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End of the Year 2018 Meme [Jan. 1st, 2019|06:21 pm]

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I do this meme every year and I'm not about to stop that now as it's cool to be able to go back to these and see how my year was.

Brief end of year update: I've found an excellent babysitting situation that I'm happy with (I really love working with kids most of the time) and I'm still doing freelancing work and working on my online business (slowly but will ramp up next year). My anti-depressants are still working energy/productivity wise and usually I'm happy but I'm still struggling with loneliness occasionally and am working on finding a solution to it (more later). I've started doing rock climbing and ninja warrior training at a local gym since September and I've made a LOT of progress. I've reconnected with a fandom friend and we're pretty close now even though she lives far away and have continued to enjoy visiting my cousin and kids and other family close by NYC. I'm taking a break from vidding (besides a TGIF/F vid) to focus on work stuff but still enjoy keeping up with fannish social media although my fannish interests mostly only align with femslash fandom (I'm over most guys) except for The Good Place.

Speaking of, I am going to be in LA from 2/14-2/24th including being at TGIF/F and hanging by the Escapade hotel during the con. Let me know if you want to make plans to hang out if you'll be in LA around that time!

End of the Year Meme 2018 )

If you are still wondering what you want to do with your life/working on getting a job you like, let me know as I am working on a business related to that topic and might be able to help in the coming year. It's always free for fannish friends :)
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Brief Pre-Vividcon Update [Aug. 8th, 2018|05:51 am]

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I’m soooo excited about going to Vividcon tomorrow!!! I’ll be at the hotel around 9am on Thursday and leaving around 3pm on Monday. I made 4 vids and I can’t wait to see the 150 (!!!) premiering vids and see so many people I love and talk about vids and CLUB VIVID! I wanted to post a brief update about what I’ve been up to lately as things have changed.

-I did some freelance research assistant work for the first half of the year (hmu if you’re a professor etc and want some help) and rediscovered my love of coding through learning R.
-I went to TGIF/F in LA and had fun talking about femslash and watchng/dancing to femslash vids and seeing amazing people.
-I struggled a lot with depression and loneliness and finally decided to try a med my friend was on and take a high dosage of it (in time) and after 4 weeks, I was the happiest I’ve been since I was 14 years old. So yeah, I figured out I’ve wasted 15 years of my life being low grade depressed which is why I haven’t had the energy to achieve my goals. On the bright side, I actually have high self-esteem and high confidence now and I fully believe I can make my dreams come true.
-I did some babysitting for a friend which made me realize I love working with kids and want to pursue it as a career. I love helping take care of kids and loving them as well as helping them learn and I love reading everything about the topic. Thankfully NYC needs a lot of help with all the working parents.
-I went to Wiscon for the first time and had an amazing time hanging out with friends and going to the vidshow. I got to meet chaila finally! The Black Panther and Get Out (the one horror movie I like) panels were amazing!
-I searched for a full time childcare job and found a great one in Scarsdale taking care of an 8 year old girl and 12 year old girl which I started at the end of the July. After 2 weeks, they let me go not because of anything I did but because they hadn’t realized they needed a lot less hours and mostly housekeeping/driving. I was super upset as I had been happy at the job for the first time ever and was depressed this last weekend. But I applied to some other places in the last few days, have some scheduled interviews (including 3 today) and am excited about some of the jobs even if they pay less.
-I have an online business idea I’m really excited about and I’m going to be working on it a lot in the next year so I can try to make some extra money that I can use for savings.
-Due to the help of my anti-depressants, I’ve lost some weight as I feel much less need to emotionally eat and they help tone down my hunger. I’m im the decade I want to stay in although I’m going to need to body recomp to gain muscle for American Ninja Warrior training. It’s been slow and steady but I’m seeing real progress.

So that’s where I am at the moment as well as enjoying spending more time with my brother, Dad, cousin snd her kids since they live close to NYC. I’ve had less time for fandom lately but still keep up with some shows (watch Killing Eve!!!) and vidding fandom. If you want to hang out at Vividcon, just let me know!

YAY VIVIDCON!
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End of the Year Meme 2017 [Dec. 30th, 2017|07:13 pm]

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Brief life update time: The depression has been on and off for the last two months but I'm feeling better currently although it was pretty bad a couple days ago. I'm doing some freelance work which has been going really well and helping with money. I'm still really lonely and wish I was in a romantic relationship.

End of the Year Meme 2017 )

If you're looking for a movie to watch, I highly recommend Call Me By Your Name! It's so beautiful and emotional <3
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End of the Year Meme 2016 [Dec. 31st, 2016|10:01 pm]

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This was a tough year for me personally as well as for the world but I come out of it even more grateful for all my friends and for fandom so thank you to everyone who was there for me in any small way and I wish everyone a happy new year and the best possible 2017!

End of the Year Meme 2016 )

I'm not going to do the End of the Year Fandom meme right now as I'm out of time and it's kind of complicated at the moment. I miss having a fandom OTP right now and am hoping I will find something in 2017.
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End of the Year Meme 2015 [Dec. 31st, 2015|07:34 pm]

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So before I go into the end of the year meme, I want to talk a little about the RL stuff that happened this year that led to some of my answers in this meme.

Year of 2015 general thoughts )

End of the Year Meme )
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End of the Year Meme [Dec. 31st, 2014|08:10 pm]

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Here is my end of the year meme for 2014:

End of the Year Meme )

General Goals for the year:

1. Do well at St. John's College. Read a lot, make new friends.
2. Volunteer at educational nonprofit(s).
3. Improve at Parkour, lose fat, gain muscle.
4. Continue learning Spanish and start learning German (I'm a few lessons in on Duolingo).
5. Make vids for Festivids, VVC, pleasure.
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Eurotrip 2013 Report [Sep. 19th, 2014|05:59 pm]

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I'm sorry I'm so late on finally reporting about my Europe trip last November as I started the first half of the report while in Europe but then procrastinated on writing it later until now when I couldn't put it off any longer. It's coming up on almost a year since my trip to Europe last November when I visited London, Ireland, Paris, Berlin, Rome, Brussels, Munich and other places in Europe. I wanted to write down as much as I can so in the future when I start forgetting more details, I could look back and remember from this report. I took a lot of pictures but am putting most of those on Facebook and it'll take too much time to upload them but if anyone who doesn't have me on there wants to see them, just ask. I don't expect most people to read all of this but feel free if you'd like :)

Eurotrip 2013 Report )

Overall I had an amazing trip and I'm so happy I had the oppurtunity to go to Europe and experience it for myself. I've wanted to see Europe and experience another part of the world for a long time and the trip was super helpful in helping me stop feel the intense wanderlust I had been feeling for 7 years or so even as it made me want to explore other countries as well as go back to Europe in the future. It was a learning experience for me to deal with being in unfamiliar countries with languages I didn't know and to have to get from one place to another by myself for a month. There was definitely some lonely moments and it helped make me realize I like traveling with other people for trips longer than a week but it also gave me a chance to reconnect with friends who live in other countries. It was super great to finally see so many big landmarks that I had seen in the media for years and get a chance to see them in person as well as falling in love with the city of Rome. Being away from everything and having so much alone time also helped me question what I want to do with my life and who I am and helped make me even more purposeful in wanting to leave a big career impact in the world. It gave me a stronger love of Europe that made it even easier for me to get into the World Cup this summer while at the same time giving me an appreciation for things I love about living in America. It was truly a once in a lifetime experience that changed my life and I'm glad I was finally able to travel the world and have an ultimately satisfying trip. If anyone else is thinking about traveling, I highly recommend it!
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Beginning of the school year!...Kind of [Sep. 1st, 2014|04:17 pm]

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Even though I'm not in school right now, the beginning of September always feels like a new beginning to me. It seems like a good time to share my plans for the rest of the year and the time to come as I finally have some ideas of what I want to do.

First a catchup of the last three months. In May, I went to a fun Ingrid Michaelson concert with [livejournal.com profile] beerbad and had a great time listening to some of my favorite songs. Mother's Day was pretty sad and I tried to avoid the media but eventually gave in and just scrolled through and watched some sad TV shows and cried some. One of the most fun things I did was go to Malibu State Park and go to this little pond (not sure what the right word is here) where they had cliff jumping rocks and I went to the highest one (about 30 feet) and jumped off of it. It was SO fun and I had been feeling kind of meh about the world and it gave me an adrenaline rush that made me feel happy and full of hope again. I just love feeling like I'm flying and being that high in the air, I really felt like I was in the air on the way down and it felt amazing. I also went to a fun Harry Potter roller skating event where there was a ton of people dressed up and they played Harry Potter songs and it was just really fun even though at the end the music was meh so I put on my headphones and listened to shippy songs for my favorite couples (mostly Kane/Toews). I went to a Memorial Day BBQ with other geeky/fannish type people and had fun playing Cards Against Humanity and talking various TV shows with people. I had a lot of fun going to see the Chicago Blackhawks play the Los Angeles Kings at the Staples Center in my first live hockey game and I was lucky enough to see it with [livejournal.com profile] celli and get to see Toews score a goal right in front of me. [livejournal.com profile] celli and I had a lot of fun talking hockey and various real life stuff after the game and it was fun getting a chance to get to know her better. I also went to see a screening of the Mindy Project season finale and got to see a cast Q&A and later got to meet Mindy Kaling for the fourth time - and she remembered who I was for the third time ever. It was pretty cool and she even took a selfie of her and me. I also went to my second cousin's bridal shower and got to catch up with that side of my family and got to see my grandma's sister as well which was nice and I'm looking forward to going to his wedding in November.

In June, I spent a lot of time finishing my Femslash Premiere and my Premieres vid for Vividcon which was a bit stressful but I was ultimately able to finish by the deadline. I was also following the NBA draft and super happy when my favorite player, Tyler Ennis was selected 18th in the draft and another Syracuse player, Jerami Grant went to the Philadelphia 76ers which has a Syracuse player, Michael Carter-Williams who just won Rookie of the Year and who I slash with his friend on the team, Nerlens Noel so I'm looking forward to OT3ing them together. I also started watching the World Cup, following it seriously for the first time ever and fell in love with the USA team, most of all the coach, Jurgen Klinsmann. Jurgen who was a big star in Europe who won the World Cup with Germany in 1990, coached the German team to a 3rd place finish in 2006 (in Germany) but who loves the USA and lives there with his family so he decided to coach the USA team in 2011 and is attempting to turn the team around so it can eventually win the World Cup with the men's team. I really love what he's trying to do and his personality and I have a lot of hope that he can help us win it all so I began to follow the US team and was in ecstasy after we beat Ghana and went to a USA bar for the Portugal game with [livejournal.com profile] cenedrawood and was SO HAPPY when USA came back from a 0-1 deficit to be winning 2-1...only to lose in the last thirty seconds in one of the most heartbreaking sports moments ever for me. Thankfully we still had another game against Germany where Jurgen was coaching against his friend, Joachim Löm (who was his assistant coach when he coached Germany) and since I ship them together (thanks to [livejournal.com profile] caesaria), it was an entertaining game for me if terrifying. We lost by one but were still able to make it out of the group stages where we played Belgium which I don't even want to talk about because I'm still super bitter and prefer to think about how Tim Howard made 15 saves and Julian Green scored a goal on his first touch even though he's only 19 years old and was another young player that people complained about being on the roster and yet was one of the many players to prove that Jurgen knew what he was doing cause he's an amazing coach <3 Anyways, I started out rooting for Brazil (because they were at home, it meant a lot to them and they spent so much money at least they could get SOMETHING out of it), Germany, England, Italy and I also added the Netherlands after I saw their first game against Spain and enjoyed watching Robben and van Persie play. Eventually Germany and Netherlands were my favorite teams as after watching a documentary about the 2006 German team and falling in love with Robben as a player I wish I could be like, I emotionally connected with them, plus it helped that both teams did super well.

In July, I was really into basketball as the NBA summer league started and all the new rookies, 2nd year players and undrafted players trying to get a spot on rosters were playing and I watched the 76ers team do well in Orlando with my guy, Jerami Grant. The major summer league was in Las Vegas though and I decided to go to Vegas, buy tickets for the games (they're cheap) and let out my basketball feelings while trying to meet some of my favorite Syracuse players since many of them were going to be there. I had an amazing time, getting autographs and talking to Tyler Ennis, Rakeem Christmas (current SU player), Jerami Grant, Michael Carter-Williams, Baye Moussa Keita and Brandon Triche (former SU players) as well as watching a ton of players play for their teams. Unfortunately my car had some issues so I stayed longer than I wanted to but I also had fun hanging out with n0apologies (twitter) who I had met at Wincon and we had a great time talking about our lives, Adam Lambert, Queer as Folk and other fannish topics. I was also there duing the World Cup final and went to a bar to watch Germany play Argentina where thankfully Germany won and I was SO HAPPY as Jogi Low and the team had come soooo close to winning in the last 8 years and always came up a little short so I was super happy for the team to finally win it all and I just had such a fun time celebrating, happy crying and joining in the celebrations at the German bar.

Finally I got back to LA and had fun going to [livejournal.com profile] elipie's karaoke birthday party and then going to a Lady GaGa concert with her where we won free seat upgrades and got to hang in the VIP lounge with free drinks and hang out with hot half-naked boys while we could easily see Lady GaGa especially when she came over to the platform right above us. It was super fun getting to hear her sing some of her classic songs and she's an amazing performer so we had a fun time singing her songs and enjoying the performance. At the end of July, I went back home to Syracuse where I spent some time with my dad, caught up with my best friend and hung out with my cats at home. I also drove down to Pennsylvania to visit my cousin's family and spend some time with my aunt. My cousin is starting her own business so I spent a little bit of time at her shop and we also went with her family and my aunt to one of my favorite amusement parks where we used to go almost every year as a kid so it was very nostalgic to be back there again. Speaking of nostalgia, I also went to visit my childhood elementary school and was bummed to see they tore down the playground I had loved although they are building a new one, it's not the same. After that, I went to Vividcon which I'll talk about in a different post but the Wednesday after that, I had an amazing time going to Six Flags Magic Mountain with [livejournal.com profile] elipie getting a chance to talk about Vividcon, new vidding ideas and other fannish stuff.

