite vid, Superstar and clips from that are also featured throughout the vid) where Fraser steps toward the light to the decision to make something good happen and walk towards something unknown (how my vid will turn out/will others will like it) as it was always powerful imagery for me (and I relate a lot to Fraser). The last clip is based on a classic vid meta post, The Life Cycle of Vid and Vidder by [personal profile] luminosity in regards to #22, "God, I'm depressed. Post vid letdown. It's almost like giving birth." wherein by creating my vid, it's like creating a child (maybe a cat baby? ;)) symbolically to create something new from other components including my own life, clips from the media and songs.

I knew not everyone would get some or even most of the vid in the context of my life but I hoped people could empathize with certain parts and that I could show how my favorite media is intricately entwined with my life from my youth (The Lion King) to the current shows I watch. As I like to say, I was born a fangirl and I will die a fangirl, and I'm glad I'm able to create vids from that passion. Thankfully, I was able to find the right antidepressants after I turned 30 and it has made me so much happier including better self-esteem and self-confidence so that most of the vid no longer applies to my life even if I am still working towards creating the life I desire. But I'm glad I made it as a time capsule to issues I've struggled with and that still occasionally come up as well as a chance to be vulnerable and reveal more about myself directly in my art instead of using fictional characters to show it more indirectly (which is also wonderful!!).
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New vid: Visions of Gideon (Multi) [Aug. 24th, 2018|08:33 pm]

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Title: Visions of Gideon
Music: "Visions of Gideon" by Sufjan Stevens
Fandom: Multi (uses only footage from my vids including text I wrote recently and from Vividcon con reports/posts)
Summary: "Is it a video?" A video I created about my personal experience with Vividcon.
Content Notes: A few clips with blood in them.
Notes: Made for Vividcon Premieres 2018. Thanks to [personal profile] lola for the beta!
Download Link: Visions of Gideon (94MB MP4)
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I heard this song at the end of Call Me By Your Name and it immediately struck me as a song that reminded me of vidding with the "Is it a video?" repeated lyric. At some point of listening to the song, the line "I have loved you for the last time" reminded me of Vividcon and I got the idea to make a vid to the song using my own vids as footage to show how much Vividcon means to me just like the clips in my vids have a lot of meaning to me (they're both video and my real life identity). The lyric "Visions of Gideon" reminded me of my idealism especially when it comes to Vividcon and how I held up the con as a beacon of happiness and hope that helped me get through hard times in my life. I wanted to use text to explain the Vividcon connection (and how I first found VVC) and try to use text from my VVC posts to use my whole history with VVC from my first to the last one I attended (as such some of the earlier text do not represent my current state of mind). I added pictures of the Vividcon hotel to make the connection more clear as well as show Vividcon is also a place I attend and I have strong memories of the whole hotel and con places in it as a home to me. I really enjoyed finding the right clips from my vids to add extra layers of meaning to all the different layers of the vid so that was one of my favorite parts of vidding this vid.

The vid itself shows my journey in processing the end of Vividcon and what I have gone through in the last year to make my peace with it. I was really upset when I found out Vividcon was ending which spanned many emotions including sadness and anger but I am an emotional person and the way I process my feelings is to allow myself intense emotions including identifying with fictional characters (see vid) which helps me release them and move on. I wanted to represent that in the first half of the vid because if I didn't love Vividcon so much and if it wasn't so important to me, I wouldn't have had such a deep reaction to it ending. But it was also really important for me to give a happier ending to the second half of the vid because eventually I was able to remember all the happy memories and be grateful that I had the chance to be a part of such an amazing con.

I was going through major depression when I found out Vividcon was ending and up to April 2018 so it took me some time (and the thought of being at VVC helped keep me alive!) but eventually I found other things to look forward to in life and was able to let go of Vividcon and be at peace that it had ended. The last few clips are about that transition and the very last one is meant to represent me looking at other people being happy and belonging at other cons and being glad they have them just like I had Vividcon while hoping I can find my place to belong somewhere else (probably not fan cons and I'm cool with that). The vid was made with no ill intent towards anyone - I truly hold in high esteem and care for everyone who has attended the con as I tried to make clear at the end of the vid. I am aware this was a deeply personal ito make but vids are a way for me to self-express my truth and put my feelings into art. I hoped some other people would possibly connect to it and I felt it was a good way to bring cathartic closure to my Vividcon experience as well as make a tribute to a con I love so much.
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New vid: Watch Me Rise (The Good Wife) [Aug. 18th, 2018|06:41 pm]

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Title: Watch Me Rise
Music: "Watch Me Rise" by Mikky Ekko
Fandom: The Good Wife S1-6
Focus: Alicia Florrick
Summary: Once I get my head above the clouds, I'm never coming down.
Content Notes: Brief shot with blood.
Notes: Made for Vividcon Challenge 2018 (theme: Full Circle). Thanks to [profile] cyberorganize and [personal profile] metatxt for the beta!
Download Link: Watch Me Rise (131 MB MP4)
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I started this vid back in 2015 while I was watching The Good Wife for the first time and about halfway through I realized this song (one of my personal favorites that inspires me) would work for a vid focusing on Alicia's career path which is one of my favorite parts of the show. While I was watching S4-6, I clipped the major moments that worked for the vid and also went back to put in the big moments from the Pilot and some other key scenes I remembered. However I didn't have the time or motivation to clip the rest of the show so I put the vid on the backburner, hoping to finish it someday. I had given up of finishing it when I was searching for a Challenge vid to make for Vividcon and realized this vid was perfect for the theme, full circle (see ending shots). I figured out I could clip mostly the big moments and cut the song choruses a little bit and was able to finish the vid in time. It's one of my favorites that I've made as I looove Alicia and I feel like I accomplished most of what I wanted to do.
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New vid: Dead and Gone (coda) (Game of Thrones) [Aug. 17th, 2018|04:38 pm]

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Title: Dead and Gone (coda)
Music: "Dead and Gone" by Siren Gene AKA Tiffyiffyiffy. Dialogue from Game of Thrones.
Fandom: Game of Thrones S1, S7
Focus: Arya, Nymeria
Summary: "That's not me." A coda to my vid, Dead and Gone located here.
Content Notes: None.
Notes: Made for Vividcon Challenge 2018.
Download Link: Dead and Gone (coda) (33MB MP4)
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After Game of Thrones episode 702 aired, I had a LOT OF FEELINGS about Arya and Nymeria meeting which I had waited 5 years to happen. I loved the dialogue parallel and wanted to do a little experimental vidlet using the dialogue from both scenes while vidding it with scenes from the show. It was a lot of fun to do and it reminded me of my Dead and Gone vid and its themes so I added the underlying audio to it at a soft level to make a little coda to the original vid. I finished this up at Wiscon in a day while spending most of the time dealing with audio issues (thanks to [profile] cyberorganize for helping me with some audio stuff!) but was glad to finish it time for the deadline. I figured it'd be super obvious it was me but I have long given up at being anonymous at Challenge :)
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New vid: She's Not Afraid (BTVS, OUAT, POI) [Aug. 16th, 2018|06:10 pm]

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Title: She's Not Afraid
Music: "She's Not Afraid" by One Direction
Fandom: Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Once Upon a Time, Person of Interest
Focus: Regina/Emma, Root/Shaw, Buffy/Faith
Summary: How come she's so afraid of falling in love?
Content Notes: Graphic Violence (brief bloody knife shot).
Notes: Made for Vividcon Club Vivid 2018. Thanks to [personal profile] elipie and [personal profile] metatxt for the quick betas!
Download Link: She's Not Afraid (61 MB MP4)
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I've wanted to vid this song for AGES, initially to Swan Queen, but I was finally able to do it this year to three of my favorite love/hate femslash ships. I love how danceable this song is ([personal profile] elipie can confirm this!) and I wanted to show the parallels between three ships where two of them aren't canon and one is and how easily this dynamic translates to a romantic and/or sexual relationship. Due to RL issues, I was only able to make a short vid to the song but I really enjoyed making it and seeing it play at CVV!
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Brief Pre-Vividcon Update [Aug. 8th, 2018|05:51 am]

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I’m soooo excited about going to Vividcon tomorrow!!! I’ll be at the hotel around 9am on Thursday and leaving around 3pm on Monday. I made 4 vids and I can’t wait to see the 150 (!!!) premiering vids and see so many people I love and talk about vids and CLUB VIVID! I wanted to post a brief update about what I’ve been up to lately as things have changed.

