| Goodbye 2007! |
[Dec. 31st, 2007|08:59 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | meme, personal, rl | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | "Pride" by Syntax | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | thoughtful | ] |
Well it's been a hell of a year. Definitely on the list of one of my worst but it did have some of the best highlights for me so there's at least that. I usually name my years and this one is called The Year of The Office for obvious reasons. Almost to my one year anniversary and I still love the show like whoa. It helped a lot when other parts of my life weren't so great. Here's the meme everyone's been doing and I've been enjoying reading.
( End of the Year Meme )
Auf wiedersehen, 2007! Hopefully I can erase all but the good from my memory. Happy New Year everyone! |
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| Today is my B-day and people around here just go crazy for it. I don't know why. |
[Oct. 11th, 2007|04:51 pm] |
Happy Birthday to ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif) xandra_ptv! It is cool to share a birthday with such a great vidder :)
So today I finally turn 20 and I'm officially an adult or something like it. It's a nice feeling. I can remember back when I turned 10 and I was all excited about being in double digits. I'm celebrating by having a completely relaxing day from getting enough sleep to reading my Flist to watching Dirty Sexy Money and Little Miss Sunshine (finally get to see my new shiny DVD!) which I love incredibly much. And now I have the rest of my presents including Whose Line is it Anyway S1 Volume 2 DVD, Serenity Collector's Edition, Friday Night Lights S1 and Ugly Betty S1. And I should be getting House S1 soon. Mmmmm DVDs. Also, cake! Yummy. And I am looking forward to new episodes of The Office (Launch Party is my party!), Ugly Betty, Supernatural and Grey's Anatomy which should hopefully be happy making. Yay TV and Office Day!
It's definitely been a growing year for me with lots of changes. I've made some mistakes and had some hard times but I learned a lot from them and I feel a lot more confident these days. I'm feeling less completely unsure about my career direction and taking a break from college is definitely helping me feel more excited about going back and really getting a liberal arts education and pursuing my passions next time. I am feeling incredibly thankful of the friends I have in varying degrees of closeness and am just happy to feel generally supported in different ways. I have so many ideas and goals for the future and I'm really looking forward to getting started on them not to mention watching TV shows and crossing out shows on my long list. I really need to start vidding more and hopefully I can stop procrastinating and get to it as I need a good creative outlet. At the moment I'm just feeling good that I feel that I know who I am and where I'm going (California! but also in a metaphoric sense) and I can't wait to explore the world more.
Being 20 is definitely very nice. As was my special day. Thank you to everyone who sent me birthday wishes! They were very much appreciated. And special thanks to stephmck who wrote me a very cute Office double drabble here. I love Michael *hearts him* Only one more year until I'm 21! And can actually get into 21 and over places (*cough* Improv Olympic *cough*) Hopefully it'll be a successful year for me.
Links:
Organization for Transformative Works: If you haven't heard yet, this is a new organization for fandom that's hoping to build a multi-fandom archive for fannish products in order to keep them safe. There's more to and I have high hopes for it in terms of supporting fans and fannish works.
Garden Party: bop_radar is hosting a Fandom Garden Party where anyone can come and make introductions, show picspams of their favorite characters/actors, participate in a love meme and pimp their fandom (so far). It's a lot of fun so come on and join in! |
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| RL update |
[Sep. 9th, 2007|10:34 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | california, personal, rl | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | "Pavlov's Bell" by Aimee Mann | ] |
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| | sleepy | ] |
Since it's been a bit unclear lately, a brief RL update. I am currently in Syracuse, NY instead of my beloved California. This makes me very sad. But there are reasons and benefits to it. I'm on a leave of absence from college because I am suffering a burnout from schoolwork and need a break from it all. Plus I have no idea what I want to do with my life and so my motivation is very low. I'm currently working and saving up money to go back to California (LA) after Christmas/January because I can't stand another winter here AND I want to go to Melora's shows, DIY and Escapade. In college I was always dying to live out on my own so doing that for at least eight months or so will hopefully give me the independent living and time off I need to go back college in the fall (or longer depending on how it goes). In that time, I really want to look into career options some more as Psychology and me didn't really work out. I think my problem is I have a lot of interests and my skillset is not one that's easily defined into anything so it's hard to find something that really fits me. It's like in fandom, I'm very multi-fannish and I get obsessed with things for short times but I can never really stick with one thing. Except for vidding and that's only a hobby for me.