This summer I had planned on taking some courses related to college admission counseling but after a couple of days trying to take them, I realized my heart wasn't in them as I wasn't sure yet whether that's what I wanted to do as it might not be big enough for me career-wise. Thankfully I was able to get a full refund and another thing that affected my decision was a revelation I had thought of while reading books about colleges. I kept having regrets while reading on how I wish I had gotten a true college experience and had gone to a more intellectual school when I realized - I could still do that. There was a college I had first heard about in high school called St. John's College that covered in four years, many of the so called Great Books but without lectures, it's all discussion based or laboratory based as they cover science using classic experiments and original texts for everything. Two of the most interesting aspects is learning Ancient Greek and learning math from classic books like Euclid's Elements which I've always wanted to do to understand more of where the English language comes from and understand the basis of math which I've always though could be interesting in the right context. The college is pretty intense but that's exactly what I want, a place where people want to read and think about some of life's biggest questions by reading some of the most enduring books many of which I've always wanted to read and just needed some more structure and people to discuss them with. I feel like my intellectual development has been pretty stunted the last seven years and I know I need to take a big leap to become the person I've always wanted to be and this college is the perfect way to take my communication skills both written and oral to the next level. I am an ambitious person and I have big dreams of doing things to change the world but I need to build a strong foundation so that I can accomplish that so I think I need to take a risk to go to this college and become the person I want to be.

During the summer I started working on my application which consists of three essays talking about why I want to go to the college, a book that has influenced me and a significant experience that has left an impact on me and I'm working on finishing that up by the end of this month. The college has a January program that I'm looking to get accepted at where by going to school over the summer, I'll be all caught up with the freshman year program and will be a regular sophomore by the time next September comes around (but thankfully I will get a summer vacation right before the first potential Vividcon weekend). The college gives good financial aid so I'm not too worried about the money aspect, the bigger opportunity cost for me is the time but I think the education I'm getting will be worth it and I'll be doing part time jobs, volunteer work and internships during the school years and summer to help me figure out the best work for me to do after college and I always have a backup job as a programmer as well. One of the biggest negatives is the college is in Santa Fe and although the weather is not too much colder than LA (averaging 45-85 plus like 6 snow days blech), it'll still be a big adjustment leaving the city (and friends!) I love to be in a much smaller city with less things to do (although Albuquerque is only 45 minutes away and Denver/Phoenix are semi-close too). But I think it's worth it for this oppurtunity that I can't get anywhere else and I feel like I'll always regret it and wonder what if, if I decided not to do go. Plus I'll definitely be visiting LA during breaks, Escapade and during my free summers so I think I'll be able to survive. Another concern is the book list is not that diverse but I know there are book groups there that cover more classic books written by women, minorities and Eastern writers so I'll be sure to be reading them. Something I'm excited about is they have a lot of sports intramurals so I'll still be able to play soccer, tennis and there's lots of nature for hiking and even rock climbing. Most importantly, I'll finally get to have a true college experience and make lots of new friends as even though the college is small, people are very self-selected towards the kind of people I tend to get along with (minus your obligatory pretentious arrogant idiots) so I'm looking forward to that. It'll be a big life change for me but I think this is the best step I can make in working on becoming who I want to be and for my development to being able to help the world solve the major problems we're facing.

I originally was applying for this fall semester but I was having a hard time being ready for that so I decided to wait til January although I have a plan for what I will be doing in LA until then. A friend recommended to me a friend of hers who has a philosophy PHD and is willing to meet with me to go over classic texts that I want to start reading this fall so I can have some accountability and someone to discuss things with to prepare me for St. John's College. I'm planning on working on doing more reading (besides fanfic of course) this fall as I sample many books from nonfiction to fiction in many genres. I'm going to be focusing especially about reading books about California and LA as I want to work on solving problems in the state and want to become more knowledgeable about the issues surrounding the state. I also am going to be doing some volunteering with various organizations to learn more about LA and start figuring out what exactly I would enjoy doing for jobs. I also have a part time job I'll be working on to earn some extra money. Another big goal of mine for this fall is to start seriously trying to date while I still have time in LA which should hopefully give me more motivation to do it. I'm also continuing to work on improving my Spanish through Duolingo and translating Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone from Spanish to English using my Kindle App Spanish to English dictionary. And I definitely want to spend more time with my friends in Los Angeles while I'm still here.

Another big focus for me this fall is heath and fitness as I'd like to lose about 15-20 pounds before the end of this year. I signed up for an accountability type service which has been good with keeping me on track with my eating and exercise goals. Something inspiring for me was watching Kacey Cantanzaro complete the city finals course for American Ninja Warrior, an obstacle course competition where participants can win 500k for winning the finals course in Las Vegas. That inspired me to look into parkour and rock climbing which are two training aspects that some of the best competitors do. I figured that even if I don't make it, it'd be a fun goal to try to train for the course as it looks really fun and it's something that anyone can accomplish even if they don't have a lot of training when they were younger (unlike most sports). Thankfully there is a parkour (more accurately, freerunning) gym in the LA area and I've already taken two beginner lessons there and had fun practicing in the opening gym sessions. So far it's pretty basic, working on vaulting over objects and precision jumping, jumping from one ledge to another but it's been really fun and a great workout and I look forward to being able to do the crazy workouts I see in the gym. I was super scared about doing a flip from the high ledge into the pit (filled with soft foam stuff) but finally managed to gather my courage and did as well as do some flips on the trampoline. I also attempted to run up the warped wall they have in the gym and tried to jump from one bar to another (not there yet). I've also been into soccer as I really enjoy team sports so I signed up for a three days a week soccer class at my local community college and although it's a bit intimidating as it's all guys except one other girl and many of them want to compete on the soccer team at the college, so far I've been having fun playing (minus getting blisters on my feet from my new cleats). I even scored a goal during a game! We've been mostly just playing games which was a bit disappointing as I hoped to practice some skills work as well but it's been fun and I've been learning a lot even if it's been pretty hot playing during the summer. I've also been keeping up with my strength training workouts since March and been continually adding more weight to my lifts. Food is always tough for me as I hate cooking and love delicious food but I've been making a lot of progress and have lost three pounds so far.

I can't wait for the new TV season! I've been watching some of the trailers for the new shows and have added a few shows that I'm going to check out this fall. While A to Z has a couple of annoying things about it, it also features the Mother from HIMYM and as soul destroying it is seeing her, the show looks really cute and right up my romantic loving alley with the whole matchmaking element. I'm also excited for How to Get Away With Murder as Viola Davis looks amazing in it, the premise sounds fun and deliciously messed up and I will always trust Shonda Rhimes to do crazy things. I'm also going to check out Utopia which fascinates me as I've always loved thinking about how to create the perfect society although the reality show format makes me keep my expectations down. I am also looking forward to checking out Survivor's Remorse which is about a BASKETBALL PLAYER (!!!) who becomes successful and must deal with everything that comes with it which sounds super fun for me to vicariously see that side of things and is produced by Lebron James (who I've come to not hate since he went back to Cleveland) so I'm very curious to check it out. I kind of wish I could watch The Flash because the lead actor is a guy I found SUPER hot on Glee (Sebastian!) but I've sworn off all superhero shows unless it features a female/PoC lead so I'll just be checking out Agent Carter. Mostly I'm going to be listening to friends and critics to see if there are any high quality shows I should check out. I'm really looking forward to The Mindy Project, Faking It and Scandal coming back especially the first two as they feature two of my favorite ships. I'm mostly planning on using the fall to continue to catch up with some well written shows I haven't watched yet including Deadwood which I MUST finish by the end of the year. On the movie side of things, this summer I LOVED Maleficent (Maleficent/Aurora all the way!), enjoyed X-Men: Days of Future Past and am looking forward to seeing The Hunger Games 3, The Hobbit 3 and Annie (love the trailer!). On the sports side of things, my new soccer team is Bayern Munich since they have my favorite player, Arjen Robben, lots of German players from the national team like Müller, Neuer and Götze and my fave USA guy, Julian Green (although he's on loan to Hamburg this year) so I already have an emotional investment in them and will be watching all their games. I'm casually following the English Premier League (mostly for my USA/Germany people) and some college football as well and will be checking out my usual NFL teams this fall (although I'm still super bitter there's no LA team) such as the Bills, 49ers, Giants, Chargers and Jets. We'll see timewise what happens as once NBA seasons starts in late October and Syracuse basketball in November, most of my attention will go to that because YAY BASKETBALL. Hockey will be back in October as well and I will check out some Chicago games sometimes.

Super excited for Festivids! I have about 6 possible nominations at the moment although I worry about qualification for a couple of them but I'm excited about them and the vid ideas I want to make already. Before I get my assignment though, I need to start working on my Escapade vid as that's going to require a time committment and I have another vid idea I want to make for next year that I need to get started on clipping right now to get it done in time for VVC. I have another vid that's almost done that I should hopefully post in the next week as well. I have a couple ideas that require me to stretch my skills that I'm really excited about even if it'll be a challenge, it should be fun to do. Other fun fandom-y things coming up is a bunch of NorCal (and elsewhere) fangirls are planning a Fandom Beach Vacation where we rent a beach house and just hang out all day and I'm so excited to hang out with my fandom friends in November :) I also need to plan out what to do for my birthday in October this year, I have an idea and need to check if it's realistic. I still can't believe I'm going to be 27...is that officially late 20s? Eek. But hopefully with all the plans I have in place, I'll be ready to enjoy this time in my life shortly!
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2013 End of the Year Meme [Dec. 31st, 2013|01:01 pm]

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Here is my annual end of the year meme:

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[Oct. 11th, 2013|01:24 pm]

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So today is my 26th birthday! It is interesting doing it this year at Wincon surrounded by fangirls, so much fun to talk fandom with everyone. This morning we went down to the breakfast buffet which is amazing and had lots of delicious food and got to talk with our group of eight fangirls. I also got to get a big hug from [personal profile] cee_m who I haven't seen since a Vividcon awhile ago and it was great to see her again. I then went inside for the first panel but got distracted by getting stickers for my badge. I got a Harry sticker, a LIONESS sticker, a robot, a 1D group, some birthday stickers and a lion sticker so now my badge is a good representation of me :) I caught the end of the Fandom Grieving panel and then got to talk a bit to someone about The Walking Dead finale and how it got me to rage quit watching the show. I also got to meet with [personal profile] colls who I didn't know was coming and it was great to reconnect with her since she missed the last Vividcon. We both went to the Fairy Tales panel and got to talk a bit before the panel about OUAT and a few other shows. I was surprised the panel didn't bring up Swan Queen and I didn't put up my hand quick enough before we moved onto the next fandom.

Now I'm hanging out in my room with other fans and we had fun talking about tags in fandom and a few other things including the Benedict AMA. I'm looking forward to a bunch of panels today like the Kinks, Poly and Incest (I WILL be talking Jaime/Cersei and GoT, of course) panels. Then we have a vidshow with my premiering vid and then we're going to the Gordon Ramsey restaurant and I'm going to get some cake for my birthday. I'm super excited for Once More With Feeling and Rocky Horror Show tonight as I've never seen them with a group.

It's weird to be 26 and now closer to 30 than 25. It's been a weird year with high highs and low lows. I've learned and grown a lot and am so thankful to have such amazing family and friends. Thank you to everyone reading for being there for me and helping to support me. I'm looking forward to the ne t year of my life as I'm going to follow my dreams and try to do more of the things that make me happy. Here's to having an awesome year being 26!
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Glee 503..."I always thought I'd see you again" [Oct. 10th, 2013|10:09 pm]

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Some thoughts on Glee along with thoughts about my mom:

Spoilers for Glee 503 )

In other news, Vegas has been awesome so far! I've had a lot of fun hanging out with Bay Area fans and talking about fandom and life. We went to a Penn and Teller show on Wednesday and today I went to the Strasophere and rode the ride at the top and then rode the New York, New York roller coaster. Tomorrow is my birthday and the first day of the con so I can't wait!
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Off to Vegas! [Oct. 9th, 2013|01:45 pm]

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So I'm heading off to Vegas for Wincon! I'm super excited, it's going to be so much fun. On the way, I'm going to stop in Primm to ride the Desperado which is this awesome roller coaster with a huge drop so I'm super excited about that. I also can't wait to ride some thrill rides in Vegas, should be fun!

Some big news before I go: I quit my job so I now finally have some free time to work on my own coding and vidding projects. Instead of a one week trip, I'm going to be going to Europe throughout November so if you're in the area, let me know if you want to hang out! Will probably just spend extra time in London and Paris but may add an extra city or two. I reeeeally can't wait! In December, I'm going back to my parent's house and I'm going to spend some time with my dad, aunt and cousin and her family. It'll be really great to have some more time with them and I also want to help out with going through my mom's stuff and organizing some of my own. Then in January I'll come back to LA and go back to college. I'm really excited to finally finish my degree, it's like my Mount Everest and I really need to finish climbing it for myself.

I can't believe I'm turning 26 in two days. It's been a weird year but hopefully should get better from here!
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Yay October! And September update [Oct. 1st, 2013|11:46 am]

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Happy October everyone! As I posted on Twitter, I'm really excited about this month because it's my birthday month and I have some super fun stuff planned in store. This coming weekend, I'm going to see Gravity with a friend of mine after we do some hiking and on Sunday I'm going to see Maroon 5 (and Kelly Clarkson) in concert!! Soooo excited as I've fallen in love with Adam Levine after watching him being a hilarious, competitive, adorable dork on The Voice who can't stop flirting and being in love with Blake Shelton. HAVE I MENTIONED THEY ARE SUCH BOYFRIENDS??? Who say things like, "I would never cheat on you Blake?" THAT IS A THING THAT HAPPENED.

Ahem. I'm getting ahead of myself. The weekend after that or rather, pre-weekend on October 9th in the evening I'm driving to Las Vegas to go to Wincon! I'm going to be rooming with some awesome SF people and I'm looking forward to seeing [personal profile] nikibee again along with [personal profile] cee_m and many others! October 11 (friday) is my birthday and there will be fannish panels, hanging out with fannish people, a VIDSHOW (of which I have two vids, one premiering), Once More with Feeling and Rocky Horror Show screenings and hopefully a drunken birthday party full of fangirls. I'm sooooo excited! Plus I'm totally going to ride that roller coaster I saw last time. I am going to be going back early Sunday morning but that's because I have tickets to see the Blind Auditions (ie Adam/Blake FLIRTING NONSTOP) of The Voice with [personal profile] elipie! I can't wait!! Other fun things I'm planning on doing is getting a tattoo on my right ankle. It's my first tattoo as I've wanted one for a long time but could never justify the expense. It's going to be Nala from The Lion King like in my main icon. I figure I've been a fangirl of it for 21 years, I think it's a forever thing plus I've always felt my spirit animal, what I've been in another life, etc is a lioness so it's really important to me. The biggest thing for me is I'm going to go skydiving! It's always been in the top 3 things I want to do in my life since I love flying and want to feel like I am if only briefly. Will probably save it towards the end of the month.