-I did some freelance research assistant work for the first half of the year (hmu if you’re a professor etc and want some help) and rediscovered my love of coding through learning R.
-I went to TGIF/F in LA and had fun talking about femslash and watchng/dancing to femslash vids and seeing amazing people.
-I struggled a lot with depression and loneliness and finally decided to try a med my friend was on and take a high dosage of it (in time) and after 4 weeks, I was the happiest I’ve been since I was 14 years old. So yeah, I figured out I’ve wasted 15 years of my life being low grade depressed which is why I haven’t had the energy to achieve my goals. On the bright side, I actually have high self-esteem and high confidence now and I fully believe I can make my dreams come true.
-I did some babysitting for a friend which made me realize I love working with kids and want to pursue it as a career. I love helping take care of kids and loving them as well as helping them learn and I love reading everything about the topic. Thankfully NYC needs a lot of help with all the working parents.
-I went to Wiscon for the first time and had an amazing time hanging out with friends and going to the vidshow. I got to meet chaila finally! The Black Panther and Get Out (the one horror movie I like) panels were amazing!
-I searched for a full time childcare job and found a great one in Scarsdale taking care of an 8 year old girl and 12 year old girl which I started at the end of the July. After 2 weeks, they let me go not because of anything I did but because they hadn’t realized they needed a lot less hours and mostly housekeeping/driving. I was super upset as I had been happy at the job for the first time ever and was depressed this last weekend. But I applied to some other places in the last few days, have some scheduled interviews (including 3 today) and am excited about some of the jobs even if they pay less.
-I have an online business idea I’m really excited about and I’m going to be working on it a lot in the next year so I can try to make some extra money that I can use for savings.
-Due to the help of my anti-depressants, I’ve lost some weight as I feel much less need to emotionally eat and they help tone down my hunger. I’m im the decade I want to stay in although I’m going to need to body recomp to gain muscle for American Ninja Warrior training. It’s been slow and steady but I’m seeing real progress.

So that’s where I am at the moment as well as enjoying spending more time with my brother, Dad, cousin snd her kids since they live close to NYC. I’ve had less time for fandom lately but still keep up with some shows (watch Killing Eve!!!) and vidding fandom. If you want to hang out at Vividcon, just let me know!

YAY VIVIDCON!
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New vid: Tightrope (Black Panther) [Jun. 1st, 2018|09:31 am]

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Title: Tightrope
Music: "Tightrope" by Janelle Monáe
Fandom: Black Panther
Focus: Nakia, Okoye, Shuri
Summary: Watch us tip all on it
Content Notes: None.
Notes: Made for Wiscon. Thanks to [personal profile] thingswithwings for the quick beta!
Download Link: Tightrope (97MB MP4)
Subtitle Link: Tightrope subtitles
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New vid: Your Song (Multi-femslash) [Feb. 23rd, 2018|04:08 pm]

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Title: Your Song
Music: "Your Song" by Rita Ora
Fandom: Multi (see notes for full list and pairings)
Summary: I don’t wanna hear sad songs anymore, I only wanna hear love songs.
Content Notes: None.
Notes: Made for the fans at TGIF/F, a multi-fandom femslash convention. Thanks to Apple for the help with the Korrasami clips!
Download Link: Your Song (91MB MP4)
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Vid Sources/Pairings )

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End of the Year Meme 2017 [Dec. 30th, 2017|07:13 pm]

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Brief life update time: The depression has been on and off for the last two months but I'm feeling better currently although it was pretty bad a couple days ago. I'm doing some freelance work which has been going really well and helping with money. I'm still really lonely and wish I was in a romantic relationship.

End of the Year Meme 2017 )

If you're looking for a movie to watch, I highly recommend Call Me By Your Name! It's so beautiful and emotional <3
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New vid: Mermaid (The Little Mermaid) [Dec. 30th, 2017|06:32 pm]

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Title: Mermaid
Music: "Mermaid" by Skott
Fandom: The Little Mermaid
Focus: Ariel, Ariel/Eric
Summary: I'll be your mermaid.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills)
Notes: Made for [personal profile] counteragent.

Download Link: Mermaid (83mb)
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End of Year Vidding Meme 2017 [Dec. 30th, 2017|06:11 pm]

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For vid links: My Vids.

January
Body High (Ghostbusters)
You're So Beautiful (The Get Down)
Dance (Crazy Ex-Girlfriend)
Crash (Bound)

April
Sort Of (Faking It and Supergirl)

August
Weird People (Multi)
Carry That Weight (Star Wars)

October
Be Mean (True Blood)
Down The Rabbit Hole (True Blood)
Titanium (Wonder Woman)

December
Mermaid (The Little Mermaid)

Total Vids: 11

My favorite video this year (of my own)
Titanium because it came out similar to how I saw it in my head and I LOVE Wonder Woman so much and it was so much fun to make. I even enjoyed clipping, CLIPPING o_0 Also it means a lot to me because that movie and song meant so much to me while I was going through hard times.

My least favourite video this year
I like all my vids this year so this question doesn't really apply. I am bummed I wasn't able to make the longer version of Body High that I had planned.

Most successful video
In terms of kudos and comments, that would be Titanium which isn't surprising considering Wonder Woman's popularity.

Video most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion
They were all appreciated fine IMO so I'm not answering this.

Most fun video
It was so fun to vid all the action scenes and pretty shots in Titanium and I had a fun time making it so let's say Titanium. Although in terms of content, Dance was pretty fun.

Video with single sexiest moment
This is always so impossible. Holtzman's gun lick in Body High or Pam pushing Tara against the wall in Be Mean or any of the many times Diana fights in Titanium (esp in slow motion? Let's say Be Mean because that whole vid was hotness for me.

Biggest vid fail Vid procrastination mostly with Crash being made in about one day.

Hardest video to make
Carry That Weight because it required a lot of work and external source in which [personal profile] bessyboo helped me immensely. I also made it while going through intense depression so that made it even harder.

Most unintentionally telling video
Sort Of or Carry That Weight with the former being more intentional.

Things I've learned
Hard to say this year but I got better at working with text and external source as well as just cutting faster in general

Things to work on
Starting earlier and getting big multifandom ideas done well as well as being less of a perfectionist so I can get vids finished.

Vid projects I definitely want to get finished this upcoming year
I will get my Festivid done and I would like to vid at least one vid for TGIF/F, a Club Vivid vid for VVC and a Premieres vid for VVC. Beyond that, we'll see.

Resolutions for 2018
My biggest resolution is to finish the vids above in time for the deadlines. Honestly I don't see myself vidding as much next year because I want to focus on other life stuff and I'm having trouble feeling connected with fandom and getting meaning from vids. Vividcon ending was a huge loss to me and it's made me feel really disappointed about the vidding community and I'm reconsidering how much effort I want to put into vidding anymore. It makes me sad though.
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Dear Festividder (2017-2018) [Nov. 1st, 2017|03:25 pm]

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Dear Festividder,

Thank you so much for making me a vid! I am so excited to see what you come up with and I'm sure it'll be amazing. I love all kinds of music so follow your heart and what suits the vid for you. If you're looking for any guidelines, I tend to prefer indie pop, indie rock, hip hop, mashups, top 40, instrumentals, any kind of music that's emotional or that includes dynamic instrumentation. I love all kinds of vids, character studies, feels vids, shipper, meta, experimental, effects-y vids, dance-y vids, fast or slow, dark, angsty or happy. Any rating or content is fine with me. If you need to use limited (not including Uprooted obviously) external source for your vid idea, I'm totally cool with that. I love Festivids so please enjoy yourself, I'm sure I'll love whatever you make!