On the plus side for being in NY, it leaves me closer to my friend lianri to watch Heroes and The Office when they premiere, close to New Jersey so I can visit indybaggins, clayangel and blackstray in October and drive to Scranton for the Office convention in late October. And seeing as that month also holds my birthday (which is perfect for getting early/same day birthday presents of TV DVD sets), it should be an awesome month. Besides that fact that I won't be in California which I miss SO MUCH OMG. When I go back, I'm going to hug the first palm tree I see, I swear. And appreciate every single day in MY STATE and my city and in the warm California sun. Everyone commented last year how happy California made me and how much I appreciated it and so no matter the bad that happened last year, I still regard it as one of the best years of my life.
I suck at comments lately as what always happens but know that I'm reading everything and am so thankful to have such an awesome Flist. Nothing like coming home each day and getting in a good mood reading LJ :) |
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| Funny Math Youtube Video |
[Apr. 28th, 2007|11:05 pm] |
So my brother emailed me (for the first time ever haha) with this hilarious vid about math on youtube, "What You Know About Math". I'm not a fan of math but its too funny. It's my high school! And I know the guys in it, the blonde guy was in my math class for a few years. Crazy enough, its got about 550,000 plays. The internet is so insane sometimes. I love it.
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| I love the internet |
[Dec. 16th, 2006|10:49 am] |
Happy Birthday way2busymom! I'll be forever thankful for you getting sockkpuppett into Supernatural :)
I love the internet SO much. So much that I paid for all day internet access here at LAX. I made a mistake in times so I have a few hours to kill before I leave to go back to NY. So I will enjoy watching/listening to vids, checking my Flist and surfing aimlessly, yay! Have I mentioned that I am sooo happy that finals are over and that I finally have a break to do whatever I want? I've been dyying to vid and now I finally have the time. It's beyond awesome. And a couple weeks ago I splurged and bought a new hard drive, two in fact since it was such a good deal. So now I have 750 GB not counting my 400 GB with laptop and other external hard drive combined. It's like paradise now that I can vid so many fandoms at once. Also, thanks so everyone who left such awesome gifts in my stocking. I would looove to have them all.
I am ridiculously happy now upon finding out that Ryan Stiles is coming to California! To do improv with Greg, Jeff and Chip although sadly not Colin but I will still go out and see him anyway. And its amazing to have so many Whose Line fans coming out with me from Clay, Indy, Sue, Lyndsey and even more all coming out to CA-it's just like our own mini WL con. I'm going to at least the Ventura one, maybe the San Luis Obispo one and heading up north for the Carmel and Santa Cruz ones (April 11-14 respectively). I cannot wait! Should be lots and lots of fun and awesome to finally get to meet people. |
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| Thanks |
[Nov. 23rd, 2006|06:19 pm] |
Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Also Happy Birthday to melina123 and Happy Belated Birthdays to cereta and tinamishi!
I am so much more thankful today than I was last year and that makes me incredibly happy. It's my first Thanksgiving in California and I spent it with some relatives I have around here who were nice and provided good food and football watching. I'm thankful for everyday waking up to feel warm sunshine in my face and for being in the beautiful state of California. I'm thankful for being out of high school and in college where freedom, learning, creativity and kindness reign. I'm thankful for being away from my parents but having a much better relationship with them because of it. I'm thankful for my cats who I miss ridiculously but who I just appreciate more. I'm thankful for all the friends I have, from the ones I talk to everyday to the ones I talk to once and awhile to the ones in my past. I'm thankful for my precious laptop and iPod and all of the wonderful books, music, tv, movies and other things I have available to me. I am oh so thankful to the internet that allows me to connect with so many people and find out so much information. I'm thankful for fandom, for vidding and vids, for ships and fic and for this amazing community we have here. I'm thankful to be alive, to be more independent and to have an idea of who I am and who I want to be.
That's what life is all about.
A meme in the spirit of the holiday: Comment with your username and I will tell you why I'm thankful to have you on my flist. Or just thankful for you in general. And then post in your own journal if you would like to share the thankfulness! (If you wish to opt out on this part, it's quite alright.) |
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| Update On Me |
[Nov. 2nd, 2006|11:20 am] |
So I've been really busy the past month and it's really interfering with my fannish life as well as a multitude of other things I want to do. The good thing is November shouldn't be as bad so I'll actually have time to do stuff. I'm working on catching up to LJ right now so if you get a comment from me from a post you posted awhile back, that's why.