A month ago I had an amazing time Labor Day Weekend getting to hang out with [personal profile] nikibee in the Bay Area. We watched Game of Thrones, Teen Wolf and Parks and Recreation and had a vidparty where we watched Vividcon vids with [personal profile] franzeska (who I had a great talk with!), Alice, Michelle, Dani and I think that's all? It was so much fun! We (Nicole, Alice and Michelle) also went to Oakland Pride and got to see En Vogue in concert and it was so great to get a chance to have some good talks with [personal profile] nikibee all weekend. I also went back to San Francisco near where I used to live and work and got to have lunch with someone from Dev Bootcamp which I also visited and got to talk to the founder who changed my life with letting me go to it. Unfortunately I left my favorite hoodie there and haven't been able to get it back :( I also visited the Berkeley campus which is SO BEAUTIFUL! Probably the prettiest one I've ever seen, it's like half nature reserve. Finally I went to a Haven party [personal profile] franzeska (who else? ;)) was throwing and got to say goodbye for a couple hours before I had to leave to catch my flight. Gotta say Southwest was awesome, they gave me a better seat when I complained I didn't know I had to check in for the return flight. It was a super fun weekend and I'm so glad I went!

Other than that, I've been working a lot. We had a big deadline a few weeks ago before our company presented a website at a conference. Some of the weeks I worked on interesting things and that was fun especially getting to pair with my mentor here but a couple weeks I didn't like what I was working on and kept getting distracted by the internetz at work which was less fun. We did go bowling last week as the conference went awesome and that was really fun! I've also been running more and I paid for a personal trainer so I can actually get a REAL strength training workout and that has helped a LOT with developing some muscles. I've always wanted to do chinups so that's my long term goal. I've been thinking about running a marathon next year as I need a big running goal to get me inspired to run more and I want to beat my last time (5.5 hours) and hopefully have a rain free experience. I've been eating a lot cleaner lately and did lose a little weight but got a little bored with it and regressed last week. No worries though, I varied my diet up and am doing better now. If there's anything I learned in the past it's not to give up and let little backslides trip you up.

The big news is I've decided to quit my job soon and go back to college to finally finish my degree. It's something I've always wanted to do and I've had enough of a taste of the real world working on something I kind of like but not love (even with the nice money benefits!) to want to go back to school and work on finding what I really want to do with my life. I'm going to continue study programming on my own and help code for the AO3 along with working on personal projects I'm hoping will lead to possible job opportunities or at least direction. I'm going to go back to community college for Spring 2014 and I'll be applying in the next two months to UCLA, CSULA and CSULB as a Philosophy major. Yes, Philosophy because I've loved the courses I've taken in it, I've always wanted to learn it and it requires a very low amount of credits so I can graduate fast as I'm aiming for May/June 2015. I'm also planning on volunteering at College Track during the time and maybe seeing if after I graduate I can get a job there or at a similar organization. Or maybe I'll do another programming job to save money/pay off debts, I don't know, we'll see.

Let's see...a couple weeks ago, [personal profile] elipie came over to watch vids, vid and talk with [personal profile] jetpack_monkey and I and it was a lot of fun! I've been trying to go to more meetups lately to meet new people and feel less lonely and so I went to a happy hour and met some cool people DTLA and also went to a hiking group last Saturday where I had some good talks with a couple people. The weekend before that I went hiking with my friend, Jen who has turned out to be one of my closest friends in LA even though she's a bit older than me. She used to be in a rock band but now is learning to program so we hang out a good amount to do that. But we hiked in Griffith Park and had a really long talk about life, fun things in our history and the future which was really great.

I've been missing my mom a lot lately. I didn't fully appreciate that when I felt lonely and couldn't reach any of my friends to talk, I could always call my mom and know she'd be there for me. It's just tough sometimes and earlier in the month I was feeling really lonely. I think of her every day whether in small moments or longer memories and it just hurts a lot. I just really wish she was back again :( Last Sunday was the three month anniversary of her death and it feels so far away and yet so close like I can vividly remember getting the call that she had died. I called my dad the other day and it was good to talk to him and hear he's doing well especially after my brother freaked me out saying he couldn't get a hold of him. I'm still terrified he's going to die, I just heard that statistically spouses are more likely to die after one of them dies so even with my dad's health issues, it's even scarier. I'm really looking forward to going back to see him for the holidays and my cousin and aunt as well, both who've been there for me a lot. I went to a meetup last Saturday with a group that's about women who've lost their mothers and it was really helpful talking to other people like me there. Someone said that the worst part is even if you have other people who help fill the hole your mother left, it's not the same as having MY mother there, she's mine and no one is mine in that way. And that's totally how I feel. It was helpful though and we got to smash plates and mugs to help let out the anger :)

On a happier note, I'm so happy fall TV season in back! I'm watching sooo many shows right now, omg. Monday I have How I Met Your Mother (ahhh THE MOTHER, brb happy crying), The Voice (Adam/Blake are SUCH BOYFRIENDS who flirt constantly, yay Christina and CeeLo being back and I love so many of the contestants already), The Blacklist (reminds me of Alias with Sydney and Jack (and Irina)) and I'm watching Mom purely out of love for Allison Janney who is a goddess. Tuesday I'm giving Agents of Shield a couple more episodes before I give up as I didn't like the characters (minus Coulson) and the plot, Brooklyn 9-9 (I really like it! it's funny and GREAT characters), New Girl (close to letting this one go again), The Minday Project (still sadly only love Mindy) and The Voice again (Blake is not doing an all country team again yay!!). Wednesday is Modern Family (yay gay marriage!) and I'm going to give Super Fun Night a try. Thursday is The Big Bang Theory (still sometimes funny, I love Sheldon but my god the gender issues), OUAT in Wonderland (going to give it a try), Glee (KURT/BLAINE DYING FROM LOVE AND SQUEEEE) and Parks and Recreation (still perfect and still LESLIE IS THE BEST). Sunday is Downton Abbey (I need to catch up actually), Once Upon a Time (MORE SWAN QUEEN, less boys pleeease) and Homeland (didn't really like 301 although I LOVE Carrie still). Lucky 7 is getting cancelled soon but I enjoyed the premise and focus on working class families so I'll continue watching. I didn't like Sleepy Hollow at all so I cut that. Any other good shiows I should watch? I'm currently catching up on Scandal (OLIVIA IS SO AWESOME and I love the addicting plots), Spartacus (deserves its own post but AWESOME!!!) and Twin Peaks (so pretty and I enjoy the plot).

On a happy/sad note, Breaking Bad is over :( But it went out on top! I was lucky enough to get tickets to the Hollywood Cemetery to see the Breaking Bad series finale live with the cast and creators of the show. I went early to get good seats and spent the day reading books (including Clash of Kings! still working on my reread) with blankets and my pillow until [personal profile] elipie showed up and we got to go in. We got good seats near the center but further back because there was a big VIP section for all the industry people who showed up. I went to checkout the RV where Walt and Jesse cooked their first meth and people were getting pictures with it and then AARON PAUL showed up and I quickly got in line but then he left but right near me so I was like 6 ft away from me. I got a picture in the RV though and it was so cool! We saw the Pilot of Breaking Bad (introduced by Aaron Paul being amazing) and then saw the Finale which was AWESOME!!! I'm so happy and fully satisfied with it. Sooo much better than The Sopranos and many other shows that can't stick the ending. I'm looking forward to doing a rewatch of the whole show and hopefully making some vids to it because it still needs ALL THE VIDS!! I read Sepinwall's review like my usual tradition (he helped me get into the show) but not reading any more because I'm sick of the negative stuff. I really loved seeing the cast Q&A after the finale, it was great to see it in person.

I've been working on a Game of Thrones vid that I'm really excited about so I'm looking forward to posting that sometime this month. I need to clear these vids off my plate because Festivids is starting!! I nominated some things and I have some requests but mainly I'm excited about making vids for people because I'll have more time than last year without the OUAT exchange. I already have 7 vids I want to make and I'm really excited to get my assignment and start. Last year was amazing and I'm hoping to have a wonderful experience this year as well.


Oh and I'm going to Europe next month! I can barely think about it, it makes me too excited and happy. Some background: I've been dying to go to Europe since like 2005? Since college started definitely especially London and Paris. It's something I want to do before I die and I've had to cancel every plan I've had to do it because of money but now that's no longer an issue! So Thanksgiving week I'm going to go to London, Paris, Munich (to visit [profile] infiniterain!!!) and Belgium (to visit [personal profile] indybaggins!) and I'm sooo excited to see some of the touristy stuff I've never seen in person. If you're in the area, let me know as I'd love to hang out! It's going to be an epic adventure I'm sure.

Wow that was long. This is what happens when I don't post for a month. I love that people are posting more to DW/LJ and am going to try to do the same, weekly is a good goal for me. I'm gonna see Laura Veirs with [personal profile] beerbad tonight which I'm excited about! A great start to my October :)
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Bad news. [Jun. 29th, 2013|11:46 am]

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So my mom died.

Yeah, I don't even know how to process that. My brother called me this morning to tell me. Apparently she hadn't been feeling well the last couple weeks and then this morning she collapsed on the kitchen floor. My brother and dad helped her to bed and said she thought she knew what was wrong (she's a nurse) and she needed some fruit. My brother went to get some and when he got back she wasn't breathing. He called 911 but it was too late and she died. They're not sure what was wrong, we'll find out the autopsy results tomorrow.

I'm still kind of in shock. I always thought my mom would live til at least 80, maybe even 100. She's really healthy for the most part and hasn't had any serious medical conditions. My dad was always the one I was worried about as he's pretty old, used to smoke and doesn't eat very healthy so I figured if I lost a parent, it was him I was going to lose. But my mom? She's in her 50s and there was no warning at all that something like this would happen. She's like the rock of the family, she deals with all the paperwork and keeps in touch with everyone especially since my dad doesn't have any relatives (that he knows of). Now I'm really scared he's going to die soon and I won't have any parents left :(

So I don't even know what happens now. My brother is dealing with a lot of the stuff in person back in NY right now and I'm going to fly home Wednesday night. I thankfully have Thursday and Friday off for July 4th so at least I'm not losing any work off of it and will hopefully get to attend the funeral and see my family and everything. It'll be good to hug everyone and see my cats again. I found out this morning at 9 and I've been crying a lot and trying to deal with all my emotions with all of this. It's so freaking unfair, I can't even. I just want my mom back :( Even if we never were super close, I could always talk to her about things and she helped me so much over the years. I miss her already. I wish I could have seen her before she died, it sucks that I haven't gotten to see her in person since she dropped me off at the airport last Christmas and I got to hug her one last time. We had a really good talk two weeks ago where I told her about my plans for the future and she got to hear about my new job more (going really well!) and just talk to her about life and say I love you and all that. So at least there's that.

If there's anything I can take from this is that really, ANYONE can die at any time. Don't put things off, tell people you love them and spend quality time with people you care about. It's made me want to stop putting off the things I want in most in life and work hard to create a good legacy with my short time on this earth. So please, don't take life for granted. It's precious.
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Vid up for auction! [Mar. 25th, 2013|01:27 pm]

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So I'm offering myself up for the Vividcon Auction this year, for the first time ever. Because I'm crazy, I'm offering up a LOT of fandoms including a ton of TV. The full list is under the cut:

Full list of fandoms and what exactly I'm offering )

You can bid on me here. The auction closes on 3/30/13 at 11:59PM Eastern Time but don't wait to the very last second as the server may not be able to handle it. I am looking forward to vidding something from this list! If you have any questions at all, feel free to ask me. I basically just want to vid a fandom I like so I'm open to a lot. There's 5 other amazing vidders on that list too so if I'm not offering something you want, check out the others as they might offer it!

Besides that, just kind of tired of life beating me down right now. I wish I could fast forward to the time when I have a job I like and hopefully am in a relationship. I love Lost Girl a LOT but sometimes it's just hard watching Bo/Lauren when I want that so much.
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A real update, finally [Mar. 8th, 2013|01:27 pm]

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So I finally have time and the inclination to post here about some of the things I've been up to. The time thing is mostly because I'm not working at my job anymore. It wasn't working out on either end and I'm really looking forward to finding an in person, salaried job at a good company that can actually pay me decently. I was really overwhelmed at first in terms of looking for a job and sometimes still am but I'm feeling better about it now. It seems that the last year of networking I've been doing in the LA tech scene is starting to pay off as I now have a lot of people I can reach out for help and who have offered to help. There's a job I reeeeally want and I'm kind of terrified of being rejected from it but I'm getting better at feeling like if it doesn't happen, it'll all work out along a different great path. And happy coincidences like a job fair this weekend is extra awesome. I am ever so grateful to be in a field where there's high demand for my skills, it makes it a lot less stressful than it would for me.

Last weekend was a lot of fun! I went to Once Upon a Time Paley Fest with [personal profile] elipie and [personal profile] rhoboat and it turned my feelings of the show to mostly anger to full of FEELS! I still have major issues with what the show is doing (not enough gay, stupid blood > adoption family stuff, Regina's misery as a plot devise) but at a certain point I can let go of expectations and just enjoy the things I love mostly REGINA omg how does Lana Parilla exist? She's hot onscreen but in person she is an absolute goddess not to mention hilarious, adorable and kind. Of course we sat behind some of the most dedicated fans of Lana and Regina so it was good for me to have other people to cheer with and Lana kept LOOKING at us and giving smiles of encouragement and the Evil Regal sign and I seriously felt like I was going to melt with squee. At the end, I managed to crawl over the seats to get close enough to Lana to get her autograph and try to shout things up at her. I hope in the future to get another chance to actually talk to her. I got pretty close to JMo but she left so I talked with Jane Espenson and put in my plug for an actual gay fairytale couple on the show (and happiness for Regina). We'll see what happens...I also connected with one of the fans in front of me in the hope of finding in person Swan Queen fans and a couple of her friends were! So that's encouraging to not feel so alone in it.

Job hunting does make it hard to find time to vid so that's a problem as there's like 5 vids I'm trying to get done in the next two months. One of them is an epic Game of Thrones vid that's gotten me headfirst back into Game of Thrones love, just in time for S3 coming in 23 days eeee! I'm just worried about getting it finished along with two other vids before the April Vividcon deadline. I've also volunteered for Vividcon auction with an insane amount of fandoms so I'm looking forward to doing that for the first time. Reeeally can't wait to go to VVC! There's nothing like hanging out with vidfans. I did go to Escapade a couple weeks ago and that was wonderful! I met some awesome new people as well as got a chance to talk to friends from past years. The vidshow and vid panels and vid review were all wonderful as well and gave me a small taste of Vividcon.