Festivid requests for American Ninja Warrior, Atomic Blonde, Billy & Billie, Halt and Catch Fire, Just Jillian, Uprooted, The Wire )


Thank you so much Festividder!
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New vid: Titanium (Wonder Woman) [Oct. 20th, 2017|05:44 pm]

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Title: Titanium
Music: "Titanium" by David Guetta ft. Sia
Fandom: Wonder Woman (2017)
Focus: Wonder Woman
Summary: You shoot me down, but I won't fall.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills)
Notes: Thank you to [personal profile] chaila for looking over the vid for me!

Download Link: Titanium (89mb)
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So when I first watched the new Wonder Woman movie, I knew that someone had to make a vid to this song as Titanium and Wonder Woman go together forever for me thanks to [personal profile] giandujakiss's amazing vid to the TV show here. When the movie finally was available to vid, I tried to think of what I wanted to vid it to and decided to vid it to this song since this song and the movie meant a lot to me while I was going through hard times in June and I wanted to make a vid to the movie that would represent all the things I loved about the movie. This was one of the BEST experiences I've ever had as I had so much fun lovingly getting to clip every frame of Diana and then getting to vid her being awesome and only vidding the parts of the movie I loved was paradise for me. I originally was going to make the vid shorter but then I kept having to include more scenes and I was happy I added a section for young Diana. For the most part, the vid came together easily and I was happy that the vid came out the way I saw it in my head. Plus I got to premiere the vid at my birthday party with myself dressed up as Wonder Woman with my friends and it was an amazing experience :D
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New vid: Be Mean (Pam/Tara) [Oct. 19th, 2017|06:16 pm]

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Title: Be Mean
Music: "Be Mean" by DNCE
Fandom: True Blood S5-602
Focus: Pam/Tara
Summary: Love how you keep me hurting.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills), blood
Notes: Made for [personal profile] lilly_the_kid for the Equinox Exchange (Fall 2017).
Download Link: Down The Rabbit Hole (82mb)
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So I had heard about Pam/Tara becoming a thing on True Blood but I had stopped watching in s4 and never went back to finish the show so I never saw their storyline. But in my rewatch, I was mesmerized by the Pam/Tara storyline and how much chemistry they had together and I couldn't get enough of their scenes. I decided I had to make a treat for them and went looking for a song and after being frustrated for awhile, I finally found this one which captured some of the dom/sub aspects of their relationship which I enjoy so much. It was fun to vid as I love all their scenes and I only wish the show had done more storylines with them. I was glad to finally get a chance to vid Pam and if you're curious, you only need to watch S5 (Pam&Tara scenes) to enjoy the vid!
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New vid: Down The Rabbit Hole (True Blood) [Oct. 19th, 2017|05:16 pm]

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Title: Down The Rabbit Hole
Music: "Down The Rabbit Hole" by Adam Lambert
Fandom: True Blood S1-4
Focus: Lafayette/Jesus
Summary: Going down the rabbit hole
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills), blood
Notes: Made for [personal profile] lilly_the_kid for the Equinox Exchange (Fall 2017).
Download Link: Down The Rabbit Hole (75mb)
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So one of the main reasons I offered True Blood was because I was really sad to hear that the actor who played Lafayette, Nelsan Ellis had died as Lafayette was my favorite character and the main reason I watched True Blood (also Pam). I had always wanted to make a vid for him but never got around to it and so I thought this exchange was the perfect time to do so. I wanted to make a Lafayette character study vid but I really struggled with finding a song that encapsulated all of his character so I kept looking as I rewatched the show but only watched the scenes with Lafayette, Pam or something gay in it (inc Godric/Eric) which were really the best part of the show. I fell in love with Lafayette/Jesus all over again so when I couldn't find a song, I remembered I used to want to vid Adam Lambert's Down The Rabbit Hole to the show and realized the s4 magic/medium plot would work perfectly for it. Once I decided on the song, I struggled a little with making the vid until I realized I just needed to cut the song down and then I could just use all the pretty parts of the plot and it made vidding it a lot more fun and matched my recipient's request even more. In the end, I was happy to have made it but I still hope someday somebody will make an epic Lafayette vid because he deserves it.
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Vividcon 2017 Con Report [Aug. 10th, 2017|01:33 pm]

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I'm back from Vividcon 2017 and I had a wonderful time! I was worried earlier in the year that this VVC would be really sad but thankfully I'm in a great mental state right now where pre-con I've been feeling super happy each day and that carried into the con where I tried to enjoy every moment of the con and savor all the good memories instead of being disappointed when things didn't go my way. It really helped make the con extra awesome and I had a great time getting to connect to my friends, watch vids, talk about vids and have a lot of fun.

I tried remembering everything as best I can but if I made any mistakes, feel free to correct me!

Vividcon 2017 Con Report )

Thank you to everyone who made my Vividcon so special! To me, Vividcon is a beautiful place where vidding is everything just like it is to me and where I can enjoy talking about vidding wherever I go as well and have amazing discussions about the craft. There is nothing that compares to watching premiering vids on the big screen in a crowd of people who *get* and *love* it and it brings an emotional high that is never replicated by watching on a smaller screen alone. I am SO happy to have Vividcon as a part of my life and this year I tried to appreciate each and every moment. I can't wait for next year and I look forward to a year filled with vidding growth as a vidder and as a community. Vividcon <3 Forever!
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New vid: Carry That Weight (Star Wars) [Aug. 7th, 2017|04:38 pm]

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Title: Carry That Weight
Music: "Golden Slumbers / Carry That Weight" by Jennifer Hudson (cover of The Beatles)
Fandom: Star Wars
Focus: Leia & Rey
Summary: I will sing a lullaby. #RepresentationMatters
Content Notes: None.
Notes: Made for Vividcon Premieres 2017 with help from [personal profile] bessyboo.
Download Link: Carry That Weight (99 MB MP4)
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Notes coming soon!
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Dear Equinox Vidder [Jul. 23rd, 2017|07:20 pm]

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Sorry for the delay and thank you so much for making me a vid! I am so excited to see what you come up with and I'm sure it'll be amazing. I love all kinds of music so follow your heart and what suits the vid for you. If you're looking for any guidelines, I tend to prefer indie pop, indie rock, hip hop, top 40, any kind of music that's emotional or that includes dynamic instrumentation. I love all kinds of vids from character studies, feels vids, shipper, meta, effects-y vids, fast or slow, dark, angsty, experimental and everything in between. Any rating or content is fine with me. I love books SO MUCH so if you want to make a vid that consists more of the book vs the adaption, this is definitely the challenge to do so! Please just enjoy yourself (I'm easy!) and make something you love and have fun vidding :D

Carol )

Friday Night Lights )

Game of Thrones )

Orange is the New Black )

Sex and the City )

True Blood )

Younger )

Multi-Fandom )
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Vividcon Forever #SaveVividcon [Jun. 3rd, 2017|11:04 pm]

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I am extremely upset by the news that Vividcon is ending after Vividcon 2018. Vividcon means everything to me and this world has tried to destroy me so much in the last year but I thought I would always have Vividcon. If you love Vividcon and would still love it to continue as a vidding con, please don't give up on the idea because I will not. I will say more about this later but here's what I said on Twitter:

I can't put into words how upset and heartbroken I am about this. Know that I will do everything in my power to make sure Vividcon never ends.

I am not giving up on Vividcon and a con where VIDDING is the main focus. I will dedicate my life to this, I swear.

Vidding has been the thing I love most in life for 15 years. Vividcon has been the one place I feel at home & I love it more than anything.

I consider everyone who has attended Vividcon my family and I will fight for all of you and for the concept of a vidding focused con.

