anoel: california love (california love)
Anoel ([personal profile] anoel) wrote2008-11-05 11:07 am

Marriage is love.

I don't even know what to say. I was slowly accepting that Prop 8 passed last night and then waking up to it this morning was even more shocking and depressing. For the first time I feel ashamed to be a Californian. At the same time I feel proud to be American and that really, really sucks. It hit me in the car this morning on the way to class and I couldn't stop crying. How can this happen? What is wrong with people? I just don't get it and I doubt I ever will. How can anyone ever understand hate, discrimination and inequality? To take those civil rights away from people is just wrong. I cannot believe people cannot separate religion and government when separation between church and state is so important to this country from the very beginning. And makes me feel even more negative to the destructive part of (some) religions. And the worst part is so many of the same people who voted for Obama voted for this proposition and I find that so hard to believe.

I wish I could have done more. I wish I could have voted, been in California and campaigned and done everything possible to stop this disgusting proposition. It's my own fault though and that frustrates me so much. I want my state to be a beautiful, amazing, equal place to live for everyone and this is such a big stop to this. I can't believe that I trusted this state so much to do the right thing and they didn't. I feel so let down by both them and me.

Randomly bursting into tears because Obama won or because Prop 8 passed? Not fun. I want off this roller coaster right about now. Trying to cope by watching some Queer as Folk vids with plenty of love, kissing, romance and sex and although I don't want Brian and Justin to get married, I want them to have that right. I'm never one to put marriage as the biggest end goal, I NEVER say, I want to get married but I want to find true love/a long term romantic partner/etc but I want everyone that wants to get married, between two consenting adults, to have that chance. At least now that Barack Obama is president I don't have to fear constitutional bans so much and hopefully he'll help inspire people to change their minds.

So what do we do now? I'm not up to speed on California proposition rules (although I really need to catch up) but how do we overturn/repeal/etc Proposition 8? Cause no matter how much I feel beaten down, tired and like I want to give up right now, I know we have to keep fighting til the end of days. And I have to keep remembering that just like we ended slavery and gave black men (and eventually women) the right to vote, ended discrimination in the 60's and now have an African American president, our country will go in the direction of equality, oppurtunity and life, liberty and the pursuit of happiness for all. Which includes gay marriage. We'll get there no matter how much time it takes.

This is also not helped by the fact that even TV is being disrupted by this bigotness. ABC Fires Brooke Smith who basically is in a lesbian relationship on Grey's Anatomy while also changing a future bisexual character straight. I am disgusted and sickened by ABC after admiring them so much for being so gay friendly. Ugh, it just pissed me off so much.

And hopefully, I'll be back to my regularly scheduled fannish activities starting now. It's good to know that I can trust fandom to be decidingly No on Prop 8!

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