On a dream come true note, I'm so happy about the news that Whose Line is coming back with the original cast! RYAN AND COLIN TOGETHER ON MY SCREEN AGAIN! This show seriously saved me from senioritis back in high school in 2006 and I've wanted a revival to happen for the last 7 years. It's my biggest RPF ship and getting new Ryan/Colin slash with the original games will be wonderful. I've also been loving Parks & Recreation which has been wonderful the last few episodes (except for the Ann plot ughh don't get me started). Unfortunately Glee has been frustrating me more and more with the bad song choices, plots I don't like and not getting me to a emotional place like it used to do. I knew my love for the show wouldn't last forever but it's still disappointing. At least it's no less gay and I'm still loooving Kurt/Blaine, Santana/Britney, Kurt/Adam and Santana/Quinn not to mention Unique <3 The Big Bang Theory has been funnier lately but it's been driving me CRAZY with the increased amounts of sexism. I'm so glad they added more female geek characters but it doesn't make up for that. On the new shows front, I have been convinced by [personal profile] beerbad to keep watching Bunheads which has gotten a lot better over the last few episodes and feels more like Gilmore Girls now along with Parenthood which I'm starting to like a lot more after the first few episodes.

Happy International Women's Day! I went to a Women in Engineering event last night and it was so much fun to be surrounded by women mostly involved in computer science all together. I had drinks with a group of women trying to help other women learn Ruby/Ruby on Rails and it was great to feel like part of a community that's trying to help solve a frustrating lack of diversity problem. It's a slow process but hopefully it can only get better from here. And I'm so thankful to be in fandom surrounded by so many amazing women (and awesome guys) all supporting each other and being creative. I am ever so thankful I found this wonderful place :)
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End of Year Meme 2012 [Dec. 31st, 2012|10:52 am]

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Here is my annual End of Year Meme. I love going back and reading my old ones so I must always do it. I'm going to do the Vidding meme next week when I can reveal my OUAT exchange gift.

End of Year Meme 2012 )
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End of the Year Fandom Meme [Dec. 31st, 2012|10:11 am]

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I'm back in Los Angeles!!! This was not the best holidays for me in NY with having to work and totally failing and feeling guilty AND having the Festivids deadline creeping closer and having a shitload of clipping and vidding to do and failing pretty bad at it. Add in a failed external hard drive and cancelled New Hampshire/cousins trip and I was not in the greatest moods and slept a lot and felt kind of depressed. But I had FIVE CATS and I spent a loooot of time with them (you can't talk to cats on the phone sadly) and hung out with my parents and friends so that was fun. It was good to get away at first but I always feel like I morph into a teenager/lazy college student when I go back to my parent's house and combined with the cold, snow and grey, it's a downer. That being said, I'm glad I went as now I have a HUGE renewed love and appreciation for Los Angeles and I'm feeling extra determined to make this the best year ever. Before I go out, here's the annual fannish end of year meme.

End of Year Fandom Meme )
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Can I please have my Swan Queen back? Please? [Dec. 2nd, 2012|07:47 pm]

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So...Once Upon a Time happened.

Spoilers for Once Upon a Time 209 )

In other news, I am watching The Walking Dead (just started S3) and that's been...mildly entertaining. I enjoy the concept and the cinematography and some of the plot but man it's hard to love most of the characters. And there is an extreme lack of badass, gun wielding women which is a damn shame cause the show is perfect for it. It's gotten a bit better at least. Also I started watching Legend of the Seek S2 with [personal profile] beerbad and I am enjoying it a lot. Cara!!!!!!!! She's amaaaaazing, just my type. And shipping Cara/Kahlan of course. That will be my replacement OUAT during the looong hiatus (haha I've survived worse).

Been working on my Once Upon a Time Holiday Exchange gift this month so mostly just gotten some clipping done for Festivids. I can't believe it's December already! Where has this year gone? I'm going back to NY for Christmas and if I can survive the snow, it'll be great seeing my cats, family and friends there again. Will be going to New Hampshire after Christmas to a friend's cabin so I'll do some skiing which I haven't done in awhile. I'll miss LA though, it's so nice here, all the holiday stuff without the cold. Here in LA, we had a chance to show [profile] cherryice around LA and to a vid party and it was a lot of fun! Even if the zoo didn't have lions that day (FAIL :() at least we saw the tigers being playful and cute!

The kittens have gotten much bigger and they are SUPER cute <3 I love them soooo much!
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Well then [Oct. 22nd, 2012|01:06 am]

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Spoilers for Once Upon a Time 203 and 204 )

At least there is always Homeland never letting me down:

Spoilers for Homeland 204 )

Slowly working on Festivids assignment and hopefully going to try to get this Carrie vid done in the next week or two. I had a beach bonfire on Saturday with fans and it was so much fun! My first one and I loved it and we learned a lot so we can do it again in the future. Also I registered for Muskrat Jamboree!! Who else is going? We need one more roommate if anyone is looking!
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FESTIVIDS YAY! [Oct. 16th, 2012|10:33 am]

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So I got my assignement and I am SO EXCITED!!! I already have a song and I can't wait to begin :D :D :D It's weird to start vidding the morning of right? All of a sudden I am forgetting all my other obligations and all I can think is VID VID VID FESTIVIDS VID. I am determined to not wait til the last minute this year. Not going to happen!

Also I got home from Denver a few days ago and I had a great time! It was so beautiful there with the mountains and leaves and trees and everything. I loved Boulder a lot too, it was so cute and the U of Colorado campus was beautiful. It was fun hanging out with [profile] asuka14 and it was great to explore a new place on my birthday weekend. I want to go back sometime and do ALL the nature/adventure stuff like white water rafting and hiking and such. But NOT driving because while it was fun sometimes with music and good podfic, driving all day sucks. Especially when your tire literally falls off in the middle of Utah, NOT FUN. It was scary to find a place open on Sunday with limited money but I managed and I got home alright. SO happy to be home in LA with warm weather and my beautiful Downtown LA and KITTENS! They are currently cuddling with me and it is toooo cute. They got so big when I was gone.

Also SUPER EXCITE about Amy Poehler and Tina Fey hosting the Golden Globes. DREAMS COMING TRUE!!! I will probably die in advance just to warn everyone.

LETS DO THIS VID!
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Quarter Century of Life [Oct. 11th, 2012|06:02 pm]

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So today I turned 25. It's weird to think I've lived a quarter of a century, hopefully a quarter of my life. As much as I make fun of myself saying "oh no, I'm going to have a quarterlife crisis", I'm really in a pretty good place right now and I don't feel that way for the most part. I thought my life would be different when I was younger by now but life never turns out how you expect and I'm grateful for what I have. While driving to Colorado yesterday, the song, "The Scientist" by Coldplay came on and it made me reflect on each year of my life and everything that happened that led me there. It was very interesting to think about. I was especially grateful for all the wonderful moments spent with friends who've I've learned to appreciate over the years in so many ways. Mostly I'm really excited because I think the next five years (and more!) will hopefully be some of the best of my life and I look forward to seeing what the future brings.

I got into Denver early today and picked up [profile] asuka14 from the airport. Unfortunately that turned into a bad experience (whoever designed the arrival layout is HORRIBLE) with some officer harrassing me but in the end it turned out alright and I was able to take a brief nap before we headed out to see Downtown Denver. I really loved the 16th Street Mall there, reminded me of San Francisco and DC with a unique Denver flavor to it. We had a delicious lunch and then walked around exploring things. Home (well at the hotel) now to watch some TV and eat cake and SLEEP FOREVER. Looking forward to seeing Boulder as well and doing some more exploring. It's just nice to get away and I had a lot of fun listening to music on the ride down and brainstorming Festivid ideas (I have one I'm sooo excited about).

Anyways I'm having a great time and looking forward to making the year I turn 25 the best yet!
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Sundays have the BEST TV [Oct. 8th, 2012|08:33 pm]

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So I'm trying to get into this posting more regularly on DW/LJ thing. I've always felt bad that I didn't post more regularly about the shows I was watching and now I've discovered the solution-Tumblr, all the pretty without most of the work as the tags allow me to express myself simply. However there are a few shows I have more in depth thoughts on or don't want to spoil people too much about so I'm going to post more small posts here. We'll see how it goes.

First off, Homeland. Wow. If you aren't watching this show, WATCH IT! The latest episode pulled off the most shocking twist for me ever and I cannot get over what an amazing character Carrie is (not to mention the brilliant Claire Danes acting). Seriously, it is SO WORTH IT.

Spoilers for Homeland 202 )

Then there is Once Upon a Time...I've expressed myself through Tumblr mostly but there are some more things I want to talk about.

Spoilers for Once Upon a Time 202 )

So I'm off roadtripping to Denver on Wednesday! If anyone in the Denver/Colorado area wants to hang out for a bit, let me know. I shall be there for my birthday on Thursday and then I leave Sunday. I can't wait to hang out more with [profile] asuka14! If anyone has music recs, let me know as I need to find some good Festivid songs. Which speaking of, I am almost done with my Dear Festividder letter and I'm super excited about it. I have one more request to make up my mind about 100% if I'm doing it before I post it. I'm still under the impression I'm going to make ALL THE TREATS but we'll see how productive I really am. And hanging out in vidder chat (#vidding in IRC) is super fun for any talk about vidding.
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I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise, to fly [Apr. 2nd, 2012|03:54 pm]

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So I'm back in Los Angeles. SO HAPPY!!! There's something about this city that makes me feel alive, energized, inspired, whole and fulfilled. The beautiful, wonderful weather helps a lot too. Sunny and 70s!!! It makes me want to dance on the streets of LA or drive with my windows down and sing as loud as I can (I may have done one or both of those things). It's just really good to be back. I took the PCH down from San Francisco even though it took longer and it was SO worth it. It was so beautiful to see the hills, forest, mountains, countryside, cliffs and best of all, the ocean. Wow, it looked even more beautiful than I remembered especially around the Big Sur area. Also got a chance to check out Santa Cruz and Monterey although it sadly got dark before Santa Barbara. It was really nice to get to see the coast again, I haven't done it since 2007 (with a great WL roadtrip!). The night before I also had fun as I went to a gay club in the Castro as it didn't feel like a real San Francisco trip without that. I had too much to drink but someone who I thought was hot danced with me briefly so that was cool. Also I went to Yosemite a couple weeks ago and had fun climbing 5000 ft of mountains. My legs hurt like hell the next two days but it was so worth it and I got some awesome pictures. I did get lost a little in the dark one night but it turned out alright in the end so I can look back on it in a good light now. The falls were so pretty!

I was planning on going back to college but I've had some trouble getting into classes I need so I've decided to not do that and just try to get a web developer job instead. It may take me a few months so I'm going to look for something more temporary in the meantime. I'm really excited about it! The last month has been a lot of fun learning Rails and various parts of the stack and I'm excited about continuing to do it in a Los Angeles environment. Plus I can't wait to hang out with vidders in the area! It's sooo nice to be home.

On top of it, TV is back! I just finished reading Game of Thrones yesterday and although I tried to start the second book, I finally gave in and watched the S2 premiere. It's funny, when I read the 1st book I thought I would have enjoyed the first season more if I had read the books first but now I'm thinking it's better to NOT read the books. Reason being I'm a believer that TV/movies should VERY closely follow the books so little things like dialogue reeeally bother me when they change things or leave stuff out. Part of the problem is I'm reading the books way too close to when I see the TV show as then I remember and get annoyed at everything. For example, I enjoyed the last Harry Potter movie much more because I don't remember a lot of the little specifics of what happened and just enjoyed it for what it was. But anyways, I did love the GoT premiere. The books made me like all the characters a LOT more and now the only one I hate is Joffrey (omg I hope he dies soon). So that's awesome. Arya is still my most favorite ever and I can't wait to see more of her. Also enjoying Mad Men (PEGGY!) although I'm only half through the most recent episode. Sundays are SO awesome now! I do miss Parks & Rec :( Come baaaaaack. Thursdays suck now.

I also went to see the midnight showing of The Hunger Games and LOVED it. No movie could capture the magic of the first book but I loved that it did a great job staying true to the book (they did the smart thing and gave the author screenwriting duties). All of my worries about the casting were thrown away quickly as all the actors totally sold their characters. It was all really beautiful, fun to watch and great to watch with a group of people laughing, crying and making funny comments in all the right places. And I'm so happy it did amazing at the box offic, I KNEW it would. I'm hoping to see it again once I do a reread of the first book which I read in one sitting back in July. If you haven't read it yet, READ IT! It's so addicting and fun to read. Katniss is SO awesome although Cinna is my favorite.

I've been hard at work vidding...vids that are NOT my Club Vivid vid. OOPS. The good news is one of them is almost done and I'm out of the honeymoon phase so I can devote some more time to getting that done along with maybe some other vids I'm working on. It was so much fun to get addicted to vidding something without a deadline and just be into my ship SO MUCH and enjoy seeing them all the time while vidding. It's good to be more productive vidwise again. If anyone want a vid made to order, check out the Vividcon Auction vidders here, there's so many that I wish I had more money to buy!

I still can't believe I'm back here in LA after dreaming about it for two months. There's no place like home...
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Tumblr: take 2 [Feb. 19th, 2012|07:58 pm]

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So I've made a few efforts to set up Tumblr and start using it but those have failed miserably. I am trying again though because I feel like fandom is moving there at least somewhat and I don't want to get left behind and feel old which is just weird to say at my age. So my Tumblr is: here and feel free to follow if you like. I get bored pretty easily by a lot of pictures so I don't know how often I'll post but I'll at least check it every day. Please let me know what your Tumblr's name is if you have one. There's a poll in my LJ if that makes it easier.

I've been super busy these days so I feel kind of out of fandom. Still keeping up on a my shows for the most part at least Glee, New Girl, Modern Family, Happy Endings, Revenge, Parks & Rec, The Office, The Big Bang Theory, 30 Rock and The LA Complex. Speaking of, I definitely urge everyone to check out The LA Complex! I don't want to spoil anyone but there's a great gay plot on there that I'm currently in love with even when it destroys my heart. Plus it has Jewel Strait! It's all about a group of Canadien kids trying to make it in the entertainment industry in Hollywood. It makes me miss Los Angeles even more which I've been doing a lot lately. San Francisco is just no substitute. I don't think I've ever felt quite this homesick in awhile and it made me realize I almost always get homesick only for LA.

I'm all signed up for Vividcon! Cannot wait to go. Also looking forward to Escapade this weekend. It'll be SO nice to get to talk to fans again and watch vids. I'll be interested to see what people get out of my premiere vid this year. Escapade is much less panel heavy than Vividcon for me so I'm hoping to have more time to talk to people there. Also going to stop in Downtown LA after (even though its at least an hour drive) to see my city again as like I mentioned, I miss it like burning.