I was super inspired watching Wonder Woman again today. As she says, if I don't fight for what I believe in, who will I be?

I believe in Vividcon. Until there is no one left (besides me) who wants to come, there will ALWAYS be a Vividcon. I will give my life to it.
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New vid: Sort Of (Faking It & Supergirl) [Apr. 13th, 2017|01:12 pm]

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Title: Sort Of
Music: "Sort Of" by Ingrid Michaelson
Fandom: Faking It & Supergirl
Focus: Amy/Karma & Alex/Maggie
Summary: "Tons of queer girls fall for their best friends. It’s a common step in our evolution."
Notes: Made for the TGIF/F 2017 Vidshow. Thank you to [personal profile] elipie and [personal profile] paintedmaypole for the beta help!
Download Link: Sort Of (88 MB MP4)
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So I had the idea to do a Karmy vid to this song after watching S1 of Faking It but I had another vidsong I wanted to do more so I made that instead. I saved this song just in case I ever wanted to vid Faking It again and when I went through a similar experience last year, all the emotions of the song came back to me. When I watched Supergirl, I strongly connected to the Sanvers plot because of it and it gave me the idea to make a vid to this song connecting the two falling for your friend plots. It was an emotional vid to make but also cathartic and it came together fairly easily in terms of making the two shows work together since I could see the patterns in both sources. It was a bit of a struggle trying to visually show the layered lyrics at the end but fun to work with opacity and color a bit. I wanted to show the happiness and agony of this common queer girl experience and how TV shows can help us relate to and process our own life experiences.
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My Festivids this year [Feb. 27th, 2017|09:45 am]

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Just in case anyone missed them, here are the 4 festivids I made this year:

Title: Body High
Music: "Body High" by Mike Taylor
Fandom: Ghostbusters (2016)
Focus: Jillian Holtzmann
Summary: You give me a body high.
Body High DW link

Title: You're So Beautiful
Music: "You're So Beautiful (White Party Version)" by Empire Cast featuring Jussie Smollett
Fandom: The Get Down (2016)
Focus: Dizzee/Thor
Summary: It sure looks good to me.
You're So Beautiful DW link

Title: Dance
Music: "Dance" by POWERS
Fandom: Crazy Ex-Girlfriend
Focus: Rebecca, Paula, Valencia, Heather
Summary: Prepare to surrender to the power of femslash.
Dance DW link

Title: Crash
Music: "Crash" by Gwen Stefani
Fandom: Bound (1996)
Focus: Corky/Violet
Summary: Do me real hard.
Crash DW link

There's also a new vid exchange called Equinox that will run in both spring and fall with different themes (voted on) which you can find more about here. The current exchange is space themed and you can find a list of letters with fandoms and requests here if you want to make any treats. I didn't sign up but I maaaay make a treat depending on time and motivation. I have a bunch of vids planned for cons so I'm not sure if I will but you never know.

I'm mostly still on Twitter these days but I'm enjoying all the posts on DW and hope to post more here soon!
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New vid: Crash (Bound) [Jan. 28th, 2017|03:23 am]

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Title: Crash
Music: "Crash" by Gwen Stefani
Fandom: Bound (1996)
Focus: Corky/Violet
Summary: Do me real hard.
Notes: Made for [personal profile] aurumcalendula in Festivids 2016.
Download Link: Crash (35 MB MP4)
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I saw this movie relatively recently and was blown away by how hot it was and how much I loved Corky and Violet. I was happy to see [personal profile] aurumcalendula participating in femslash as we have similar interests and wanted to make her a treat. I only had time to make something short but I wanted to put some of the sexy footage to good use and when I heard this song, I knew it would work perfectly. It took me forever to finish my other vids the day before Festivids Golive so I only had 4 hours to vid this but thankfully it didn't take very long and I definitely enjoyed making it ;)
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New vid: Dance (Crazy Ex-Girlfriend) [Jan. 28th, 2017|03:22 am]

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Title: Dance
Music: "Dance" by POWERS
Fandom: Crazy Ex-Girlfriend
Focus: Rebecca, Paula, Valencia, Heather
Summary: Prepare to surrender to the power of femslash.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills)
Notes: Made for [personal profile] awkwardlyary in Festivids 2016. Thanks to [personal profile] lola for the quick beta!
Download Link: Dance (76 MB MP4)
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When I saw [personal profile] awkwardlyary's requests go up, I loved most of them and wanted to make something for her. Finally I heard this song and knew I could make a fun dance vid for Crazy Ex-Girlfriend. I didn't have a lot of time so I decided to limit myself to the music videos from the show and had SO much fun watching them again as I forgot how hilarious they were. I wanted to focus on my favorite women and the femslashy ships with them since that's my favorite part of the show. It was a lot of fun to vid all the dance-y clips and find all the parallels and femslashy footage in the source and it came out relatively quickly. Even if you don't watch the show, I highly recommend watching all the music videos which you can find on Youtube.
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New vid: You're So Beautiful (The Get Down) [Jan. 28th, 2017|03:21 am]

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Title: You're So Beautiful
Music: "You're So Beautiful (White Party Version)" by Empire Cast featuring Jussie Smollett
Fandom: The Get Down (2016)
Focus: Dizzee/Thor
Summary: It sure looks good to me.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills)
Notes: Made for [personal profile] eruthros in Festivids 2016. Thanks to [personal profile] bessyboo for the quick beta!
Download Link: You're So Beautiful (67 MB MP4)
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I wasn't planning to vid this pairing but then I was listening to some of my favorite songs and I heard this song and instantly made me think of them. I've always LOVED the "man loves a man" section and wanted to vid it and this seemed like the perfect opportunity since I wanted to vid this source and make a treat for [personal profile] eruthros. I had the most fun time vidding the music kissing section and then had fun setting up all the slashy moments of them together that led me to believe in the source that it would happen. It was great to make a quick treat and hopefully get some people to try this wonderful show!
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New vid: Body High (Ghostbusters) [Jan. 28th, 2017|03:19 am]

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Title: Body High
Music: "Body High" by Mike Taylor
Fandom: Ghostbusters (2016)
Focus: Jillian Holtzmann
Summary: You give me a body high.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills)
Notes: Made for [personal profile] grammarwoman in Festivids 2016. Thanks to [personal profile] bessyboo for the quick beta!
Download Link: Body High (83 MB MP4)
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After I saw Ghostbusters, I was SO in love with Jillian Holtzmann and I figured I'd have to vid her at some point to let out my feels. I had an idea for a Holtzmann vid I wanted to make so I offered it for Festivids and was happy to see I got assigned a fellow Holtzmann lover :) I struggled some with my idea which turned out to be bigger than I could make especially considering some RL issues and I couldn't figure out how to structure the vid. I wanted to default a lot but I pushed through and decided to cut down my idea and make a vid about Holtzmann finding her family with the ghostbusters. After that, it became a lot more fun to vid and I was able to quickly vid it and make it look the way I wanted it to look. I was glad I was able to finish and bring some more Holtzmann love to the world!
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End of the Year Meme 2016 [Dec. 31st, 2016|10:01 pm]

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This was a tough year for me personally as well as for the world but I come out of it even more grateful for all my friends and for fandom so thank you to everyone who was there for me in any small way and I wish everyone a happy new year and the best possible 2017!

End of the Year Meme 2016 )

I'm not going to do the End of the Year Fandom meme right now as I'm out of time and it's kind of complicated at the moment. I miss having a fandom OTP right now and am hoping I will find something in 2017.
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End of Year Vidding Meme 2016 [Dec. 30th, 2016|09:26 pm]

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I'm lazy so here: My Vids.