The best news is that I'm going to ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-community.gif) bascon and I'm sooo excited! It gives me a great excuse to check out San Francisco for the first time and I've been dying to see the city. I can't wait to see and walk along the Golden Gate Bridge as well as check out all the other sights. I just remember seeing it on the Disneyland Soaring over California ride and thinking it was beautiful (have I mentioned how much I LOVED that ride?). But most of all I'm looking forward to seeing some people from Vividcon, meeting some new ones and discussing slash, TV and fandom. Should be lots of fun and I've been looking forward to it for awhile. On another I love California note, I'm ridiculously happy with all the great weather. It feels so nice to go outside and feel the sunshine shining down on my face. It's what I call my heat and sun therapy as it really helps to get rid of the bad memories of the cold. And I went through my first Santa Ana winds! Which is not fun to bike against, I can tell you that much. People say California gets no seasons (to which I say, thank god) but 80s+ for summer, 70s for fall and spring and 60s for winter works just right for me. And I'm planning on going skiing in the mountains for Thanksgiving so there's my winter. I love my state.
( Read more )
I love my video iPOd with all my heart still. How did I survive without one so long? Playing vids and tv shows on it is just the coolest thing in the world. It helped me get through Life on Mars which I finally finished and loved. Awesome show, now I actually understand all the vids to it (which all rock btw and I will be leaving some feedback soon). Also I had the pleasure on Tuesday of having only one class and all my other obligations cancelled, so I got to curl up and read a book. Which happened to be His Majesty's Dragon of the Temeraire series as I went out and bought all three of the books. I am SO glad I did because I LOVED the book. I absolutely adore dragons and am now dying to have one. Particularly Temeraire who is the best dragon ever. And did you hear the books might be made into a movie by Peter Jackson?! So awesome. I'm planning on reading the next two on my way to Bascon and back. Speaking of reading, I also read Flowers for Algernon which I had read a short part of it about eight years ago and really liked it. But reading the whole thing destroyed me, the book gets to the heart of a lot of my emotional issues and broke me with all the emotion. Amazing book though, I definitely recommend it and the Temeraire series wholeheartedly.
I've been loving the TV season so far and sadly do not have time to write about all of it. But Supernatural, Friday Night Lights, Torchwood and Grey's Anatomy all have been great. I will hopefully be able to get caught up on BSG so I can watch that as well. Just finished the first episode of Heroes and liked it, it has some potential although I need to connect with the characters a bit more before I can really get into it.
Okay, I'm done. Off to bascon! |
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| Birthday! |
[Oct. 11th, 2006|08:07 pm] |
Before I get to my own, happy (belated) birthdays to greensilver and lierduoma! Hope you both had wonderful days, my fellow October birthdays.
So I had my 19th birthday today. It was my first birthday away from my parents in California. It was awesome! Thank you to everyove who wished me a happy birthday, it is much appreciated. I am now the proud owner of a video iPod! I love it, so shiny and new and I can now play a ton of music, vids and tv episodes. Pure heaven, right there. Just imagine, being able to play whatever vid I want, wherever I am. Yay! I really am having a great day, everyone has been wonderful to me, I received mail from relatives and I had a great meal and cake and ice cream. Plus a book I was waiting for came for me at the library so I had fun reading that during work. And now I can just relax and read my Flist and watch my favorites vids and TV episodes. I've been really busy the last few weeks and its nice to take a break from that.
I was thinking about it on the way back from Disneyland on Saturday (fun!), 19 is not a big birthday or anything, just one step closer to 20 and 21. But for me, it marks the first year that I've truly found my independence. I'm quite addicted to it now, I love doing things on my own, getting my own money and buying whatever I want and I greatly look forward to the day when I can live completely on my own. I feel a lot more mature now, I'm still learning and growing of course and look to continue that in the coming year, but I think I've come a long way since last year. I'm so happy that I made my dream come true and now I'm right where I want to be with a way to become who I want to be.
Also? Fans are the best because both sockkpuppett and killabeez made amazing Supernatural vids! Talk about awesome birthday surprises. Download them here: Lum's vid and Killa's vid. Not to mention sisabet joining the ranks of Supernatural fans/vidders makes me even more happy.
It's been a great day :D |
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| Small Update |
[Aug. 23rd, 2006|05:52 pm] |
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| | Club Vivid vids | ] |
I'm really behind on reading my FList and commenting and it makes me feel so bad and guilty and I really wish I could but I am so busy with Orientation. I moved into my absolutely beautiful campus on Tuesday and met my roommate who is really nice and we seem to get along well. There have been a ton of events that I've been going to along with getting to meet my RA who is really nice and fun and who I got to talk to along with some other kids on my floor. One of the best things has been getting to meet the Psychology faculty which made me really excited for classes to begin with all the opprutunities in the department as well and plus I met my advisor who also is teaching my Statistics class this semester. It was great to be in a room of people who all love Psychology like me, reminded me of Vividcon with the vid love. Also checked out some of the services and activities available and I'm so excited to go to all the clubs, to go to concerts, lectures and sports games and to volunteer. I just love that now its possible for me to do this easily, that I want to do it and be part of the community, to get the full college experience. I'm so excited for everything that's coming up and I'm really happy here so far. I can definitely see that its going to take awhile for me to find some good friends as I keep getting into overload mode and getting shy and quiet to take in my surroundings but so far I'm okay with that. Its nice just getting to know people and even if I know I probably won't be connect with some people, there seems to be some cool people here. I still kind of miss Vividcon (I really did have an awesome time with everyone!) but it's great having another wonderful experience to continue the happiness. I promise that as soon as I get some free time, I'll try to catch up on everyone's posts. Hope everyone is doing well! |
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| California=Paradise |
[Aug. 20th, 2006|10:01 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | california, college, personal, rl | ] |
| [ | Current Location |
| | Orange, California | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | cheerful | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | I Enjoy Being a Girl vid | ] |
So I'm here in California right now and I'm having the time of my life. It's just as amazing as I expected it to be and even more so.
