For vid links: My Vids.

January
Body High (Ghostbusters)
You're So Beautiful (The Get Down)
Dance (Crazy Ex-Girlfriend)
Crash (Bound)

April
Sort Of (Faking It and Supergirl)

August
Weird People (Multi)
Carry That Weight (Star Wars)

October
Be Mean (True Blood)
Down The Rabbit Hole (True Blood)
Titanium (Wonder Woman)

December
Mermaid (The Little Mermaid)

Total Vids: 11

My favorite video this year (of my own)
Titanium because it came out similar to how I saw it in my head and I LOVE Wonder Woman so much and it was so much fun to make. I even enjoyed clipping, CLIPPING o_0 Also it means a lot to me because that movie and song meant so much to me while I was going through hard times.

My least favourite video this year
I like all my vids this year so this question doesn't really apply. I am bummed I wasn't able to make the longer version of Body High that I had planned.

Most successful video
In terms of kudos and comments, that would be Titanium which isn't surprising considering Wonder Woman's popularity.

Video most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion
They were all appreciated fine IMO so I'm not answering this.

Most fun video
It was so fun to vid all the action scenes and pretty shots in Titanium and I had a fun time making it so let's say Titanium. Although in terms of content, Dance was pretty fun.

Video with single sexiest moment
This is always so impossible. Holtzman's gun lick in Body High or Pam pushing Tara against the wall in Be Mean or any of the many times Diana fights in Titanium (esp in slow motion? Let's say Be Mean because that whole vid was hotness for me.

Biggest vid fail Vid procrastination mostly with Crash being made in about one day.

Hardest video to make
Carry That Weight because it required a lot of work and external source in which bessyboo helped me immensely. I also made it while going through intense depression so that made it even harder.

Most unintentionally telling video
Sort Of or Carry That Weight with the former being more intentional.

Things I've learned
Hard to say this year but I got better at working with text and external source as well as just cutting faster in general

Things to work on
Starting earlier and getting big multifandom ideas done well as well as being less of a perfectionist so I can get vids finished.

Vid projects I definitely want to get finished this upcoming year
I will get my Festivid done and I would like to vid at least one vid for TGIF/F, a Club Vivid vid for VVC and a Premieres vid for VVC. Beyond that, we'll see.

Resolutions for 2018
My biggest resolution is to finish the vids above in time for the deadlines. Honestly I don't see myself vidding as much next year because I want to focus on other life stuff and I'm having trouble feeling connected with fandom and getting meaning from vids. Vividcon ending was a huge loss to me and it's made me feel really disappointed about the vidding community and I'm reconsidering how much effort I want to put into vidding anymore. It makes me sad though.

I'm back from Vividcon 2017 and I had a wonderful time! I was worried earlier in the year that this VVC would be really sad but thankfully I'm in a great mental state right now where pre-con I've been feeling super happy each day and that carried into the con where I tried to enjoy every moment of the con and savor all the good memories instead of being disappointed when things didn't go my way. It really helped make the con extra awesome and I had a great time getting to connect to my friends, watch vids, talk about vids and have a lot of fun.

I tried remembering everything as best I can but if I made any mistakes, feel free to correct me!

( Vividcon 2017 Con Report )

Thank you to everyone who made my Vividcon so special! To me, Vividcon is a beautiful place where vidding is everything just like it is to me and where I can enjoy talking about vidding wherever I go as well and have amazing discussions about the craft. There is nothing that compares to watching premiering vids on the big screen in a crowd of people who *get* and *love* it and it brings an emotional high that is never replicated by watching on a smaller screen alone. I am SO happy to have Vividcon as a part of my life and this year I tried to appreciate each and every moment. I can't wait for next year and I look forward to a year filled with vidding growth as a vidder and as a community. Vividcon <3 Forever!

I am extremely upset by the news that Vividcon is ending after Vividcon 2018. Vividcon means everything to me and this world has tried to destroy me so much in the last year but I thought I would always have Vividcon. If you love Vividcon and would still love it to continue as a vidding con, please don't give up on the idea because I will not. I will say more about this later but here's what I said on Twitter:

I can't put into words how upset and heartbroken I am about this. Know that I will do everything in my power to make sure Vividcon never ends.

I am not giving up on Vividcon and a con where VIDDING is the main focus. I will dedicate my life to this, I swear.

Vidding has been the thing I love most in life for 15 years. Vividcon has been the one place I feel at home & I love it more than anything.

I consider everyone who has attended Vividcon my family and I will fight for all of you and for the concept of a vidding focused con.

I was super inspired watching Wonder Woman again today. As she says, if I don't fight for what I believe in, who will I be?

I believe in Vividcon. Until there is no one left (besides me) who wants to come, there will ALWAYS be a Vividcon. I will give my life to it.

I'm lazy so here: My Vids.