Been kind of tired lately, my body keeps finding ways to wake up and not getting back to sleep so it's been a struggle to get sleep which is hard when I'm learning all the time. Things are going good though and I enjoyed getting a chance to hang out with [personal profile] laurashapiro the other day. I've been enjoying all the delicious food here in SF as well and I found a great cafe/lounge here with a fireplace, good food, fast internet/outlets and colored lights which I love. I have so little time that I'm starting to have to prioritize more and only do the essential stuff. I am very grateful for my iPhone so I can keep up on social networking/fandom while walking around everywhere. We'll see what happens.

Thanks to everyone who sent me glass hearts! They are much appreciated.
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End of Year Meme [Dec. 31st, 2011|07:30 pm]

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It's hard to believe 2011 is about to end. I can only hope 2012 will be much better than last year for me and everyone else.

End of Year Meme )

Happy New Year!
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Thanksgiving [Nov. 24th, 2011|05:42 pm]

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Happy Thanksgiving Everyone! I'm so thankful for everyone on my Flist and in fandom, it's like a second home to me. Also thankful for living in the great city of Los Angeles, for my family and friends and the wonderful electronics (iPhone!!!) and car I have. It's just good to be alive and hopeful for the future. I forgot the fun of holidays where it just makes you feel all happy and grateful and full of goodwill towards everyone. It also helps that I'm very thankful traffic was not very bad today ;)

Today I went down to the OC to visit some family I have there and it was great to see everyone there. Had a delicious meal, I'm a stuffing girl so that's my favorite but the yams were amazing as well as the mashed potatoes and turkey. And of course watch some football although not having a team to really root for isn't as fun. I'm dyyying to get an LA football team, I hope they hurry up and build the downtown football stadium and convince a team to come here (selfishly I hope for the Jaguars because I looove the name). It was also funny because most of us has iPhones, 5/9 and I don't know what 3 people had. There was also an iPad being passed around for games. It was fun :)

Currently working on a vid I'm super excited about along with a couple Festivids as well trying to learn Ruby on Rails again. Also a great app if you have an iPhone/iPod Touch is Oink which is like Yelp except you rate items INSIDE a place like what menu item is the best and stuff. But you can also rate TV, movies, books, etc. It needs more people although there's a growing userbase but I'm very addicted to it now and I love the idea. Let me know if you join, I'd love to follow some more people.

I am sadly running out of comedy TV. So I'm going to ask here to see if I can get some more recommendations. Here is all the comedy TV I've seen (only half hour): The Office, Arrested Development, Parks & Recreation, Modern Family, The Big Bang Theory, How I Met Your Mother, Cougar Town, 30 Rock, Scrubs, Better Off Ted, 2 Broke Girls, New Girl, Happy Endings, Will & Grace, Nurse Jackie, United States of Tara, Weeds, Shameless, Sex & the City, Entourage, Flight of the Concords, So Notorious and The Office UK...I think that's all. Don't say Community because I've seen 1.5 seasons of it I don't like it. I'd prefer single camera shows (no laugh track) and shows from the past 20 years or so but I'm open to others if they're funny with likable characters. Also I probably am going to give It's Always Sunny another try as I didn't like the first two episodes. Any other good comedies that aren't on this list?
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24 [Oct. 11th, 2011|09:58 pm]

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So today was my 24th birthday and it's been amazing. [profile] runlilirun has been staying with me this week and we've been exploring LA together and it's been a whole lotta fun. Today I went to Knott's Berry Farm (after a free birthday breakfast) and had a blast going on the roller coasters there as well as seeing the sights. A few of the coasters made me a bit queasy but we found a great one: Xcelerator. SO AWESOME. Since there were few lines (and the one I really wanted to go on, Ghostrider was closed) we had time to wait in line for the front for the second time and it was even better. HUGE drop very close to straight down and very fast the entire time. Other roller coasters should take lessons. I will have to go there again to get two of the roller coasters I missed.

Then we headed off to Manhattan Beach to explore my old stomping grounds. We went to the pier at Manhattan Beach and played in the shallow end of the water a bit (it was too cold for anything else) and then just talked a lot which was fun. We then went to a mexican restaurant nearby, drank an AMAZING fruity drink and ate way too much delicious food. I was also embarrassingly serenaded with a happy birthday song-but I got free ice cream so it was okay with me. Next we went to my old job and I talked with some co-workers there. I also ran into two of my old managers and I got a chance to catch up with them which was a nice coincidence. And then we went back home to open presents :) About to finish off the day with some internet and TV which as all of us in fandom know, is always the best way to finish off a great day.

Every day I get older now still feels weird. I still can't believe I'm twenty four, I still feel like I'm younger and I'm kind of scared of getting older not in an aging way but in a, I'm not doing enough with my life way. One of the problems with being ambitious I guess. Still, I am very thankful to be an adult, living on my own and finally working on finishing this degree. I got accepted to Cal State LA so I'm going to transfer there in the spring and I have a new apartment five minutes from downtown so I'm loving getting to live here. I feel like I'm in a good place in my life, surrounded by good friends (with hopefully some new ones coming), interesting books, great hopes, great opportunities, good health and my favorite place in the world. I feel like things are finally working out for me and I'm in a great place to finally take advantage of it and work to make my dreams come true. Here's to 24 being an amazingly productive, happy and meaningful year!

(And yes, I have a much bigger fannish post coming not to mention expanded RL highlights)
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It Gets Better [Jun. 2nd, 2011|11:13 pm]

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So in true rollercoaster fashion, I have gone from super low to on top of the world. So that's good :) Sometimes you just need the bad stuff to make you realize something is wrong in your life and encourage you to take action.

I have now decided that come fall, I'm going to travel! So far my plans are to see London, Paris, Belgium and possibly Italy or Spain if I can manage it. That's a month or less and then I'll spend a few months in Southeast Asia, starting out in Bangkok and we'll see from there. So I now have a goal to save for this summer while working which will be encouraging. I've been dyyyying to travel and I'm so excited that I'm going to finally get a chance to do it. I can't believe I didn't do it sooner. And if you live in any of the above places, I'd of course love to hang out with you :)

After deciding this and having a second crash, I finally figured out what I want to do with my life. I think ;) This will be the eighth time I've decided so I want to be sure this time. But I've now aligned my number one priority and what I believe is my purpose in life, to make Los Angeles the greatest city ever (preferences aside, we all have different favorites, blah blah blah) with my career goals. I am looking into getting a college degree in Urban Planning which somehow manages to combine almost all of my interests when it comes to cities. I was looking at the syllabi and websites and dying of love. Looking into Cal State Northridge, Cal State Pomona and USC since I want to stay in the LA area but we'll see what I can get into. Yeah it may take two or three years, it may require a lot of work but goddamn it I'll do it for my beloved city. And for me. Because I genuinely believe this is what I was put on this earth to do.

So I'm really excited now. I feel like I found my soulmate in terms of career. It just finally feels right. I'm so excited to read everything I can get my hands on, to talk to people, to get involved. I feel I can finally commit now and I have so many ideas on what to do and how to apply myself. In my many years of reading books and blogs, I know how to succeed in this and I know I've just got to take the initiative to make it happen.

It's funny, a large part of this revelation came while watching Kung Fu Panda 2. Don't want to spoiler it but there's a part where he realizes that despite a bad past, you can choose to be great in the future. And that's what I said to myself, I choose to be great. I can't help it, I'm an ambitious person and there's nothing that gets me down more than feeling like I will never accomplish my dreams and will leave this world with nothing but regrets. I don't think I've done a good job til now in actually doing anything to make these dreams happen so I want to start to change that now. I feel like I really believe in myself that I can do this and I will do whatever it takes to become a truly great person who really will change the world in a BIG way. I think there's a lot to say in being patient and not expecting everything at once while still taking this sometimes scary steps to make things happen and join things that matter to me.

I feel good. This sense of purpose is amazing. I just do so much better in this world if I have goals even if the goals eventually change. Stuff at work doesn't bother me as much because I know it's just something small on the road to something much bigger. My attitude feels so much more positive and I just want to make every day count and soak up every bit of development I can get my hands on. I want to share my good energy with the world!

With that, here is an appropriate meme: Post a comment, and I will reply with one or two reasons why I think you're great. In return, you have to post this same meme on your blog and comment for other people.

I am so thankful for my LJ/DW friends and all of fandom for providing me with so much happiness and support!
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Ironically enough, YT just took down Because I'm Awesome [Apr. 26th, 2011|08:35 pm]

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GLEE GLEE GLEE! EEEEEEEEEEEEE. Now this is what I'm talking about.

Spoilers for Glee 218 )

Glee/Ashley = Happiness, still in effect. So glad for good TV although I've been so busy on the weekdays that it's been hard to enjoy it while then I end up with not enough TV on the weekends. Gah. Hoping to make it through the many Doctor Who AND Community posts on my Flist without needing to take an LJ break but I think I'll be fine, the disconnect can just be tough sometimes. Also Improvaganza has been frustrating with the lack of Colin :( Sorry but Ryan/Colin is a LOT of my reason for watching and squeeing madly so it just disappoints me a lot. It has been making me reread a lot of my favorite fic and I'm feeling reeeally inspired vidwise. So hopefully I'll FINALLY make something for Ry/Col at some point. Which will be good as I'm not going to be able to finish my Club Vivid vid. Work has just been too crazy and I've been feeling really uninspired. IDK I just want to vid whatever I want to vid, no deadlines. Hopefully I'll have something for Premieres though.

Life is...going. Work is great but busy and kind of crazy right now with a ton of stuff going on. Excited about tomorrow though, one hectic day yesterday and a trip to Santa Monica later and I now have my outfit all ready. Been feeling kind of lonely but I'm trying to deal with it and stay focused on other stuff. It's been kind of roller coaster-y lately but I'm trying to stay focused on the good. This day had a lot of it so that's something. Here's to tomorrow being AWESOME. Much like Kurt :)
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Running and RL [Mar. 25th, 2011|12:36 pm]

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So it's been a pretty epic week for me. Last Sunday I ran the Los Angeles Marathon and it was pretty amazing even if I was hit by a heavy dose of bad luck.

More on the story of how I completed the marathon )

I also just created a new community, [community profile] socalvids for vid fans in the Southern California area who want to get together to watch and discuss vids. I really hope if you're in the area that you'll consider joining as I'd love to help create more of a community of people who love vids in socal. I know we're out there, we're just spread out and it'd be so fun to watch vids in a group again!

I'm also really excited about Vividcon this August! I'm sure it's going to be super fun and I'm excited about the vids I want to premiere there.

I saw Sucker Punch last night and I'd definitely recommend it if you like to see girls kicking ass with guns, swords and other weaponery as well as super, AMAZING visuals and a great soundtrack. Story might not be the best but it worked enough for me. Also glad to see more people joining The Social Network fandom! It really is a great fandom. I really need to hurry up and finish my vid for it (or one of them).

Mostly I am SUPER excited about finally getting a car on April 1st. It is almost too good to be true after dying for one since October. I can get around anywhere! I don't have to take buses anymore! I can meet more people and go to events and have FUN! This is the best present I could ever get. Also work is going really well as I GOT THE SCHEDULING JOB! I was the only one to get the chance so I am ecstatic. And I'm getting along and becoming more friends with people at work which is really great in making me feel like I belong. I just feel I'm really developing as a person there and carying those lessons in leadership, initiative and social skills to the rest of my life. So yeah, haven't got as much done in my life as I hoped in the beginning of the year but I'm getting things done slowly and I'm positive about the changes in my life so I'll take it. Now I just need to find a way to make more money and I'll be really good...(suggestions appreciated).
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The marlin and the trout! Nothing to do with the post, just love that quote. [Mar. 1st, 2011|08:13 pm]

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Okay let's get this post done before I get too lazy to do it...

Escapade was great! I had a lot of fun and it was so great to live in a little fannish bubble for a weekend. Not so great was the early morning and late night trip home but let's forget that. It was great to get to talk to a lot of people I've missed seeing for awhile now as well as new people and to talk fandom and watch vids and generally have a good time. I co-led the Glee panel which was a lot of fun (we couldn't stop talking! hee) and led a vid panel which was interesting, tech breakdown (and nervousness) aside. Definitely motivating for vidding which I reeeally need as I have way too many unfinished (and unstarted VVC projects) vids to finish. I also won a TiVo (with lifetime access) and a bunch of Escapade vid DVDs! It was awesome as I usually never win these things and in a span of a couple weeks, I've tripled my usual results.

Work is also being super awesome. I suspected my complaining would be a one off kind of thing. After much talking, I am now getting lead shifts and plenty of hours and my marketing group is going VERY well. Lots of exciting possibilities there, great conversations and my manager liked the ideas I gave him. Plus I got a raise, little as it is :) Career wise things are very interesting, hoping things will open up for me in a good way and I'm enjoying a lot of books I'm reading at the moment.

Glee was AMAZING last week. Yes a certain made for me, scene of my dreams scene was waaaay too short but I enjoyed the hell out of it and an episode about alcohol will always make me happy. LOVED the Kurt/Blaine stuff (mostly), LOVED the Brittany/Santana stuff and loooove the songs. I need to write up a long post at some point but that will have to do.

Was able to catch some of the Oscars although I need to catch up more. I wasn't surprised by any of the results but was VERY happy with The Social Network, Trent Raznor and Atticus Ross winning Best Original Music. They SO deserved it, it's probably my favorite soundtrack ever and I listen to it all the time especially before bed and while I read. Just so gorgeous, original and fits the music perfectly with the blend of technology and emotion. I love the simplicity of it as well as I love the quicker stuff, In Motion and Intriguing Possibilities totally are brainstorming music for me. Yeah I totally fangirl the music. Wish The Social Network would have won Best Picture but I love The King's Speech too and it deserved it so I don't mind. After Brokeback Mountain (which SHOULD have won the best picture award goddamn stupid voters) got screwed over, I don't place too much seriousness in the Oscars although it is enjoyable from a certain standpoint. Yay for Colin Firth, Melissa Leo and the TSN editors!

Going to try to post a bit more and hoping this meme will help me do it. I want to talk more about The Social Network but my thoughts always come and go so let's see if this helps:

1. Thoughts on your favorite character and why you love them so much: )
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Joy [Jan. 13th, 2011|01:26 pm]

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Happy More Joy Day everyone! I do not have anything special planned but I thought I'd write down a few things lately that have been bringing me joy.

I finished my Festivid! This is huge because it was a big burden on me but after many, many hours of frenzied vidding I finished it before the deadline :D And I really like what I made as well. Great way to start off the vidding year. I want to try to make a treat this year as well although I'm currently trying to finish my Escapade vid (deadline is January 15 if anyone else is working on a vid!) so we'll see what happens.