I barely got any sleep in anticipation for my first plane ride and that was fun. I love the great feeling at takeoff and the speed on the way up and down, so that was fun. The plane ride itself was alright, up in the air it doesn't feel like you're flying much but its great to be able to see everything look so small on the ground. I loved seeing the Grand Canyon from up in the air and I really can't wait to see it on the ground someday. We arrived at LAX with no trouble and besides it taking forever for our luggage (6 huge suitcases with mostly my dorm stuff) to come and then find it, we got out okay and then spent some more waiting time getting a rental car. We (my mom, brother and me) then went to visit some relatives who I don't really know but were really nice and took us all out to Venice Beach. I LOVED that! At this point, I was already in love with the weather (sunny, warm with a breeze), the palm trees and other unique plants and the gorgeous architecture not to mention all the great big buildings and entertainment ads (there was a Grey's Anatomy one!) in LA. But then I got exposed to that long boardwalk full of people selling their art and other products and I was spellbound by all of it with the impressive mix of talent and creativity on display. Not to mention the stunning diversity of people which was amazing to watch. There were some great musical artists that contributed to the artsy feel along with bikers, skateboarders and rollerbladers that made it seem so much like the California I see in movies. Not to mention the beach which was gorgeous and pretty and I soo missed the ocean and was happy to see it again, the Pacific coast this time.
Next we went to the hotel we were staying at, 5 minutes from Chapman and got our stuff settled in before heading off to Chapman University for the last few minutes of daylight. I had seen pictures of Chapman and loved it but seeing the real thing was even more breathtakingly beautiful. I really love the buildings, they're mostly white but look so beautiful and grand. The campus is filled with gardens and palm trees (my new favorite thing) and fountains that makes me love it even more. I'm really looking forward to going to college there. Also, I got to see my dorm room when my RA let me into see it and it look big enough so I think I should be fine even though being in a triple makes me a bit uneasy. I love my residence hall though, its very pretty (like every other building) and closest to campus. I wasn't expecting it but I'm even falling in love with the city of Orange as it even has different sections arranged by ethnicity so I can be immersed in even more cultures. I can't wait to explore my surrounding and beging to really know the place. I really feel like I've made the right choice and its good to know that my impressions I formed online were right.
I'm so happy here and I feel like I've finally found my real home. This is where I was meant to be, I just know it. Sure, I know it has its problems but right now California is beautiful in every way for me, imperfections and all. I keep seeing palm trees and being amazed that I'm actually in this paradise, that I'm here at last. Looking forward to being on my own but for now I'm enjoying southern California in all its glory. This is my perfect place and I've finally found it :) |
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| California: Here I come! |
[Aug. 20th, 2006|12:32 am] |
So it's finally here, the day that I move to California. I can hardly believe it, I've waited so long for this moment and now I'm leaving. I'm just about done packing and ready to begin the next chapter in my life. I'm leaving this morning around 5 AM and I move into Chapman University in Orange, California on Tuesday. I can't wait for it to begin and I've planned this for so long that its great for it to actually be happening. But before I go, some reflection on why I hated high school, why I decided to go to college in California and why that college turned out to be Chapman University.