January
Alive (Pitch Perfect)
Headphones (Pitch Perfect)
Shine (Years & Years)
Blow (Gone Girl)
Ready or Not (Hamilton)

February
Sparks (Blue Neighbourhood)
ILYSB (Hamilton RPF)

August
Goin' Down For Real (Multi)
Suffer (Person of Interest)
Delilah (Person of Interest)

Total Vids: 10

My favorite video this year (of my own)
Goin' Down For Real because while it took a lot of time, it made me really happy to see so many canon femslash pairings in a year that was terrible for us femslashers. I love watching it and it's just really sexy and gay which are two of my favorite things. I was really happy with how it turned out which is always important to me and I had a great time dancing to it at Club Vivid.

My least favourite video this year
I truly like all of my vids this year. If forced maybe Ready or Not just because I had limited time to make it and I wish I had more time to make a real Hamilton vid. BUT I REALLY LOVE HAMILTON and I enjoyed making the vid a lot so I truly love that vid too.

Most successful video
Most of my vids were successful as far as I am concerned but in terms of comments, Alive and Goin' Down For Real (the latter esp for online viewership).

Video most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion
I was happy with the reception for all of them but I think Suffer deserves a little more love because daaamn they are too hot together and it's one of my favorite of my own vids to rewatch it all together in that vid.

Most fun video
This is hard because the process of making Headphones, Ready or Not, ILYSB, Goin' Down For Real and Suffer were all fun to make in many ways. But I guess in terms of fun overall...ILYSB. I had deadline stress but I was so in love with these two boyfriends that it didn't even matter and it's just a cute, shippy little vid.

Video with single sexiest moment
HOW TO CHOOSE???? Like almost all of Goin' Down For Real (esp the last third) and most of Suffer too. But the one moment I think of is the last clip in Suffer where Root runs her hand down Shaw's back cause DAMN that just gets to me. So I'm going to go with that.

Biggest vid fail
As usual, rushing to make vids to deadlines is a problem as it's hard to make the vids live up to my own standards but nothing major in terms of vids this year. I suppose I had an audio issue with Suffer at Vividcon but I fixed it for the online version so *shrugs*.

Hardest video to make
Goin' Down For Real because it was my first multi vid and it took FOREVER to find all the sources and get source for them and find femslash scenes from YT videos in the actual source. Plus I struggled trying to make it sexy and look good and all fit together. But it was worth the effort in the end and it came together like I hoped.

Most unintentionally telling video
Hahaha. This question is a little #tooreal for me this year for reasons I'm not getting into here but I'd say the trio of VVC vids were more personal than I thought and I saw a different layer to Delilah once I made it so let's go with that one.

Things I've learned
Some of it is hard to put into words but the things that stick out is how to make multi vids, getting better at making sexy vids, doing more with motion, dealing with different source sizes, a little progress on cutting fast and less applied but I've learned more about color this year.

Things to work on
I'm always trying to improve my cutting and expressing ideas in vidding the best possible way. I would like to improve my technical skills across the board from learning Premiere/AE better, learning more color with Davinci Resolve (it's FREE and professional color grading software) as well as learning more about compositing and visual design in general. I would like to learn how to clip and edit faster as I have too many ideas and it takes too long to vid and I think I've let inertia carry me along too long in my current process.

Vid projects I definitely want to get finished this upcoming year
My festivids assignment OF COURSE although I'm struggling with motivation with it right now. I'm worried it'll be a one vid (or two with a quick treat) Festivids year because I'm a bit overwhelmed with other non-vidding things right now. I am DETERMINED to finish a multi vid for VVC Premieres this year that's very important and meaningful to me but I am worried about time with it. I hope to have a TGIF/F vid but worry about time as I have another multi vid I want to make for VVC plus at least one CVV vid which I already started.

Resolutions for 2017
As always, try to start vid projects and make more consistent process so I'm not rushed at the end and can get more beta feedback. Habitica (habit app that a bunch of vidders use, lmk if you want a guild invite) has helped a lot with consistency but I need to improve with doing more each day versus all at once. I'm constantly struggling with when to say no to vid ideas in order to focus on the vid ideas I most want to make so I would like to keep trying to focus on my most important vids especially in the first half of this year. As mentioned above, get better technically as well as learn more about film and visual images to work more on how to create the most meaning and beauty from the imagery I work with. I'm trying to learn more about fan studies as I would like to make more vids about fandom in the future and it helps me get a better perspective on vids and fandom as a whole. Also try to be the change I want to see in the world and talk more about vidding as well as encourage others to talk about it. I miss when the vidding community used to post more about vids back in the golden age of LJ (siiigh end of an era now).
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Dear Festividder [Oct. 25th, 2016|11:54 am]

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Dear Festividder,

Thank you so much for making me a vid! I am so excited to see what you come up with and I'm sure it'll be amazing. I love all kinds of music so follow your heart and what suits the vid for you. If you're looking for any guidelines, I tend to prefer indie pop, indie rock, hip hop, mashups, top 40, instrumentals, any kind of music that's emotional or that includes dynamic instrumentation. I love all kinds of vids, character studies, feels vids, shipper, meta, experimental, effects-y vids, dance-y vids, fast or slow, dark, angsty or happy. I am less into vids with dialogue within the vid but if you have a great idea for it, go for it (Uprooted is one where adding words from the book could be interesting)! Any rating or content is fine with me. If you need to use limited (not including Uprooted obviously) external source for your vid idea, I'm totally cool with that. I love Festivids so please enjoy yourself, I'm sure I'll love whatever you make!

Requests for Billy & Billie, Ghostbusters, Halt and Catch Fire, Hamilton, Just Jillian, UnREAL, Uprooted, The Wire )

Thank you so much Festividder!

P.S. If all else fails, as is true in many things in life, go for the gay ;)
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Vividcon 2016 Con Report (Part 2) [Aug. 20th, 2016|02:05 am]

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Here's my Vividcon 2016 Con Report (Part 1) here.

I tried remembering everything as best I can but if I made any mistakes, feel free to correct me! This goes for anything as I'd always like to improve :)

Vividcon Con Report 2016 (Part 2) )

Thank you again to all the amazing people that made my Vividcon so wonderful and amazing and for all the people who helped put the con together, worked on programming and submitted vids. It was funny that there was a panel at the con about letting go because it felt like a lot of the con was an exercise in letting go for me: letting go of my expectations, my nerves, FOMO, my hopes that everything would go perfectly and instead just savoring all the good moments, allowing myself to be vulnerable and making deeper connections from it, doing the best I could even when things were hard, loving the vids and community all around me. In the end, life is too fucking short to focus on the bad stuff so I tried my best to be happy at all the good things this con gave me this year and all the ways it has enhanced my life. I love Vividcon so much and I'm so glad I've gotten to enjoy it with so many different beautiful, amazing people and that is so incredibly meaningful.
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Vividcon 2016 Con Report (Part 1) [Aug. 20th, 2016|02:01 am]

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So I'm back from Vividcon 2016 and as always, I had an amazing time. It was probably the weirdest Vividcon I've ever been to (personally) and an emotional roller coaster throughout but I had a lot of fun and it was wonderful to see so many friends again (even though I missed others who weren't there). There were so many incredible vids this year and I am constantly amazed by the creativity, brilliance and talent of the vidding community and so happy to be a part of it.