January
Alive (Pitch Perfect)
Headphones (Pitch Perfect)
Shine (Years & Years)
Blow (Gone Girl)
Ready or Not (Hamilton)

February
Sparks (Blue Neighbourhood)
ILYSB (Hamilton RPF)

August
Goin' Down For Real (Multi)
Suffer (Person of Interest)
Delilah (Person of Interest)

Total Vids: 10

My favorite video this year (of my own)
Goin' Down For Real because while it took a lot of time, it made me really happy to see so many canon femslash pairings in a year that was terrible for us femslashers. I love watching it and it's just really sexy and gay which are two of my favorite things. I was really happy with how it turned out which is always important to me and I had a great time dancing to it at Club Vivid.

My least favourite video this year
I truly like all of my vids this year. If forced maybe Ready or Not just because I had limited time to make it and I wish I had more time to make a real Hamilton vid. BUT I REALLY LOVE HAMILTON and I enjoyed making the vid a lot so I truly love that vid too.

Most successful video
Most of my vids were successful as far as I am concerned but in terms of comments, Alive and Goin' Down For Real (the latter esp for online viewership).

Video most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion
I was happy with the reception for all of them but I think Suffer deserves a little more love because daaamn they are too hot together and it's one of my favorite of my own vids to rewatch it all together in that vid.

Most fun video
This is hard because the process of making Headphones, Ready or Not, ILYSB, Goin' Down For Real and Suffer were all fun to make in many ways. But I guess in terms of fun overall...ILYSB. I had deadline stress but I was so in love with these two boyfriends that it didn't even matter and it's just a cute, shippy little vid.

Video with single sexiest moment
HOW TO CHOOSE???? Like almost all of Goin' Down For Real (esp the last third) and most of Suffer too. But the one moment I think of is the last clip in Suffer where Root runs her hand down Shaw's back cause DAMN that just gets to me. So I'm going to go with that.

Biggest vid fail
As usual, rushing to make vids to deadlines is a problem as it's hard to make the vids live up to my own standards but nothing major in terms of vids this year. I suppose I had an audio issue with Suffer at Vividcon but I fixed it for the online version so *shrugs*.

Hardest video to make
Goin' Down For Real because it was my first multi vid and it took FOREVER to find all the sources and get source for them and find femslash scenes from YT videos in the actual source. Plus I struggled trying to make it sexy and look good and all fit together. But it was worth the effort in the end and it came together like I hoped.

Most unintentionally telling video
Hahaha. This question is a little #tooreal for me this year for reasons I'm not getting into here but I'd say the trio of VVC vids were more personal than I thought and I saw a different layer to Delilah once I made it so let's go with that one.

Things I've learned
Some of it is hard to put into words but the things that stick out is how to make multi vids, getting better at making sexy vids, doing more with motion, dealing with different source sizes, a little progress on cutting fast and less applied but I've learned more about color this year.

Things to work on
I'm always trying to improve my cutting and expressing ideas in vidding the best possible way. I would like to improve my technical skills across the board from learning Premiere/AE better, learning more color with Davinci Resolve (it's FREE and professional color grading software) as well as learning more about compositing and visual design in general. I would like to learn how to clip and edit faster as I have too many ideas and it takes too long to vid and I think I've let inertia carry me along too long in my current process.

Vid projects I definitely want to get finished this upcoming year
My festivids assignment OF COURSE although I'm struggling with motivation with it right now. I'm worried it'll be a one vid (or two with a quick treat) Festivids year because I'm a bit overwhelmed with other non-vidding things right now. I am DETERMINED to finish a multi vid for VVC Premieres this year that's very important and meaningful to me but I am worried about time with it. I hope to have a TGIF/F vid but worry about time as I have another multi vid I want to make for VVC plus at least one CVV vid which I already started.

Resolutions for 2017
As always, try to start vid projects and make more consistent process so I'm not rushed at the end and can get more beta feedback. Habitica (habit app that a bunch of vidders use, lmk if you want a guild invite) has helped a lot with consistency but I need to improve with doing more each day versus all at once. I'm constantly struggling with when to say no to vid ideas in order to focus on the vid ideas I most want to make so I would like to keep trying to focus on my most important vids especially in the first half of this year. As mentioned above, get better technically as well as learn more about film and visual images to work more on how to create the most meaning and beauty from the imagery I work with. I'm trying to learn more about fan studies as I would like to make more vids about fandom in the future and it helps me get a better perspective on vids and fandom as a whole. Also try to be the change I want to see in the world and talk more about vidding as well as encourage others to talk about it. I miss when the vidding community used to post more about vids back in the golden age of LJ (siiigh end of an era now).

Title: Delilah
Music: Florence and the Machine
Fandom: Person of Interest 504
Focus: Shaw, Root/Shaw
Summary: You were my safe place.
Content Notes: Graphic Violence, Physical Triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills), Suicide, Blood/gore, Psychological Torture
Notes: Made for Vividcon Premieres 2016. Thanks to kiki_miserychic for the beta and encouragement!
Download Link: Delilah (75 MB MP4)
AO3 | Tumblr

Vimeo Password: safeplace

Delilah from Anoel on Vimeo.