( Long explanation under the cut )
Going to sneak in a vid rec too. Everyone should go over and watch absolut3destiny's new vid, I Enjoy Being a Girl. One of my favorite vids ever with a perfect mix of Sydney Bristow, Buffy, Starbuck, Veronica Mars and Zoe being perfectly edited to the music with awesome parallels and kick ass fighting. I've been listening/watching it nonstop ever since Vividcon and it made me miss Veronica Mars and Firefly even more. It's just amazing. *am still in vidding mode* |
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| VIVIVDCON OMG! |
[Aug. 9th, 2006|06:03 pm] |
It's starting to finally hit me that I'm going to Chicago for Vividcon, leaving in only one day. OMG sooo excited. I swear that I couldn't sleep last night because the anticipation was killing me. Which might be because I imagined what it would be like there but that's what I do with something that is totally new to me as its my first con, first big trip without my parents and first time meeting tons of new people who better yet are going to be fans, VID fans no less. Still haven't packed or even done the little shopping I need to do (doing that next) but that's because I prefer to wait to the last minute (ie tomorrow) for this kind of thing. I'm actually taking the train (Amtrak) as I don't have my license yet (yes I know, I really do need to get it) although even if I did, my family probably wouldn't be able to spare a car. I'd fly but I really don't have *that* much money for Vividcon as I am but a poor college student and so I'm trying to get the cheapest things. Which means taking a bus as well but I already did that on my trip to Toronto so I know I can do that.
I'll be leaving on Thursday night and get there Friday morning and should be at the hotel around 10:30 AM, just in time for registeration. And meeting everyone! I just know I'm going to be scared out of my mind, just meeting one person I met online (hi insomnikat) freaked me out (think shaking) but I am just so excited to meet so many people I admire and like, that I'll deal with it because OMG VVC. I have a (mental) list of people I must go up and talk to (although I'd always prefer people coming up to me...) because I love their vids/fic/think they're cool and I want to take advantage of my oppurtunity to say it in person. And hey, if I get scared, I can always go hide in my hotel room. But no, at the very least, I should have a great time at the vidshows and panels as that's not scary at all and should have tons of good vid talk.
Here's my list of vidshows/panels I'll be at in list version: The Wayback Machine, Color Explosion (both parts), Music (both parts), Supernatural party, Club Vivid, Symbol & Metaphor, Great Transitions, Professional Inspiration, Vid as Collage, Audio Editing, Lord King Bad Vid, SV/SGA party, Premieres, Karoke, Karoke take down volunteering, Vid Review, In Depth Vid Review, Special Effects, Challenge, Auction. That's pretty much Vividcon in a nutshell for me. Admittedly, I lean more towards panels than vidshow just because I LOVE vid meta and I'm okay with seeing vids online rather than in vidshows. I think I have a good mix though and I really look forward to being with people who love vidding and meta and fandom as much as me. Club Vivid is just going to be SO fun, I was watching the Joxer Dance and some of last years Club Vivid vids and I couldn't wait to be there with everyone dancing with it. I don't dance much myself (again, shy) but I love being in that atmosphere. And Premieres and seeing everyone's new vids before anybody else is going to be so awesome.
On a vid note, I am almost done with my Brian/Justin video but I'm having technical problems AGAIN (grr) so its taking longer than I thought. This is the vid that actually came out close to the image I have in my head and that I think utilizes a lot of things I've learned although it still need a good beta (or two). I hope to finish it before classes start at least. Another good thing about Vividcon, its helping me to not think so much about going to California in 11 days (YAY) because I'm just focusing my energy on one thing at a time. I think of VVC as my preparation for California/college as I'm in both instances going to a new place and meeting a lot of new people. Both very nervewracking for me but my approach to it is sometimes you have to dive in the deep end to experience all the highs in life.
Looking forward to seeing everyone whose coming to Vividcon! *squee* |
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| Cold/College Thoughts |
[Jan. 11th, 2006|07:24 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | college, personal | ] |
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| | sad | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | "Don't Panic" by Coldplay | ] |
Been feeling down about the weather and my chances to go to college in California. It's above normal for the weather here and I still feel cold all the time. Our school is freezing in every room and even though people complain, they do nothing about it. Some kids today actually decided to open a window because they were "hot". What the hell? So stupid. It's hard to concentrate when you're shivering and it's hard in a school setting to wear more than two layers. I just hate the cold so much, it is my most hated enemy and represents to me the lack of freedom I have. It constrains me, chains me to my present life and dulls the life out of me. I just can't stand it anymore and the thought that this is my last winter is the only hope that's keeping me going.
I'm applying to 6 colleges in California and I think I'll get some of them. Problem is, my parents are messed up with the financial system and probably won't be able to pay the EFC on the FAFSA. Filling it out now and it doesn't look good especially as our income increased without much change in money saved for college. Everyone always says the state college but I can't do that because I can't stand the weather anymore as well as the close distance to my parents who I really need some freedom from. Everytime I try to even consider that option, I start crying and can't take the thought so that's no option for me. I'm going to California no matter what, if I can't get into college there, I'll just fly by myself and go there, get a job, see what happens. It's just it sucks to probably be losing the dream to be able to have a new chance at college. I've never had a fair chance at my high school because of the weird schedule, the cold and being stuck with my parents and I really wanted to try to be on my own and enjoy and learn from my college life. Oh well, I guess. Life is just so unfair.