That being said, I'm going to Escapade! Really excited about being around other fans, both slash and vidding ones. Who else is going? I figured I couldn't not go, me being so close (yay LA!) and all. I am looking for roommates so if anyone needs another person, I am happy to share costs.

I also signed up for the LA marathon and I'm really excited to do it. I've been running pretty consistently the last month or so (rain not included) and I definitely think I can do it by March. I did my first real long run on Tuesday and ran 13 miles! So basically a half marathon so I was psyched was able to do it and run most of it. The great part is I'm running through LA where I can see all the great landmarks from Dodger Stadium to the Santa Monica Pier so that'll make it much more fun. It is also SO nice being able to run in 60s and today, 70 degree weather!

I am making small progress on most of my goals and I thought I'd share two websites that are helping me. The first is, Mindbloom that lets you put actions you want to take either daily or whatever timeframe you want and let's you check them off everytime you do them which gets you more points and grows your "tree". You can take it as seriously as you want, I just like that it keeps me accountable and it's fun to check things off. If you join, let me know your email (or use mine while signing up) so I can add you as a friend! The other is Mint which is an easy way to keep track of finances as it collects all the financial accounts you have (securely) and automatically keeps track of all debit/credit transactions and enters them in your budget. I love things that help you and save me time and work so I think it's great and it's helping keep track of things.

Work is going pretty good as I'm still enjoying the marketing meetings and now planning the crew party which is going to be AWESOME with lots of giveaways. Plus I'm going to go out clubbing with some people at work next week so that should be fun. I'm also finally getting a cafe shift so I'm really happy about that. I watched The Fighter the other day and as expected, it wasn't my thing nor did I think it was that Oscar worthy compared to my favorite but it was good at least and Melissa Leo was amazing and almost unrecognizable from Toni on Treme.

I'm also happy that my TV shows are starting to come back! Modern Family was funny last night especially the Cam/Mitchell parts (how are they so cute???) and I'm dying for more Glee after the Superbowl. Also I enjoyed the premiere of Shameless which was pretty funny and unsurprisingly loved Ian (and am shipping him with both Kash and Lip gah) so looking forward to more of that. And of course this picture is bringing me a lot of joy:



How are they so cute and in looooove?
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Boys in Love, movies and life strikes back [Dec. 21st, 2010|05:55 pm]

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So I was probably too soon to post a happiness post because a few days after that, I got hit by a shitload of bad things happening to me. Lost my name badge at work (found again after a few days), constant rain (which I got stuck in twice), lost my debit card (making it impossible for me to buy minutes for my cell phone online which then took forever to find minute cards in a store), missed a bunch of buses (and today had one ride right past me), horrible days at work and now my power is out and will be until tomorrow. RIGHT in the middle of when I was about to be done with clipping and could finally start vidding. Arghhh. It's not like the stuff was devastating or anything, it just drives me crazy when things ruin my plans or keep piling on me making life just On the bright side, I got to hang out with [profile] messyjessie58 and it was so much fun! It's so nice to hang out with fans in RL and the difference between them and people at work can be so great.

Fannishly, I am deeeeep in the honeymoon phase with The Social Network. I'd seen it way back in October but things were crazy then and I was into my Festivid's source at the time and I just didn't get into it on a fannish level. But now....oh god I am IN. I am being attacked by vid bunnies on so many songs, reading fic and am so excited to find other people who love Mark/Eduardo as well as the movie as a whole. But really, both the movie, fandom and myself are are in love with Mark/Eduardo and omg the slash is just SO insane. Clipping it (because yes, I do have a persistent vid idea that I MUST make) has shown me all the LOOKS and the little things as well as the way they are EPICALLY in love with each other. They are just such boyfriends and I am all a-squee because of it. I do wish there was more Mark/Eduardo/Sean stuff out there but I am happy to focus on my boys most of the time. It's just so nice to lose myself in a fandom/pairing again and to want to obsessively focus on it ignoring all other obligations as reckless as that may be.

Also, Andrew Garfield is unnaturally pretty and I am so excited by the Golden Globes nominations and already it's wins in the awards circuit. Also does anyone know if there's a Jesse/Andrew primer out there? I am becoming interested but I am lazy and hate trying to look everywhere for stuff about them. Mostly I love this little fandom and I love how we are all growing it together and now we even have a friending meme, kinkmeme (SOMUCHYAY) and big bang. It's exciting and although I know it's not going to be a huge fandom (although seriously the slash alone should make it one-I love Inception but I still think the slash in that is not even close to this level although the worldbuilding has more storytelling possibilities), I love what it is and participating in it,

SO happy it's Oscar season for once. I saw 127 hours and while I did wish the flashbacks were more meaningful, the directing and acting were amazing. The opening sequence was so awesome. Also I LOVED Black Swan and even though it had a few too many horror moments for me personally, I loved that it made me think. After watching some movies that while entertaining, the writing left much to be desired, it was a nice breath of relief. Planning on watching The King's Speech and The Fighter this week and I'm hoping those will be good. I am dying to watch Somewhere but will either have to wait or go to Hollywood to go see it. On a music note, I've been LOVING Mumford and Sons lately, can't stop listening to their album. It just has the best dynamic changes and it's so listenable as well as the lyrics all remind me of Mark/Eduardo (I swear it IS their relationship). Another album I'm in love with is Kanye West's new one which is just brilliant as usual but I love it much better than the last which just wasn't what I love from Kanye. The College Dropout is still my favorite CD from him (top 5 of all time) but this one has some great songs on it not to mention music videos. The fact that he has a song featuring Bon Iver is only extra cool.

Random WTF of the day: I went into a Best Buy and in the For Him section (don't get me started how fucked up that kind of thing is), there was the complete season of The Wire. THE WIRE!! I mean come on, The Wire is for EVERYONE. And I do mean everyone because I firmly believe every person should watch that show. It just annoys me that they'd put it there because yeah there's a lot of guys in it but it's not a gender specific show at all. But ughh whatever, what is really.

I have taken to watching movies while clipping so I'm looking for recs for good movies to watch. I prefer stuff that's either classic famous, pop culture famous (well written or not) or just something that relates to my interests (ie anything gay and random other stuff). Movies I love include Little Miss Sunshine (stuff like Juno and 500 Days of Summer falls under this I think), The Matrix, Hard Core Logo, Wall-E and Rent (I love musicals). I'm not so much into dumb action movies, dumb comedies (although I did enjoy The Hangover, as offensive as it may be), dumb romantic comedies and stuff like that. Don't hesitate to rec something that's obvious because I haven't seen a ton of popular movies.
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Happiness. [Dec. 8th, 2010|09:49 pm]

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Know what's amazing? Feeling happy. I've been thinking a lot about the last year and where I am right now and it feels like I've come full circle but in a much better way. It's been awhile but finally things just seem to be working out for me. So consider this a belated Thanksgiving post.

I love LA and I am so happy to be here. It's hard to put it into words but sometimes it just comes to me when I look at a I Love LA T-Shirt and am filled with city pride or feel full of joy when seeing (or reading about) some aspect of the city I just love. I love the weather that no matter how much I wish it was warmer (my tastes have changed to liking 80s best-but I'll take 70's or 90's), it's still warm enough to wear a t-shirt and/or hoodie around and not feel cold. I love that the sun shines almost every day and that there's no snow and barely any rain (I did get caught in the rain the other day but only for five minutes). I love that there's always something to do even if I don't have the money to do it, it's still exciting and inspiring.

I love where I live right now. I love Manhattan Beach and the plethora of unique cafes, restaurants, bars, clothing stores, cupcake stores (sooo tempting) and surfing shops. I love being a block from the ocean and being able to see the ocean all the time, it's so comforting. And it's so much easier to get up and run when I know I can run on The Strand surrounded by fellow walkers, runners and dogs with the ocean filled with surfers on one side and the other side overflowing with some of the most beautiful, unique and modern houses I've seen. I love that it's so close to work that I can walk to get there and don't have to worry about taking the bus and the stress that comes with that or being stranded at work when it's too late for a bus to come. I love that there's an independent bookstore I can walk to and not only get complementary bakery treats (and coffee but I'm not a coffee drinker) but read to my heart's content. I love that I get along with my roommate and that we're moving to an even bigger space so I'll have both more room and more privacy (which are two of my only issues with where I'm living now) with the same super low rent.

I love my job. I love that I'm in a company that actually cares about it's employees and wants to help them develop and succeed. I love that they encourage everyone to learn and run the business and that they came true with that promise by letting me join the marketing meetings and help with marketing. I love that every Monday I get to be excited to go to work and that my mind becomes full of ideas and happiness at *working* on something important and interesting (ie marketing). I'm so grateful that one of the managers gave me the chance that's inspired me to find a new career direction to something I really love and enjoy working on, that makes me want to learn everything about it and do *more* with it. I love that I enjoy being with all my coworkers, that they treat me well, put me in a good mood, comfort me when I'm feeling down and that I can talk to almost all of them. I love that I'm learning skills in cafe that I've always wanted to learn-including bartending. I'm glad that no matter how boring my job can be sometime or how much I wish the pay was higher, I'm still happy to be here and excited about future possibilities. I'm glad I'm working in a place devoted to media, to entertainment and the power of narrative to move people because it's one of the things I love most in the world.

I love that I feel happy, energetic and motivated most of the time. I'm glad I'm still working on my goals even though I've made only a little progress this year. I love that I'm making it a habit to run each morning as soon as I wake up and that I'm following through with it and that it's FUN. I love feeling accomplished to start off my whole day. I'm glad that I finally like the way I look and I'm taking steps to be even happier with my appearance. I'm glad I stopped trying to force myself to learn motion graphics as a career and have focused on just trying to learn about whatever I'm interested in. I love being able to walk into a bookstore and go to any section to find books to read and then spending hours there reading just like when I was a kid. I love walking home and watching TV on my iPod, only the stuff I love whether it be Glee, Modern Family, Weeds, The Big Bang Theory or my Festivid source. I love that Glee is gayer than ever and it continues to find ways to make me the happiest person ever.

I'm happy that even when bad things happen to me (these days mostly money troubles), I'm able to not get stuck in a negative or hopeless mood and instead work on taking steps to make things better. I'm glad I finally feel ready and willing to take steps to find a romantic relationship. I'm happy that I finally feel like I love myself for who I am and not who I wish I could be and that I feel like I can change anything that I'd like to be different. I'm happy that I know I can make my dreams come true and change the world.

Happiness: it's an amazing thing when you think about it.
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You make me feel like a Teenage Dream. [Nov. 24th, 2010|09:47 am]

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You know, say what you want about Ryan Murphy but he sure knows how to give a slash fan, or at least this one, what they want. I keep feeling like all my dreams are coming true, like this is all one big dream. And man, it couldn't have come at a better time because this is just what I need in my life right now. This is all from memory as I've got to get some vidding done asap but yeah, I've got some thoughts.

Spoilers for Glee 208 )

Oh and on a personal note, this episode finally was the kick in the pants I needed to stop dreaming of love and start trying to find it myself. Because I'm beautiful how I look right now and I'm sure I'll find someone out there for me and if not, well at least I love myself :)

I still intend to post a Darren post, last week was just crazy with moving and work. On the good side, I now live a block from the beach in Manhattan Beach which is amaaazing. Everytime I see the ocean, it puts a smile on my face. It's been kind of up and down lately as work has been pretty boring and frustrating as most of the major learning process is over and I feel like I know most of the stuff I have to do without much hope of switching jobs within the company in the near future. But I'm trying to make the best of it. Also been struggling with making progress on my goals, it's just slow going for all of them and I'm afraid I'll never get the life I want at least not soon and I hate feeling like my life is stagnant. But I'm continuing to work on them and just trying to find ways of dealing that work for me. On Thanksgiving I'm going to to Malibu to eat Thanksgiving dinner with my roommate (whose really nice) and her friends so I'm excited for that as I've never gone to Malibu before and always wanted to. I also finally get paid then which should help a lot with my state of mind as worrying about money is never fun. It's just funny how I can feel hopeless about my life one moment and really happy the next. Trying to stay grateful for everything I have as it's not like I'd have anything better in NY (with snow ewww) and I really do live in a great place right now.

On a TV catchup note, I'm watching Weeds and My So-Called Life right now and I love both of them! They're so addicting but I love the characters on both and it's great seeing what happens to all of them.
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Glee and Happiness [Nov. 9th, 2010|10:39 pm]

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Well I really needed a Glee episode to make me ridiculously happy and oh man, did it ever deliver.

Spoilers for Glee 206 )

Sooo life. Well it's basically been the week from hell for many, many reasons. I worked 6 days in a row of 7-8 hour shifts including working in super busy concessions for the grand opening where I had never worked before at our theater. So that was basically a nightmare including messing up a refund and having my computer freezing three times in a row. The worst part as been there've been a lot of evening shifts where I can't take the subway home (stupid LA subways don't run at night which I haaate) so I've either had to wait til 4 am when they work again and deal with freezing cold weather or run/walk to the closest 24 hour bus, 30-50 minutes away wherein it was an hour late (b/c of a USC football game, thanks guys) and THEN had a bus be late and miss my transfer so I had to wait ANOTHER hour for the next bus. My hate for buses and cold is pretty epic right now. Basically all I've been doing is going to work, commuting home (with TV on my iPod when I can) and then trying to fit in as much as I can.

So I haven't had any time for fandom or anything to myself which is NOT good for my mental health. I've been feeling so lonely lately for both deep friendship (friendly chats with coworkers just isn't enough) and a romantic relationship and it's bumming me out a lot. Thankfully I have Thursday off too so I'll have more time to catch up. I also get paid then which I'm planning on spending on rent for a new place much closer to where I work. I just can't go through the commute any longer so that's keeping me going when life gets really bad. Among other things which is a topic for another long post I've been meaning to write for awhile.

It's funny, I know I've always been not much into movies mostly because of time issues (with watching so much TV) and how it can be hard to get into them and then not get enough time with the characters but working at a movie theater as made me see the appeal/enjoy them more. Mostly I just love the theater experience. So far I have seen Red (enjoyed it mostly for the Helen Mirren parts and small flashes to Jack/Irina), For Colored Girls (liked it but it didn't quite work for me-stunned that people took young kids to it) and Due Date (enjoyed it a lot for the funniness and the hotness of RDJ). Dyyying to see Harry Potter this weekend, I've ignored all the previews so I won't be spoiled for anything and I'm coming into it with low expectations for it having my favorite part in it (dealing with a certain flashback/past ship) after my last bad 5th movie experience. But hopefully it'll be good!