I tried remembering everything as best I can but if I made any mistakes, feel free to correct me! This goes for anything as I'd always like to improve :)

Vividcon Con Report 2016 (Part 1) )

TBC here
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New vid: Goin' Down For Real (Multi) [Aug. 18th, 2016|06:18 pm]

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Title: Goin' Down For Real
Music: "G.D.F.R." by Flo Rida ft. Sage The Gemini and Lookas
Fandom: Multi (see notes for full list and pairings)
Summary: HAROLD, THEY'RE LESBIANS.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills)
Notes: Made for Club Vivid at Vividcon 2016. Some small changes were made in the online version. Thanks to [personal profile] bessyboo, [personal profile] kiki_miserychic and [personal profile] mammothluv for all their help in making this!
Download Link: GDFR (83MB MP4)
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Vid Sources/Pairings )

Vid Notes )
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New vid: Suffer (Person of Interest) [Aug. 17th, 2016|05:02 pm]

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Title: Suffer
Music: Charlie Puth (Vince Staples & AndreaLo Remix)
Fandom: Person of Interest S1-504
Focus: Root/Shaw
Summary: I kind of enjoy this sort of thing (I do, too).
Content Notes: Bondage, Blood, Issues of consent, Needles
Notes: Made for the A Spankin' Good Time Vidshow at Vividcon 2016. Thanks to [personal profile] kiki_miserychic for the quick beta!
Download Link: Suffer (45 MB MP4)
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Vid Notes )

If you don't want to watch the whole show but are interested in just the Root/Shaw scenes, here are some links to Root/Shaw supercuts on Youtube:

Root/Shaw Supercuts )

If you'd like to just watch only the Root and/or Shaw focused episodes, here's what I would recommend:

Root and/or Shaw episodes with brief notes )

If you need any more information or need any help finding anything related to Root and/or Shaw, let me know!
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New vid: Delilah (Person of Interest) [Aug. 17th, 2016|01:27 pm]

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Title: Delilah
Music: Florence and the Machine
Fandom: Person of Interest 504
Focus: Shaw, Root/Shaw
Summary: You were my safe place.
Content Notes: Graphic Violence, Physical Triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills), Suicide, Blood/gore, Psychological Torture
Notes: Made for Vividcon Premieres 2016. Thanks to [personal profile] kiki_miserychic for the beta and encouragement!
Download Link: Delilah (75 MB MP4)
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Delilah from Anoel on Vimeo.



Vid Notes )

If you don't want to watch the whole show but are interested in just the Root/Shaw scenes, here are some links to Root/Shaw supercuts on Youtube:

Root/Shaw Supercuts )

If you'd like to just watch only the Root and/or Shaw focused episodes, here's what I would recommend:

Root and/or Shaw episodes with brief notes )

If you need any more information or need any help finding anything related to Root and/or Shaw, let me know!
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Vividcon 2015 Con Report (Part 2) [Aug. 4th, 2016|02:46 pm]

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Here is my long delayed con report (part 2) from last year's Vividcon. I wrote it down the week after Vividcon but needed to make some edits and forgot to post it. I didn't remember everything so apologies if I missed writing anything down.

Vividcon 2015 Con Report (Part 2) )

Yesterday I arrived in Minnesota to visit with [personal profile] bessyboo for the week before Vividcon and then will drive down to Vividcon 2016 next Thursday with other fans. I'm SO excited for Vividcon this year and I can't wait to see all the new vids and all my favorite people there. It's going to be amazing!
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Vividcon 2015 Con Report (Part 1) [Aug. 4th, 2016|02:39 pm]

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Here is my long delayed con report (part 1) from last year's Vividcon. I wrote it down the week after Vividcon but needed to make some edits and forgot to post it. I didn't remember everything so apologies if I missed writing anything down.

Vividcon 2015 Con Report (Part 1) )
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New vid: ILYSB (Hamilton RPF) [Mar. 8th, 2016|01:45 pm]

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Title: ILYSB
Music: "ILYSB" by LANY
Fandom: Hamilton RPF
Focus: Lin-Manuel Miranda/Jonathan Groff
Summary: I love you, babe — so bad, so bad.
Content Notes: None.
Notes: Made for Escapade 2016. There are a few minor changes from the version that showed at the con.
Download Link: ILYSB (49MB MP4)
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I've fallen head over heels with Lin Manuel Miranda/Jonathan Groff since they love each other SO MUCH and are so cute on Twitter and in videos about it and basically ship themselves. So I knew for Escapade I wanted to make a RPS vid about their love for each other and since there's limited footage, I figured I'd have time to vid them in 3-7 days after Festivids. I already had the song since I loved this song for months and "hella obsessed with your face" always reminded me of how LMM looks at Groffsauce and I just had to audio edit a bit to get the right lyrics and length. It was a little complicated techically to make since I had to gather all the footage which was in all different sizes and qualities and then get it scaled down but I managed to figure that all out and also edit the song I had found that gave me happy LMM/Groffsauce feels. I was unsure of how to handle the smaller footage but then figured out to put the Hamilton background there which I liked how it connected their relationship to the larger musical. The structure was pretty simple with vidding to the lyrics although it was a little tricky trying to get some visual contrast as well as figuring out how to use the tweets and still images. Mostly I had a LOT of feels making this and even though it was a bit of a rush at the end, I'm still really glad I was able to make a little vid to condense all their cuteness together and give me a shipper high whenever I watch it.
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New vid: Sparks (Blue Neighbourhood) [Mar. 8th, 2016|01:05 pm]

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Title: Sparks
Music: "Sparks" by Fleurie
Fandom: Blue Neighbourhood (3 part music video series)
Focus: Troye/Matthew
Summary: Sparks for the first time.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills)
Notes: Made for Escapade 2016.
Download Link: Sparks (46MB MP4)
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So I wasn't planning to make this vid but then [personal profile] winterevanesce made me this AMAZING vid for Blue Neighbourhood that gave me all the feels and reignited my desire to vid these precious boys. Since she had vidded both the angst and cuteness so well, I figured I could still make a happy, romantic vid for them so I looked at the end of my new songs I like playlist on Spotify and almost immediately found the song I used for the vid. So it was basically fate ;) I initially was going to cut the song more but I really wanted that crescendo instrumental build so I figured I'd make it work with the clips I had. I knew I wanted to start the beginning with the young kids realizing they had feelings to make it clear it was a romance at each age and I figured out I wanted to build to the kiss in the first chorus and then the sex in the last section. One of the other reasons I wanted to make the vid is to give my proof and interpretation of why I think the music videos ended in a happy ending (it's ambiguous) or why it SHOULD so hopefully that comes through on some level. It was fun to vid Troye and Matthew who are just so freaking attractive as well as the cuteness of the boys and besides an audio issue at the very end, I had a fun and pain-free vidding process as it mostly all came together. And I am definitely in agreement with the people at Escapade who wanted the movie not a music video series because I really, really wish the source was longer and had the story (hint hint write fic!).
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New vid: Ready or Not (Hamilton) [Feb. 18th, 2016|12:09 am]

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Title: Ready or Not
Music: Bridgit Mendler
Fandom: Hamilton
Summary: No one is ready for Hamilton.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills)
Notes: Made for [personal profile] sdwolfpup in Festivids 2015.
Download Link: Ready or Not (68MB MP4)
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So I really wanted to make a Hamilton vid for Festivids but most of my vid ideas for the show required too much footage I didn't have as well as a lot of time that I didn't really have with all the other Festivids I wanted to make. So I thought it wouldn't happen this year until I found this song and I must have been in a Hamilton mood because only half the lyrics make sense for him and the other half are COMPLETELY wrong. But I kept getting attached to the idea and I figured if I had time, I could make a vid in the last couple days before the deadline by cutting the song down. I didn't really have time but I made enough to cut out all the lyrics that didn't fit Hamilton and just kept the last chrous and figured I'd just make a happy, Hamilton focused ensemble vid for the show. At one point, I thought about making the vid more meta about the show phenomen itself but when I tried to do that, I realized I didn't have enough time to tell both stories adequely so I just went with Hamilton the show.