( Vid Notes )

If you don't want to watch the whole show but are interested in just the Root/Shaw scenes, here are some links to Root/Shaw supercuts on Youtube:

( Root/Shaw Supercuts )

If you'd like to just watch only the Root and/or Shaw focused episodes, here's what I would recommend:

( Root and/or Shaw episodes with brief notes )

If you need any more information or need any help finding anything related to Root and/or Shaw, let me know!

Here is my long delayed con report (part 1) from last year's Vividcon. I wrote it down the week after Vividcon but needed to make some edits and forgot to post it. I didn't remember everything so apologies if I missed writing anything down.

( Vividcon 2015 Con Report (Part 1) )

Title: Sparks
Music: "Sparks" by Fleurie
Fandom: Blue Neighbourhood (3 part music video series)
Focus: Troye/Matthew
Summary: Sparks for the first time.
Content Notes: Physical triggers (e.g., epilepsy or migraine: strobe lights, bright lights, "stuttery" cuts between 2-3 stills)
Notes: Made for Escapade 2016.
Download Link: Sparks (46MB MP4)
AO3 | Tumblr



So I wasn't planning to make this vid but then winterevanesce made me this AMAZING vid for Blue Neighbourhood that gave me all the feels and reignited my desire to vid these precious boys. Since she had vidded both the angst and cuteness so well, I figured I could still make a happy, romantic vid for them so I looked at the end of my new songs I like playlist on Spotify and almost immediately found the song I used for the vid. So it was basically fate ;) I initially was going to cut the song more but I really wanted that crescendo instrumental build so I figured I'd make it work with the clips I had. I knew I wanted to start the beginning with the young kids realizing they had feelings to make it clear it was a romance at each age and I figured out I wanted to build to the kiss in the first chorus and then the sex in the last section. One of the other reasons I wanted to make the vid is to give my proof and interpretation of why I think the music videos ended in a happy ending (it's ambiguous) or why it SHOULD so hopefully that comes through on some level. It was fun to vid Troye and Matthew who are just so freaking attractive as well as the cuteness of the boys and besides an audio issue at the very end, I had a fun and pain-free vidding process as it mostly all came together. And I am definitely in agreement with the people at Escapade who wanted the movie not a music video series because I really, really wish the source was longer and had the story (hint hint write fic!).

January
Infinite (The Perks of Being a Wallflower)
All I Want (Life of Pi)
Us Against the World (German NT RPF)
Can't Pretend (Luther)
Grow Old With Me (Six Feet Under)
Through the Deep, Dark Wood (HTGAWM)

March:
Honey and the Moon (Soccer RPF)
Sugar (The Good Wife)

April:
Don't Wanna Dance (Grey's Anatomy)

June:
Dark Doo Wop (House of Cards)
Afire Love (The Normal Heart)

Total Vids: 11

My favourite video this year (of my own):
Dark Doo Wop because it came out closest to what I saw in my head and gives me a lot of happy OT3 feels.

My least favourite video this year:
I liked all my vids this year but probably Us Against the World because I still need to fix the choruses and am struggling with getting the source again to do it and it makes me sad it didn't come out like I wanted it to in my head.

Most successful video
Through the Deep, Dark Woods got the most love during Festivids and Dark Doo Wop did best at VVC. It also seemed that Afire Love was very successful at making people cry so I was proud of that :)

Video most under-appreciated by the universe, in my opinion:
Happy with all my feedback but probably Don't Wanna Dance which I expected.

Most fun video:
Sugar was a lot of fun to make in terms of happy shippy feels and I think that comes through.

Video with single sexiest moment:
Dark Doo Wop with OT3 kissing and HTGAWM Annalise/Wes sexy moments.

Biggest vid fail:
Festivids deadline fail in terms of really struggling with them last minute so a few vids didn't come out like I hoped.

Hardest video to make:
Don't Wanna Dance in terms of clipping 10 seasons and Afire Love in terms of crying.

Most unintentionally telling video:
I don't know if this applies this year but a lot of the vids I made I cried making/watching this year, in part reminding me of my mom so that probably came through (All I Want, Grow Old With Me, Afire Love in particular).

For 2015:
I'm working on finishing some festivids including some tough ones as well as a few fun treats. I have one vid I've been dying to make for VVC for years and I'm determined to do it this year. I have a fun CVV vid in mind and a couple large projects I want to start working on. I want to continue working on cutting, visual techniques and learn more After Effects.

Here are my notes for Vid Review, In Depth Vid Review and Challenge Review for Vividcon 2015. I did my best at hearing and typing as accurately as I could but these are not perfect transcriptions. If you see something and want it corrected (or credit), feel free to let me know as I'd love for it to be more accurate.

( Vid Review )

( In Depth Vid Review )

( Challenge: Memory )

Here are my panel notes (part 1) for Vividcon 2015. I did my best at hearing and typing as accurately as I could but these are not perfect transcriptions. If you see something and want it corrected (or credit), feel free to let me know as I'd love for it to be more accurate.

( Survival of the Viddest )

( Buffy the Vampire Slayer: Nummy Treats )

( Make Mine Multi )

( Due South: 3 Fannish Waves )