Haven't had nearly enough time for clipping my Festivid but I am getting some time in when I can. The good news is I found a song for my last remaining treat I really want to do after searching for an hour. I had a couple of good songs in either lyrics or sound but with the helpful iPod Genius function, I was able to find a random song I had buried away somewhere that's EXACTLY what I was looking for on both counts. So excited about that although it's killing me to not be able to talk about what I've been watching. Yay Festivids!
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Project Runway, Life and TV: the basics really [Oct. 29th, 2010|10:39 pm]

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Spoilers for Project Runway S8 (includes Finale) )

It's been crazy with work and such. I have a horrible commute, two hours each way so I don't have a lot of time for anything other than clipping for Festivids, running, reading/TV on the commute and some Flist time when I can fit it in. I'm definitely going to move by December but must make some more money this month first. I'm a bit obsessed right now with rewatching my Festivids source so that is fun at least. My vid idea is really coming together the more I watch and creatively brainstorming is SO my favorite vidding process. I'm missing my cats a lot though, wish I could go home just for them (and getting a car, leaving it home was a huge mistake). I really like work though! Most of the work isn't great or anything but I love the people as everyone is really nice and we're finally opening the building this weekend so I should have more to do. It's a learning experience and I'm excited about the future possibilities. Trying to finish losing weight by the end of this year and it is increasingly frustrating as I keep going between trying really hard and saying fuck it and enjoying the freedom to buy whatever I want. If only losing was as easy as maintaining because I thankfully am good at that.

TV has been...up and down is really the best description. Glee the other night was my least favorite episode ever (on the show) and I'm still kind of bitter/ranty about it so that post will have to wait for another day. Still can't get myself to care about the characters on HIMYM because of last season and what's worst is I keep getting angry about things the characters do (mostly Barney and Ted) because my heart's not really with them anymore. Sad what a bad season can do. Enjoying Modern Family, Cougar Town and the Thursday Night comedies. Missing Mad Men already, LOVED this season, definitely my favorite season of the show so far. Hoping Friday Night Lights will fill the void, so excited to watch the premiere! Boardwalk Empire is meh but I am going to give it til the end of the season before I make a decision because at least the history part is cool and I love Chalky/Omar. I am trying Rubicon which I like esp. serial plotwise although it is pretty slow and I don't really care about the characters yet. My favorite new show that I recommend is Lip Service which is a lesbian focused show with a star much like Kara from BSG (and Shane from The L Word) who is so hot and has some great relationships on it. It's fun and fulfills a much needed hole in my TV schedule (Brittany and Santana are great but I need MORE).

I do need some help from people who know Fringe. As you (hopefully) know, I LOVE the serial plots but I am stuck in S2 as I get increasingly frustrated with the pointless boring episodic plots. I was under the impression these were confined to S1 and I am being proved wrong. I don't want to quit the show but ranting furiously about it is a sign to me that I must skip ahead and watch only the serial episodes. So what are the serial episodes after 213? By serial I mean related to the AWESOME spoilertastic plotline started in S1, the kind of thing that gets mentioned in the previouslies. I do not mean, personal backstory and moving the relationship forward type stuff stuff, I don't care how great it is, if it's in a plotline about something weird is going on and we must investigate it and then we figure it out and never see these people again, I don't want to watch it right now. I would REALLY appreciate it if anyone can tell me which episodes in S2 are like that.
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Birthday Time [Oct. 11th, 2010|05:34 am]

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So today's my 23rd birthday. Nothing really interesting to say about it, birthdays are starting to become less special with nothing big attached to them. I am however enjoying all the birthday freebies, I already had a free breakfast. There's a list of some of the offers here in case anyone has a birthday coming up. Excited to go to Disneyland today and have some fun and pick up some more free food on the way back. Mostly I'm just really happy I'm in LA, I have a job and things are looking up for me. So glad I bought my iPod Touch, it is so useful for watching TV, reading ebooks (including fic!) and taking pictures/video while commuting or just in daily life. I'm catching up with Fringe right now with my iPod and it's so much faster that way. Anyone have any apps to recommend?

I know people like Brian Kinney don't think a birthday is anything to celebrate but for me, they're special because it can be quite an accomplishment to live another year. The world can be cruel either through natural disaster, bad luck, bad circumstances or human cruelty. With the recent gay related suicides (which is a horrible tragedy and hard for me to read about without crying), making it through another year takes on even more significance so I'm happy to have made it through mine. I haven't made as much progress on my goals as I'd like but I'm definitely well on my way and it's a learning process as I can see as I'm not making as many of the mistakes as I've done in the past.

Present wise I bought myself a new pair of boots which I'm SO in love with as well as the new Glee DVD (must vid!). And of course there's GLEE tomorrow and I'm sure the episode will bring me much joy and happiness. I'm just feeling really good about life right now and I'm really excited for the year to come!
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Brief LA update [Oct. 9th, 2010|10:30 pm]

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The good news is I found a job! I'll be working at the new ArcLight Theater in Beach Cities. Really happy as the company seems to value its' employees and want to help them develop so I'm hoping they'll live up to that. Mostly I'm just relieved that I can stop worrying so much about finding a job at least for awhile. It just feels kind of like fate that I found this job and I was so happy to make the cut (it was a group interview and they narrowed it from like 30/40 down to six, including me). It does make me feel good about myself though as I feel it's the best interview I've ever done.

Anyways, my birthday is this Monday and I just wanted to see if anybody in LA wants to go out to dinner or just hang out then. I'm planning on going to Disneyland that morning/afternoon (company is always welcomed!) but my evening plans are free.

And yes, I am still completely in love with LA. Even with it's ridiculous weather this fall. Seriously every fall I've been here it's ALWAYS been in the 70s-90s, always sunny with no rain (except for a morning drizzle or two). And now it's going from 90s/100s to 60s to rain downpours and now slowly back up to 90s again. I don't know what's going on but I'd like my sunny 80 degree days back now. Still getting to run at sunset with palm trees together with the moon makes me fall back in love again.
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Let's Hear It For LA! [Sep. 24th, 2010|09:00 pm]

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I'm in LA! My trip was uneventful thankfully and I made it here on time and in a good mood. Already I've had free champagne and cake and went on a little happy run to let out my (slightly drunk) happy emotions. I can't believe I made it and now that I'm here, all the nervousness I was feeling has disappeared and I'm just deliriously happy. I'm going to be using that word a lot because I am in a great, fulfilled and content kind of way. I have a whole plan of what I want to do here and I'm determined to get it. My ultimate goal is to have my own little apartment downtown but we will see how things go moneywise before I get there. It's just good to break free from the chains of cold, boring town with parents I'm sick of and no roots to speak of. I can't wait to meet people here, make friends, see some old ones and create the life of my dreams. Here's the song I've been playing to describe how I feel:

In LA
Concrete jungle where dreams are made of
There's nothin' you can't do
Now you're in LA
These streets will make you feel brand new
Big lights will inspire you
Let's hear it for LA, LA, LA


Yes I will service that song for my own city. Also last night was great TV night with my comedies coming back!

Spoilers for The Big Bang Theory )

Loved The Office for the first time in awhile. It was actually funny! And it wasn't even written by one of the original writers! Loved that it had heart as well. Thought 30 Rock was less funny but I still love Liz Lemon and it did have some laughs so it was alright. I miss Parks and Recreation, tried Community again but I still can't get myself to care enough about the characters and there aren't enough laughs for me. Also tried Shit My Dad Says which was unfunny as I heard it would be. Oh well. Also loved Modern Family on Wednesday although it wasn't quite as funny as I hoped, as always Cam/Mitchell were amazing and the cutest ever. I tried Running Wilde with low expectations as I have heard bad things but it was surprisingly good! The first half was bad and unfunny but all of a sudden the jokes started coming and they were funny and reminded me of Arrested Development. So definitely watching that one. Catching up on Cougar Town at the moment which has been unfunny but enjoyable and all of a sudden, it was funny! Much like How I Met Your Mother, it took til the 9th episode for me to really like it. Not super attached but I do need more funny shows. Still dying for Glee to come back, I have spoiled myself sooo much for the next episode (I am banned from spoilers after that one) but it's going to be SO good, dare I say it...legendary.

I managed to get my Festivids nominations in this morning thankfully. From what I remember I nominated The Wire, Treme, Little Miss Sunshine, Huge (2010), Nurse Jackie, United States of Tara, Be Good Johnny Weir, Project Runway, The Rachel Zoe Project, The Sopranos, Mad Men, Arrested Development, Damages, Beautiful People, Sex and the City (TV+Movie) and some other TV shows I'm forgetting. I'm so excited for it to begin! Hope we get a lot more vidders this year so there'll be more vids ;)

If anyone is in the LA area and wants to hang out, let me know!

Cause in the sun and in the weather
No one else has loved me better
California you’re the place for me
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Vividcon 2010 Con Report (Much delayed) [Sep. 15th, 2010|06:15 pm]

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This has been started and stopped so many times it's ridiculous. But here it is, my Vividcon 2010 con report:

Vividcon 2010 Con Report )

In other news, been feeling kind of withdrawy and procrastiny lately but trying to crawl out of that hole. At the moment, I'm totally in love with fashion which nicely coincides with New York Fashion Week. I've been watching The Rachel Zoe Show which is hilariously awesome and I am SO IN LOVE with Brad Goreski. Like, I keep saying I'd marry you (not literally cause he's gay) but like if I could create the looks of my future husband (hypothetically speaking), it'd be him (with a different personality although I do love his). He's just so cute and funny with perfect style. I die. I may now be saying this all the time cause of the show.

The biggest news is I'm moving to LA! I'm moving up the move date til next week which is kind of crazy but sometimes that is how the timing works out. I'm super excited, I really need to get away from this place which is cold after a delightfully warm 90s period (way too few this summer, barely got to the beach) and I'm sick of my parent's house and this city and just everything. I need a new environment, one that I love and that is completely inspiring to me. A bit worried about finding a job but I am determined to apply everywhere as soon as I get there and hopefully it'll all work out. I found a place though right near Hollywood and Highland that I'm really excited about. I really can't wait and I hope to get to visit with some LA people on my Flist.

On the new TV front, I'm FINALLY starting to get excited about this TV season. Started watching the new pilots and I'm surpringly pleased. Hellcats was cute but not my thing, Nikita was awesome in a girls kick ass and I like the two girl main characters way and Terriers was surprisingly lovable and possibly serial. Giving the latter ones a few episodes to see how serial they are which is going to be my main criteria this season besides funniness (for comedies). The shows I'm most looking forward to this season are sadly few but I'm going to check out Boardwalk Empire (should be a good replacement Treme), My Generation (exactly the kind of thing I like), Lonestar (supposed to be good and pure serial, I'm in) and Undercovers and I'm giving Hawaii Five O, Running Wilde, The Event and No Ordinary Family a couple episodes. Catching up on Gossip Girl now (I stopped early S3) and it's surprisingly enjoyable if only for the fashion (and the Lady GaGa appearance, DIE).

Oh yeah, we have two new kittens who are SO CUTE. Pictures to come in future posts. Going to be the worst part about moving.
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Vividcon OMG! [Aug. 2nd, 2010|10:51 pm]

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Why do every year I come up with a list of things to do before Vividcon and then the week before it, I stop caring about the list and just want to have fun at VVC? Argh it's happening again. I reeeeally need this vacation to happen right now and I'm so sick of all the stuff I need to do before it. All I can think of is the vids and the people and the funtimes and the relaxation and the PREMIERING VIDS!

The best news that I'm super excited about right now is I'm going to LA!!! I've decided to postphone traveling the world til later next year (probably after Vividcon because I totally plan my life around it heh) when I'll have more experience and money. I've decided to focus on motion graphics design because I like it much better than web design as I love motion so much more than static designs and you can can do more flashier stuff with it. Still trying to learn a lot right now but I'm hoping to save enough money to move to LA in October, probably after my birthday. This way I get to avoid the cold weather and FINALLY be in a place that I love with a lot more opportunities/networking in my field. I'm going to be living really cheaply, getting a job asap while trying to build a business on the side. The best part is that I have the whole city to explore and I can have fun just by walking around (contrary to popular belief, some people do walk in LA) and looking at all the beautiful sights. LA is just home to me, down deep in my soul and it miss it with every part of my soul.

I've been enjoying TV a lot this summer, old, new and catchup shows. My long delay in watching Sherlock basically comes down to me being profoundly sick of episodic shows and afraid to see yet another show that fandom loves that I can't get into, slash aside. I'm trying to stay positive though and focus on the two categories of shows I do enjoy: fun, relationship/character centered shows that keep me happy about the world (Glee, good comedies) and brilliant, serial well written beautiful narrative shows (Mad Men, Treme, FNL) that even when they break me down, lift me up in the wonderful narrative goodness. Brief rundown:

Summer:
True Blood: Getting better but still needs moar Pam and Lafayette.
Huge: Favorite new summer show! I thought it would be badly written and cliche like fellow ABC Fam shows Make It or Break It (which I really wanted to like but couldn't get past the bad dialogue) and Pretty Little Liars but I really love it a lot and even though the writing isn't the best or anything, the characters are. Will (Nikki Blonsky is so great) and Becca are my favorites (LOVE their relationship) and I'm dying to vid them. There's even a LARPing episode!
Losing It With Jillian: I like more Jillian time and more personal stuff with her but the episodes became a little too similar for me after awhile sadly.
Entourage: Still fun, still entertaining, still love the look inside Hollywood. Not liking Vince that much this season but loving Ari's stoyline.
Mad Men: LOVED the premiere! Not the second episode as much but I'm just liking being around the time period and characters and style again. Even the commercials are good/tied into the show! I do miss Sal a ton though, it'll never be the same without him.
ETA: The Real L Word: Oh yeah, I forgot. I'm watching it for the gay and the LA/Hollywood connection and it does deliver on that. Unfortunately none of them are really my type and the storylines such as they are, are kind of boring. I wish there was more single people, having them all be couplely (minus one) is kind of boring. I do have some kind of girl crush on Tracy who is just ridiculously beautiful and I love Stacie who actually is hilarious. Mikey would be my other favorite although as much as I love Fashion Week, it can get a bit old.
Catchup:
Treme: Spoilers for S1 of Treme )
Friday Night Lights: Spoilers for S4 of FNL AND MAJOR SPOILERS FOR THE WIRE S1/S4. Do not read if you haven't seen it )

Behind on some shows for VVC, was hoping to catch up on Dexter, Dollhouse, Twin Peaks and maybe Justified, LotS S2 and Fringe S2 but I'm not sure what I'm going to be able to get down. Let me know if you think any are particularly necessary ;)

The weight loss challenge didn't go as well as I hoped for various reasons that don't need exploring at this juncture but I did lose some so it's not a total loss. If I've learned anything this year, it's that everything happens according to it's own timeframe and as long as you're working toward your goals, it's okay.