I'm been feeling emotional lately and just tired of school, tired period because my sleep schedule's way out of whack. I've got a lot of stuff to do but I get stuck on some of them and have a hard time completing the rest.
ETA: So I filled out the FAFSA and the predicted EFC doesn't look so bad so maybe there's hope :)
Sorry for the depressing info. I go through cycles of good and bad and at the moment the latter is prominent. |
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| Meme |
[Aug. 8th, 2005|11:49 pm] |
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| | "Danger! High Voltage" by Electric Six | ] |
From mauve_cailean
Your Birthdate: October 11 |
Your birth on the 11th day of the month makes you something of a dreamer and an idealist.
You work well with people because you know how to use persuasion rather than force.
There is a strong spiritual side to your nature, and you may have intuitive qualities inherent in your make up, too.
You are very aware and sensitive, though often temperamental.
Although you have a good mind and you are very analytical, you may not be comfortable in the business world.
You are definitely creative and this influence tends to make you more of a dreamer than a doer. |
I always love when these things are almost all true.
The Keys to Your Heart
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You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. |
In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. |
You'd like to your lover to think you are stylish and alluring. |
You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. |
Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything... no secrets. |
Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. |
You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. |
In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily. |
Interesting that all this was revealed through questions revolving around animals. No surprise that I picked the cat ones mostly. And its mostly true. |
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| Multiple Intellifences |
[Mar. 18th, 2005|11:36 pm] |
| [ | Tags | | | meme, personal | ] |
| [ | Current Mood |
| | relaxed | ] |
| [ | Current Music |
| | "Sway" by Michael Buble | ] |
 | You scored as Intrapersonal. You prefer your own inner world, you like to be alone, and you are aware of your own strengths, weaknesses, and feelings. You learn best by engaging in independent study projects rather than working on group projects. People like you include entrepreneurs, philosophers and psychologists.
Intrapersonal | | 93% | Interpersonal | | 79% | Verbal/Linguistic | | 68% | Musical/Rhythmic | | 39% | Logical/Mathematical | | 36% | Visual/Spatial | | 14% | Bodily/Kinesthetic | | 4% | </td>
The Rogers Indicator of Multiple Intelligences
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That definitely explains it pretty well. Inner worlds and independent study are the best. I've always liked this way of defining intelligence, there isn't just one way to be talented, but many and those are always important. For myself, I think this was pretty accurate although the musical and logical/mathmatical ones could be switched as the music score was mostly improved since I adore music while I don't have a lot of talent in it specifically in distinguishing notes. The funny thing is, my brother has the exact same talents reversed, as in whatever I'm good at he isn't and whatever he's good at, I'm not. I picked up a book in my library about this once actually, it hooked me into it and also I liked how it gave ways to improve all the intelligences, as I do think its good to try to develop different aspects of myself. |
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| A Race against Time |
[Nov. 22nd, 2004|06:12 pm] |
Happy Birthday tinamishi! I hope you had a great birthday and that this year will be a successful one :) Hopefully you'll get a lot of wonderful fandom presents as well (sv really cant come fast enough) ;) I've really enjoyed reading your writing and can't wait to see more.
In other news, I have a jam packed evening today. The question is, can I get it done? I have to finish my 5-10 double spaced research paper (which Ive majorly procrastinated on, so yes it is all my fault) and write about 7+ paragraphs plus a works cited and bibliography and a whole bunch of notecards filled down with used info and make sure all my work reads coherently. Add to that I have a chem test tomorrow I must study for as that grade was my only blemish on the grades scale. To top it off, there is no way Im going to be able to do all of this straight through without totally stressing out so I need a bit of a break i.e Everwood time with studying during the commercials.
My biggest trouble with these kind of projects is that I try too hard to be a perfectionist and I just can't do that when I don't have enough time. When I naturally can't get my high standards accomplished it just makes me disappointed and more stressed. I need to just try to get stuff done which means just write things, dont read everything and feel overwhelmed by everything and how I can possibly get it into something thats amazing and deep and perfect which realistically, isn't needed to get a decent grade. If I want to really get into my subject I can always look into it later. So basically following three rules right now:
1) Don't Be a Perfectionist!!!
2) Write it down.
3) Don't give up.
I can only hope and try my best to succeed in the limited time I have. |
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| Personal Statement/Declaration of Independence |
[Nov. 4th, 2004|12:16 am] |
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Inspired by the book, Into the Wild, a very good book btw, and an english assignment:
Life is love. A discovery of art, emotions, knowledge and meaning. A journey to find my identity. The creation of connections to all forms of life. A place to belong. The struggle of standing up for freedom, equality, truth and happiness. To make a difference. A fight to be myself. The fulfillment of my potential. A transcendence to be my spiritual essence. To become one. Love is life.