It was a LOT of fun to vid this because I'm so obsessed with the musical and vidding allowed me to really see each little face movement and all the little details I miss on regular viewings. The lyric matchings were really fun although it became a bit tricky to have some more structure for when it was less obvious but I enjoyed comparing Jefferson & co to redcoats at the end fighting section as well as figuring out ways to introduce all the major players in Hamilton's life. One of my favorite clips is Hamilton's smile to Angelica because SO CUTE and I also loved putting in my little "follow" Hamilton/Washington moment. Ultimately I wanted to make it for [personal profile] sdwolfpup since she has been so awesome on Twitter with quoting Hamilton and being fun to talk to about Hamilton and Leslie. I wanted to make her a Burr vid actually but could never find a song that would work for such limited footage and I also figured someone else would do it. Anyways, the beginning turned out to be one of the trickiest parts but I was happy with the way the whole vid turned out in the end even if I'm not sure if it's a bit too fast. In any case, do not worry, this is DEFINITELY not the last Hamilton vid you'll see from you and I'm so excited to vid it when we have HQ footage of the whole musical to vid the longer vids in my head.
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New vid: Blow (Gone Girl) [Feb. 17th, 2016|11:43 pm]

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Title: Blow
Music: Blow by Kesha (Cirkut Remix)
Fandom: Gone Girl
Summary: "The bad guy wins? Fuck him." Or, Fuck Yeah Amy!
Content Notes: Graphic violence+ blood+ gore
Notes: Made for [personal profile] chaila in Festivids 2015. Thanks to [personal profile] hollywoodgrrl for the beta and [personal profile] killabeez for the audio editing help.
Download Link: Blow (69MB MP4)
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So I've wanted to make [personal profile] chaila a Festivid for 3 years and every year, her vid was next on the list and I didn't have the time to make it so this year I was determined to make her a vid. There is a sad lack of Gone Girl vids and last year at Escapade, I heard Blow and thought it'd make a fun Amy vid. Plus, almost all of the LA vidders have vidded Blow by Kesha (some version of it) at some point so I figured I might as well do it myself. I wanted to find a remix of the song so I could do some quick cutting and couldn't find anything that worked for it except this song which has already been used in one of my favorite Club Vivid vids but I decided to use it anyways. I tried to reread the book before I made the vid but got stuck in the Nick sections but finally figured out the book is a MILLION times better skipping Nick's sections and just reading the glorious Amy sections.

I got distracted by another festivid so I got started on this vid late but once I clipped it, I struggled a bit coming up with how I wanted to vid it. It helped me a LOT once I decided to cut out more of the song than I first imagined so that allowed me to just focus on the parts of the movie I wanted to vid: Amy being a mastermind and destroying Nick :D Some of the faster cutting sections were difficult and [personal profile] hollywoodgrrl helped with that as well as the slower section in the middle. I particularly loved the "throw some glitter" section as I knew what I wanted to do with that from the beginning of the vid. I still wish I had more time to work on the vid but I'm really glad I got to make an Amy vid and that a lot of it came out similar to my initial vision for the vid and what I wanted to show.
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New vid: Shine (RPF - Years & Years) [Feb. 17th, 2016|11:23 pm]

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Title: Shine
Music: "Shine" by Years & Years
Fandom: RPF - Years & Years
Summary: It's you that I've been waiting to find.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills)
Notes: Made for [personal profile] winterevanesce in Festivids 2015. Thanks to [personal profile] bessyboo for the quick beta!
Download Link: Shine (60MB MP4)
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So when I fell in love with Troye Sivan, I started reading some articles about him and eventually came across one talking about other gay music artists and Olly from Years & Years came up. I started listening to Years & Years music and fell in love with the deep emotion of Olly's voice as well as the band's beautiful music videos. I was intrigued by the idea to make a music video of most of their music videos to try to combine them together to tell a coherent story which I hadn't really done before and looked for a song that reflected the emotion and the story I wanted to tell. I couldn't find anything good enough and finally decided to use the song, Shine since I loved it and they had made a bunch of music videos to the song so clearly one more wouldn't be an issue ;) I clipped all the music videos and organized the clips a bit but then got distracted by my assigment so I wasn't sure if I would finish this vid since I had another ambitious vid I was working on. When I decided I wouldn't have time to finish that one, I decided to try to make this vid especially since I really wanted to make a vid for [profile] winterevanescence.

I really loved the process of trying to create a story that didn't exist through vidding instead of fic and the structure was really fun to do. I started this at the end of December and the beginning came pretty easy as knew I wanted to show Olly becoming separate from his bandmates after being distracted and tempted by pretty colors and symbols that would become important to the band. I struggled with the later parts as I soon realized that I didn't have enough footage to cover the whole song and I had to figure out which parts I had the footage to keep and would work with the story of the beginning. I was able to figure it out and I liked the whole idea I had of creating Olly's evil twin that was trying to destroy him leading to the house coming apart as Olly tried to find his way back to the happiness of playing music with his bandmates at the end. There was another layer that I didn't know if anyone would get to the story where to me it was kind of a metaphor to when you get distracted by your negative thoughts (that *evil* part of yourself) or other things that take you away from happiness and you have to find your way back to the light. In any case, I also have fun playing with the colorful footage and vidding in a little bit more of a flow-y way and I was glad that I was able to make it.
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New vid: Headphones (Pitch Perfect) [Feb. 17th, 2016|09:24 pm]

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Title: Headphones
Music: "Headphones" by Matt Nathanson (feat. LOLO)
Fandom: Pitch Perfect movies
Focus: Beca Mitchell
Summary: I feel invincible with my headphones on.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills)
Notes: Made for [personal profile] metatxt in Festivids 2015.
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So I heard the song "Headphones" and fell in love with it as for me it's a perfect representation of that mood that I relate to when I want to ignore the outside world and just focus on creating, usually vidding. It reminded me of Beca from Pitch Perfect as she's such a great representation of fan artists with her mashups and how she loves her headphones. I felt bad that I wouldn't get to make a treat for [personal profile] metatxt since she was my assignment so I decided to make her this treat while I was looking for a song for her assignment. I cut the song down because the concept was pretty small and I wanted to use only the best clips and thankfully it was easy and fun to vid. Most of it was done by the beginning of November which helped lesson some of my assignment stress. I wanted to keep Jesse, Chloe and the Bellas out of the vid as much as possible as Beca did connect with them (which I showed for the latter two in my ensemble vid) which limited my clip choices a bit but I made it work. Ultimately I was pleased I made this vid and that a bunch of people got that it was about vidding and fandom in general as that was a major reasons why I decided to make the vid.
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New vid: Alive (Pitch Perfect) [Feb. 17th, 2016|07:59 pm]

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Title: Alive
Music: "Alive" by Krewella
Fandom: Pitch Perfect movies
Focus: Beca/Chloe
Summary: Come on, make me feel alive.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills)
Notes: Made for [personal profile] metatxt in Festivids 2015. Thanks to [personal profile] jarrow for the beta.
Download Link: Alive (94MB MP4)
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So I was planning to make [personal profile] metatxt a Bechloe vid since I knew she LOVED them and so when I got assigned to her, I was super excited to get a chance to actually make it especially when I read her Dear Festividdder letter which was hilarious and inspiring. I also loved that I was making it for Festivids since I had used the Pitch Perfect finale song a few years ago to make my Parks vid and it felt very full circle to vid the actual movies. My first problem though was finding the right song and that turned out to be a little harder than I thought as it took me about two weeks. While I looked around for songs, I clipped the movie and once I finished, I already had the song for Headphones so I vidded that as I was waiting but I started to get nervous because I wanted to finish the vid by the end of the November (ha!). I was complaining about it to [personal profile] elipie and then I started just searching for titles that reminded me of the vibe I was looking for and "Alive" was one of them, I found this song and the rest was history. Except that I actually planned to cut the song after the second chorus because I didn't think I had enough Bechloe footage but later on when I tried it, it felt cut off and like the ending wasn't strong or conclusive enough and that it needed more.

Yeah, so that's when I decided I needed to add the rest of the song and make it more of an ensemble dance chorus so that was more clipping I had to do which made the vid take longer than I expected. I struggled a little bit with making the choruses be fun and dance-y in an interesting way as well as dealing with the heavy face shots of the Bechloe scenes but was able to find a way to make it work for me and I had a lot of fun vidding the quick editing sections before the choruses. Even though it was harder than I expected and took longer, it was really fun to rekindle my Bechloe love and gave me a lot of feels and I was glad it made [personal profile] metatxt happy in the end.
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End of the Year Meme 2015 [Dec. 31st, 2015|07:34 pm]

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So before I go into the end of the year meme, I want to talk a little about the RL stuff that happened this year that led to some of my answers in this meme.