I'll be at Vividcon around 12:30pm or so on Thursday and plan to hang out in the lobby/go to welcome party/pre-reg so let me know if anyone wants to hang out at all then. I'm doing an all panel schedule except the Queer vidshow (because I MUST go to that of course) and will be taking notes (with my laptop!) on all of them. I'll be in Chicago til Monday, planning on going out to a nice restaurant for lunch and then will go to the airport around 4 PM or so. I'm always willing to talk or hang out with anyone who comes so let me know if anyone wants to make specific plans. But please, don't talk negative stuff about Glee in front of me because it's the quickest way to make me run in the opposite direction. I can't wait to see everyone and looking forward to seeing new people I haven't met yet!
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Taking a Break [Jun. 21st, 2010|07:45 pm]

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So I'm going to be taking a break from LJ and other various social media sites for awhile, at least a month or so. The last two days I did a trial run of it and it was surprisingly refreshing. I got a ton of work done on my Premieres vid (which is coming along well thankfully) and it was nice to have kind of a mental break from reading so much and have time to focus on other things. Plus with all of the crap and fail going on in the world, I could use a break from that on the internet as I get enough of life sucks in my day to day life. Will probably check in from time and time and I will check my email everyday so that's the best way to contact me if you need me.

Already it's kind of weird and it totally feels like breaking an addiction (which it is and I'm usually at peace with) but it's a nice change of pace. I really do need to focus on my priorities right now which is getting out of this place and out traveling the world. Hope everyone doesn't have too much fun without me and nothing blows up while I'm away.

On a final fannish note, Glee is love and here's a vid that proves it: You've Got the Love. It's just a fun, sweet full of love vid that just makes me happy to watch it in part because it uses one of my favorite Florence and the Machines songs. God, I love this show no matter what anyone says.
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New York City! [May. 28th, 2010|03:11 pm]

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I kept saying New York City! in this weird way all week and I couldn't figure out what TV character I was imitating. Today I realized it was none other than Kris Allen in the bubbletweet video. Hee. So yes, I am in NYC and so far everything is going my way. The things that matter anyway. I got a window seat on the bus (that arrived on time!!) and with no one next to me I was able to stretch out started the trip. Then yes, I did go to the wrong address to wait for this Breakfast with Glee thing where the castmembers were going to a theater to do a radio show and some lucky contest winners had a ticket to be there, ask questions, meet and greet, etc. I was not one of those lucky people but I wanted to see them arive and possibly get into the theater. I quickly decided to take the subway to the Apple Store so I could check the right address and go there hopefully in time to see them. I made it down there by 7:30 and waited to see if there was any chance I'd get in. A guy came and said probably not but a couple people next to me said every time they did this, people in the standby line did get in. I was fourth in line so yeah, I totally made it in :) I was so happy, shaking and crying (not really for that last one).

But yeah, I saw the actors who play Mercedes, Santana, Artie, Tina, Finn and Puck and they were answering questions for Z100 and generally being super cute, dancing during the commercial breaks when songs were playing and it was just so cool to be in the same room with them. I got some video of it as well. Then a bunch of people all got to go up at once to get a picture with them and meet each one. And so I did!! It was great to meet Amber and Naya for the first time and I was sure to tell each cast member something special I loved about them (Kevin: favorite voice, Santana: loved her Bad Romance solo, Finn: the end of the last episode was amazing, etc) because I always like to give them a little feedback to tell them how much I love them. I waited outside and saw them leave but sadly it looked like they were too busy to do any autographs. Overall I was just soooo happy I got to meet them and attend it because I thought I had no hope without a ticket. Good way to start out my day. The $8 I spent on the subway ticket was sooo worth it. Although really, what happened to the all day passes? :(

I didn't take my computer with me this time *pause for shock* mostly because I didn't want to lug it around because I want to get some actual workout time in today. It actually is working out well because I brought a few books I've been meaning to read and I'm actually getting some serious reading time on them. Always having fun walking the streets of NY, walked Tribeca to the Apple Store along 6th Ave/Broadway which is always entertaining in seeing what's around. Except for the extremely tempting food parts. I don't know how New Yorkers stand it. However I am super in love with NYC right now in the I reeeeally want to live here kind of way. I feel like I'm cheating on LA lol but I know I could only ever live here during the summers so it's okay. I just love all the bright lights and stimulation and people and energy everywhere. It's fun.

Looking forward to meeting up with [personal profile] fredericks and [personal profile] paraka later/tomorrow! And of course the big concert is tonight eeee. I am glad I am going to their first concert at Radio City Music Hall. Even though I originally wanted to go to the last one, it all worked out because now I got to meet them at the Breakfast with Glee thing!

And lastly a meme because I am curious if people see what I see or even more:

Check my fandoms, my favorite characters, the pairings I like the most, my kinks, my fictional crushes, anything. Now, in a friendly and possibly teasing way, point out the obvious and not so obvious trends or fetishes you see in my tastes. Maybe I'm nuts for all vampire stories, or have a thing for men who smoke, or I'm fond of the tsundere archetype, or I'm into rival slash. Let's point out all of those you've noticed I tend to squee about during our friendship.
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I like to top. [May. 19th, 2010|10:10 pm]

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*laughs* I can never say that without laughing like Adam. But yeah, I do like to top because I am currently number 1!! I had the biggest weight loss percentage in the group at 6%, boo yah! Yes I am psyched. Also the number of pushups I can do is increasing and I am very very happy about that because I want to do this double clap pushup so I get free personal training lessons but really just to show my trainer I can do it. Cause I'm all badass like that. No really, I'm a very competitive person (/Santino or any reality show contestant) and this just makes me happy.

I am in a Neil Patrick Harris kick for obvious reasons. His voice is just sooo gorgeous and pretty and gets to me and of course he is pure hotness. The gay thing helps because I am me and can't help myself but he's just awesome at everything really. I have been listening to all his Dr. Horrible stuff and Nothing Suits Me Like a Suit (this HAS to be Mad Men vid amirite? someone do it so I don't have to) and his recent stuff but does anyone know of any more music that he's done? I need more!! I reeeeally wish he could join the cast of Glee and sing every week cause I need my fix.

Oh, I'll be in NYC (again I know) on May 28th, all day until my Glee concert at 8pm and early morning on the 29th so if anyone wants to hang out, let me know. I am hoping so much I'll win this radio contest breakfast with the cast of glee (plus q&a/meet and greet) cause I'd DIE OF JOY but who knows at this point. Really I am just soooo excited about the concert and can't wait to see the energy and music love of Glee live in concert. Sure to be epic and crazymaking.

My thoughts on the Modern Family finale can be summed up quickly: awwww that was perfect :D I love when this show can make me cry.
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Glee Love! [May. 18th, 2010|10:56 pm]

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Since it's all I can get myself to post about these days:

Glee Spoilers for 119 )

My favorite Glee thing which is exactly what I hoped for when I saw the show is this Glee Flash Mob where people get together and form dances to Glee songs! Here's the first I think from Seattle:



I wish there was this kind of creativity around every corner. I totally want to join one! There's another one from Ohio U that is even more appropriate since Glee is set in Ohio. It just makes me so happy to see so many of them :)

Besides that nothing much else happening besides, work, working out, watching TV and trying to work on my hopeful Premiere vid as well as keeping up with fandom. Well that and my growing crush on Jillian Michaels guhhh. Oh also excited about Upfronts and the new TV shows for next year. Still most excited for Undercovers which yes, it's JJ so I do not trust it BUT the premise reminds me of Spyrents so I am looking forward to see if he can possibly capture that dynamic, if a little, again. Is there anything anyone wants me to post about this week? Cause seriously, I'm out of ideas right now.

Oh and anybody who watches House: has there been any super slashy House/Wilson episodes since The Down Low? I haven't seen any since then and unless it's H/W filled, I don't plan to.
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OMFG GLEE!! [May. 11th, 2010|10:18 pm]

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Now THAT is MY show. Holy crap, it was like they made the episode for me. Also shipping everyone/everyone FTW!

Insta-Reaction to Glee 118 )

Anyways, my trip was amazing. I am way too behind/tired to do a recap now but I had a ton of fun. And the Whose Live show was as hilariously and insanely slashy as it always is. I am currently waaaay behind on sleep as I got 3 hours on the way to NYC and then 2 hours the last night before I left. And I worked today and the next three days so I have little time to really catch up. Finished my Club Vivid vid so I'm glad that's over with. Now for the Premiere gahhh. Also had my first group workout with my trainer on Monday and FUCK it was intense. I honestly thought I was going to die or collapse during half of it. The cool thing about it is it shows you that the limits your mind says, I can't do this or there is no way I can hold a wall sit for this long, is TOTALLY bullshit. And there's nothing like a threat of 30 more pushups to get you to do it. The guy's not Jillian but he is pretty awesome.

Star alert: this 12 year old boy did this amaaaazing cover Paparazzi by Lady GaGa (he's a big fan, bonus points). He has an beautiful voice, full of emotion and he plays the piano really, really well doing his own thing with it. He writes original songs too, check out the other videos. I can totally see him getting a record deal in the future not to mention possibly doing a show like Glee if he can act at all. He reminds me of Kris Allen actually in terms of the beautiful emotional song in a Ain't No Sunshine way. I looove it, it'd totally be on repeat if I didn't have my Glee songs right now.
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Briefly [May. 6th, 2010|11:18 pm]

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So I'm leaving for NYC, New Jersey and Delaware (not in the same day) tonight. Hopefully it'll be a fun trip, looking forward to seeing Ryan and the gang as well as friends of course. Going to stay away from LJ/DW if I can help it, I think I need a break from it all.

Briefly, TV. Glee is continually too awesome to put into words. Nurse Jackie continues to be amaaaazing. Zoe is pure love ♥ Loving Marshall and Tara (and Lionel) as usual on United States of Tara. Sheldon continues to rule The Big Bang Theory. Barney/Robin makes me sad now (although I continue to ship them). Modern Family is love but I'm starting to be dying for a Cam/Mitchell kiss as it is becoming a Thing sadly.

And that's all I have time for now. Call my cell if you need me.
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Chi-town! [Mar. 31st, 2010|03:01 pm]

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Trufax: after listening to Kanye West for five years, it took me until my roadtrip back to NY to realize that Chi-town = Chicago. Yeeeah. But that's where I'm going! Tonight I'm leaving to go to Chicago to see Johnny Weir skate to BAD ROMANCE! Gaaahh I'm so excited I can't even. Plus the seats are general admission so I'm going to get there super early tomorrow so I can get a front row seat and hopefully meet him eeee. I was dying for a chance to see him ice skate and thankfully the universe provided it to me. If anyone is in Chicago and wants to hang out anytime on Thursday or Friday, let me know asap (if you can spare a place to crash Thursday night that'd also be great, otherwise my cousin once removed lives there so I'll hang with her). I'm really looking forward to it! And of course Chi-town is where I'll be going this August when I go to Vividcon :)

I was unsure whether I'd be able to go up until this afternoon as I got a new job and of course the scheduling put me on both my cousin's wedding and this trip. But thankfully they're letting me miss Friday so I'm fine and can go. Had my first day today and it was alright, shouldn't be too hard. Working in the deli in the grocery store for now although hoping to switch to cashiering soon. Should definitely help with money. Last weekend I went to see my oldest cousin's wedding and that was a lot of fun. It was nice getting to talk with some family I haven't seen in awhile and meet my cousin's new baby who was cute (as can be for someone who thinks babies are ugly) as well as getting to enjoy the open bar and dance floor. They played two GaGa songs which made me happy so it was a blast for the most part.

In TV that I am watching, been catching up on In Treatment and Breaking Bad. In Treatment is rather addicting once you get into it. I love the therapy sessions throughout most of the episodes and how character/relationship based it is. Very cool. I tried it out earlier but the pilot kind of bored me. Rewatching that I find that the first patient is my least favorite and of course I despise her storyline which is the thing that bothers me most about the show. Lots of familiar guest stars, Melissa George from Alias, Blair Underwood and Dan from Sports Night. Working on S2 at the moment. Breaking Bad took me three episodes to get into but the fourth is AMAZING. Very Wire-esque and the show does beg comparison to that show although it isn't as good in comparison (what is?). I love the gradual character change and how very smart the show is not to mention my favorite character, Jesse. The domestic stuff generally bores me although the Hank stuff can be pretty funny. However I will warn that they try to buildup to a big S2 finale ending but the ending SUCKS. Don't go into it thinking it'll change the world, it's just the creator fucking with you. Was angry about it so haven't seen the first two S3 episodes but I will tonight probably. I recommend them both if you love high quality television.

Also watched the first two episodes each of United States of Tara and Nurse Jackie and loved them both. United States of Tara got more gay which made me super super happy and I am interested to see where the storylines are going. I enjoy Nurse Jackie more because I love more of the characters. Zoe is my favorite (even though she's not my usual type) because her cuteness and funniness knows no bounds but I am still loving Jackie, Dr. O'Hara, Thor and the sadly taken away, Mo-Mo (such a tragedy-there are no words for my anger). Always can't wait for more out of both shows and I definitely recommend them if you like great female characters.

I am DYING to see more Glee and the premiere of Treme (David Simon's new show) about New Orleans and music). Of course they come in the same three day period, Treme on April 11 and Glee on April 13. A great article on Treme is here that makes it sound like the show will be a combination of The Wire (beaten down city backdrop + amazing realistic storytelling) and Glee (celebration of music + more individualism as well as coming together moments) which cannot make me any happier in what appeals to me. In sad news though, David Mills who writes for the show died today :( Really really sad because he wrote great episodes for The Wire and Homicide. I definitely can't wait for Glee to come back because I can really use the uplifting episodes it always brings.

Brief news on other TV and movies: Ugly Betty-OMG JUSTIN AND MARC!!! Um Justin's plotline makes me so squeeful and happy I can't even take it but god worst cliffhanger ever. American Idol-stopped watching, liked Toddrick and Andrew Garcia, hated Casey and Lee. Modern Family-SO IN LOVE. My favorite comedy at the moment, it's brilliant and everyone should watch it. The Office-loved the beginning of the last episode, Oscar = cutest EVER. Project Runway-I love Seth Aaron (I think he'll win), Mila, Jay and Anthony (he needs his own Bravo show). Can't wait to see the collections.

Oh and I got a new haircut. Never had it this short since I was like 8. It's weird but I mostly liked it besides the fact the hair dresser directly disobeyed my first instruction to keep it behind my eyes. It's fixed now though. Oh and I've been really into The West Wing these days. I feel like my love for that show cannot be contained in my body especially for my OT4. It never fails to make me laugh and believe in the world just a little bit more.
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