~Anoel~ |
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| Happy Birthday to Me |
[Oct. 11th, 2004|11:58 pm] |
Finally my birthday is here :) I love birthdays and this one was definitely great. I slept in late of course, I'll never be a morning person and its always great to get to do that on a Monday. Beginning off my day, my dad made french toast just for me, that was nice. Then i did a little studying for fossils, cmon, I had to do something productive. Next I went to the mall with my mom and brother and headed straight to Media Play. There I bought, with the gift cards from my birthday, the Everwood season 1 dvd. I really wanted that since I had never seen half the episodes and I knew they were good, since I love all the characters and their relationships as well as how well written the show is. After eating some good food I checked out a book store and comic book shop and read some manga, always fun reading about those hot guys and their relationships. I got a book there too, about how to draw manga because I'm interested in trying my hand at it. I came home and settled down to watch my new Everwood dvd, loving the special features. All the actors were so funny, it was very entertaining. Saw the first 2 episodes after that, and they were just as good as I always thought they would be. That show always makes me cry, I really think its the death theme and me relating to it with my cat as well as the show having a lot of heart and real moments. And then there was delicious cake :) After a brief check online, there was more Everwood but this time the new season. Finally there was more internet time, culminating in writing this entry. I will be getting my big present tomorrow as disappointingly our Media Play didnt carry it :( Guess tomorrow will be a fun day then. Thanks to all the people who congratulated me :)
And now for a birthday quote I find amusing...
"I was born on the first day of the Methosian calendar. I have a birthday whenever I feel like it. I had three last week, as a matter of fact, and none of you got me any presents." --Methos
Hehe. |
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| MAPP |
[Sep. 10th, 2004|07:05 pm] |
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| | "Falling from the sky" by Vast | ] |
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So here are my nicely accurate results of my MAPP (Motivation Appraisal of Personal Potential) MAPP test.
( Results ) |
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| Quiz |
[Jul. 23rd, 2004|11:07 pm] |
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| | "Haunted" by Poe | ] |
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Your soul is OPEN-MINDED. Although you do have
strong opinions and make decisions, you never
make them without thinking first of not only
everything that is, but those that may not be
as well. People trust that you'll willingly
hear them out and understand when they tell you
something, and you are well-liked for it. You
are often the mediator in disputes and your
desire to do what is right overcomes all else.
You are an understanding and admirable soul.
What Is Your Soul's Trait?
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Well I certainly try to be. Its one of the traits I admire most and I strive to keep this outlook. (ETA: That was me trying to be openminded enough to accept it might not be true ;))
I liked the quiz though. The answers were interesting and I could find ones that were like me to choose. |
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| Depth |
[Jul. 22nd, 2004|03:55 am] |
What truly interests me in a story? In a character? Vid? Fanfic?
I think the major thing is depth. I can be tolerant with a lot of things but I want to know there's more than just the shallow (unless that's what I'm looking for and thats not usually what I'm truly invested in). I may be the only one seeing it but that's why its personal. I want to look at something and be amazed at how complex it really is. I might have only a vague notion of it but I know it runs deep. Inside I can see layers upon layers of tunnels, twists, mazes that never end and are all connected. The fun part is to try to capture those specific little pieces and then frame them all into the bigger picture.
It's like a cycle. First I feel that overwhelming feeling of knowing that this depth exists. Thats when I'm seeing the whole thing. Then I try to find this complexity and investigate all the small bits of it. Gradually they interconnect together and finally I'm back where I began, amazed at how it all fits together into one big whole. I've never quite deciphered it all but the best thing is that it doesn't need to be. That mystery is what makes it even better and more interesting.
For example, one of the characters I love the most, Lex is exactly like this for me. Anyone on a journey from good to bad must have to be pretty complex. And he completly is. Sure, I love the outside image he presents but I'm really drawn to him because I know there is so much there, under the surface. He has so many phases in his life, the scared little kid, the rebellious youth and now the ambitious buisness man. He blurs these transitions as he fights to stop the inevitable phase of evil villian. But through it all I can always find so much in him and its always interesting. He just makes me feel that there is always more to him, that his being is like a black hole, an infinite universe that I can never fully explore, but I want to try.
In vids I also want to have that. No matter what it is, if I feel there is more under the surface, I'll keep watching endlessly until I figure it out. A vid example of this is Superstar by heres_luck What got to me in this vid is how deeply it goes into Faith, into her psyche. I'm totally drawn in, I want to know more but I can never fully know. Which of course, always leads me back for more. The vid itself is extremely complex as well, it equally matches the character study and reinforces it. The technical mastery and artistic beauty is beautiful and there is always more to it. I keep watching the vid and finding all the little things that make it so good. But it always leads back to the overall effect it has.