Year of 2015 general thoughts )

End of the Year Meme )
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End of the Year Fandom Meme [Dec. 31st, 2015|06:52 pm]

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It's the last day of the year so you know what means: meme time.

What fandoms did you acquire in 2015?

HAMILTON (so obsessed), The Good Wife (Kalicia mostly), Person of Interest (Root/Shaw/Machine mostly), UnREAL, The Fall, Billy & Billie, Halt and Catch Fire, Review, Unbreakable Kimmy Schmidt, Carmilla, Difficult People, The 100, Casual, The Leftovers, The X-Files (on S2), Galavant, Better Call Saul, Master of None, Fresh Off the Boat, Sense8, Grace and Frankie, Frasier (still working on this), Another Period, Crazy Ex-Girlfriend, Empire, Supergirl (maybe, I can barely watch this as a clipping show but I love Kara/Cat), Jessica Jones (kind of-may only watch Jeri scenes next season), Star Wars (a little).

Started but not sure yet: Ballers, Bloodline, Cucumber, Banana, Fear the Walking Dead, Girl Meets World, Mr. Robot, The Man in the High Castle, Outlander, Rectify, Survivor's Remorse

What fandoms did you let go of in 2015?

Hockey RPF (for the quickest/worst fandom loss ever), The Mindy Project (I can't do bad baby plots even when I LOVE Mindy), Jane the Virgin (I also can't do good baby plots), maybe Fargo not sure yet.

What fandoms did you mean to get into but didn't in 2015? Why?

Deadwood (I got through mid-S1 and now forget most of it so haven't gone back), Penny Dreadful (not really my thing although I may try again another time), Manhattan (slow so far but I may try again).

What fandoms do you intend on checking out in 2016?

Deadwood, Show Me a Hero, Hannibal (catch up), Louie (catchup), Black-ish, Playing House, Banana, Cucumber, The Returned, Lovely Little Losers, The Man in the High Castle, Mr. Robot.

What fandoms do you think you might let go of in 2016 unless things significantly improve?

Right now I'm iffy on some shows that are kind of boring me: Nashville, Crazy Ex-Girlfriend, Empire, maybe Supergirl.

What show impressed you most in 2015?

Not TV but Hamilton was the best thing I listened to and watched all year and in the top 3 in my entire life. SO BRILLIANT, amazing use of words, narrative, incredible characters to identify with, revolutionary idea, music that I listen to nonstop. UnREAL was incredible with its interesting critique of reality shows and the beautiful, complicated, interesting relationship (and character development) of the two female leads. In general I found some unique, intriguing, feelsy femslash in The Good Wife with Alicia/Kalinda and in Person of Interest with Root/Shaw that was amazing to experience. I loved the Parks and Mad Men series finales which went out on top and moved me to tears. Movie-wise, Inside Out blew me away and Carol was so beautiful and amazing it took my breath away.

What show impressed you least in 2015?

Really bummed The Mindy Project not only did an accidental pregnancy plot that made no sense (THEY'RE OBGYNS!!!) but then badly handled the baby plot, made me dislike Danny with SAHM bullshit and then added a sexist doctor and that finally forced me to abandon the show despite my hero worship for Mindy Kaling for almost 10 years. I may go back someday but I had to quit it for now. The Kevin episodes/half-episodes on The Leftovers were THE WORST and bring the show way down for me (why are you wasting Regina King and Carrie Coon???). Jessica Jones had potential but I'm still bitter what they did to Jeri and how they sacrificed character development for plot which was drawn out way too long.

Your biggest fan anticipations for the New Year?

I'm curious about Westworld, American Gods, Emerald City, Billions, Angie Tribeca (written by Steve Carell and his wife starring Rashida Jones), The Catch (Shondaland), The Magicians. I will not catch up in time but I'm looking forward to later watching The X-Files revival once I do. Moviewise, looking forward to The Girl with All the Gifts, Ghostbusters, Moana (LMM) and Finding Dory.

I've been reading some of my favorite TV critics about TV shows and criticism and #PeakTV and all that but lately I've been pretty disappointed with TV. There's nothing that's really grabbing me and that's not just good (sometimes great) but truly Great like a Breaking Bad or similar. I miss great shows that have characters that I really connect with and I'm always frustrated with all the white guy centered shows out there. It's frustrating that there's so many TV shows and yet I have such a hard time finding ones I truly love. Imma keep trying though as a helpless TV fan but I hope next year will be better for TV. In any case, I've been trying to read more books to help fulfill the character connections I'm not getting as much on TV although I miss the visuals with books and fandoms are harder to come by.
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End of Year Vidding Meme 2015 [Dec. 31st, 2015|01:02 pm]

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January
Infinite (The Perks of Being a Wallflower)
All I Want (Life of Pi)
Us Against the World (German NT RPF)
Can't Pretend (Luther)
Grow Old With Me (Six Feet Under)
Through the Deep, Dark Wood (HTGAWM)

March:
Honey and the Moon (Soccer RPF)
Sugar (The Good Wife)

April:
Don't Wanna Dance (Grey's Anatomy)

June:
Dark Doo Wop (House of Cards)
Afire Love (The Normal Heart)

Total Vids: 11

My favourite video this year (of my own):
Dark Doo Wop because it came out closest to what I saw in my head and gives me a lot of happy OT3 feels.

My least favourite video this year:
I liked all my vids this year but probably Us Against the World because I still need to fix the choruses and am struggling with getting the source again to do it and it makes me sad it didn't come out like I wanted it to in my head.

Most successful video
Through the Deep, Dark Woods got the most love during Festivids and Dark Doo Wop did best at VVC. It also seemed that Afire Love was very successful at making people cry so I was proud of that :)

Video most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion:
Happy with all my feedback but probably Don't Wanna Dance which I expected.

Most fun video:
Sugar was a lot of fun to make in terms of happy shippy feels and I think that comes through.

Video with single sexiest moment:
Dark Doo Wop with OT3 kissing and HTGAWM Annalise/Wes sexy moments.

Biggest vid fail:
Festivids deadline fail in terms of really struggling with them last minute so a few vids didn't come out like I hoped.

Hardest video to make:
Don't Wanna Dance in terms of clipping 10 seasons and Afire Love in terms of crying.

Most unintentionally telling video:
I don't know if this applies this year but a lot of the vids I made I cried making/watching this year, in part reminding me of my mom so that probably came through (All I Want, Grow Old With Me, Afire Love in particular).

For 2015:
I'm working on finishing some festivids including some tough ones as well as a few fun treats. I have one vid I've been dying to make for VVC for years and I'm determined to do it this year. I have a fun CVV vid in mind and a couple large projects I want to start working on. I want to continue working on cutting, visual techniques and learn more After Effects.
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Dear Festividder [Oct. 30th, 2015|10:57 am]

anoel
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Dear Festividder,

Thank you so much for making me a vid! I am so excited to see what you come up with and I'm sure it'll be amazing. I love all kinds of music so follow your heart and what suits the vid for you. If you're looking for any guidelines, I tend to prefer indie pop, indie rock, hip hop, top 40, any kind of music that's emotional or that includes dynamic instrumentation. I love all kinds of vids, character studies, feels vids, shipper, meta, effects-y vids, fast or slow, dark, angsty or happy. I am less into vids with dialogue within the vid but if you have a great idea for it, go for it! Any rating or content is fine with me. I love Festivids so please enjoy yourself, I'm sure I'll love whatever you make!

American Ninja Warrior )
Billy & Billie )
Blue Neighbourhood (SAFETY) )
Halt and Catch Fire )
Hamilton )
UnREAL )
The Wire )

Thank you Festividder!
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