Another vid that gets to me is Haunted by Seah and Margie, at Seah and Margie's Vids. I have no knowledge of the fandom and that made it a bit confusing but I was sucked in by how interesting it seemed. And then came the ultimate: Big Emotion. Helped by the song but the visuals and build up made it even more prominent. I truly felt how deep the emotion was and it sent me soaring, to a place I could go and explore and never get tired of it and there is always more there to discover. I want to feel deeply and that is exactly what i got, not shallow feeling, but the real, genuine thing. That's what pulls me into these worlds.
The same thing goes for fics. katallison amazes me with the depth of her Highlander fics (havent read the rest of the fics yet) and I can read her stories over and over again. For example, One for the Road I love because of all the little things put in the story. Nothing was random, or at least I have to believe that. Because in every detail, in every part, it expresses something that speaks to the larger meaning. For me, the interesting part that I love is trying to discover it all. Oh and for Big Emotion goodness, The Parting Glass gets to me in a way that few things have ever done to me. With this I identify so strongly that I know its touching all the emotional centers in me and it turns the tables on me, so that I am the subject. Now I can even see the complex inside of me. And that to me is what all these art forms are supposed to do, to reveal something new inside myself and give me a new understanding of myself and the world. That occurs especially in the fic, Strata which I loved the most for its theme and how deeply it resonated with me. And since this is quickly turning into a rec, I say, go off and read the fics now, here at Kat Allison's Fic.
Really, all I want is that depth. That's what I'm searching for and will continue to journey down those infinite paths. |
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| Trampoline Sanctuary |
[Jul. 1st, 2004|11:12 pm] |
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I wrote this last night but lj wouldn't let me post it so keep that in mind:
So today is the last day at my cousin's house in PA before I'm go back home. Overall I'd say it’s been a pretty good trip, better than last time's at least. Sure my brother is still being a jerk and my mom still goes along with it but I’m used to it and I try to ignore it. It’s like an animal haven over here, they have a ton of animals, about 8+ cats and 4 dogs all of which I have my aunt animal lover (like me) to thank. I love to be around them, they’re so sweet and one of them, Petey, who’s one of my old favorites is always there at night when I go to sleep. He's by my side so I can pet and hold him in paradise *sigh*
Its really fun being with my cousin Holly as well. I finally think I've figured out her type, ESFP and for enneagram type, she's a 7w6 so/sx (still not sure about the variants). Good thing she's around, I need a nice person to hang out with that satisfies my crazed social variant's acceptance need. It really shone out when we went to an amusement park on Sunday. That was a LOT of fun. It's great having someone you can count on to ride with you and someone you can chat and joke around with. This is why I wish sooo much she was my sister instead. Ah well. She'd probably get annoying even quicker then lol but at least we'd still have a like foundation under that. I really enjoyed the roller coasters at the park though, I just love that sensation I get when I go over the hills. My cousin and I like to go in the back and this time we tried something different-we looked back while going down the big hills. Major freaky coolness. It was in my favorite roller coaster ride, where I love to practically fall out of my seat and feel like I'm flying, almost. Today I went to her swim meet and that was cool. As usual I was impressed by the athletics.
One of the great things she has at her house is a trampoline. They've had it for years, ever since I was a kid. At the moment I've been really enjoying it. In the past we used to do fun things on it like play this flashlight game where me, both my cousins (the other is an older guy xSTP) and my brother would bounce around a flashlight turned on, in the dark and we had to make sure we didn’t get hit or we were out. Or we'd take turns sitting in the middle and the others would try to bounce them really high lol. Good times.
But I've been using it for what I call my *Trampoline Sanctuary* especially perfect for any time I need a place to be alone. I love it most at night, in the dark because I love that atmosphere the most. I go out and take my music with me. See, when I got to PA, I found a bunch of radio stations that I thought had some good songs and programmed my radio to have them. Ah, the things I do for music...Anyway, its really great to get my energy out and I just find some good music to listen to and jump around to it, following my mood and emotions. It's a lot of fun and gives me a chance to think. Most of the songs are love songs, of course lol, so I think about that a lot but also anything that catches my mind. It's very peaceful for me to do.
Actually I think it's time for me to do it now. Off I go... |
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| Defying Gravity |
[Jun. 14th, 2004|04:10 pm] |
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The title of this journal is Defying Gravity. There is a reason for this.
I have always wanted to fly. It is a deep desire of mine that I have a craving to fulfill. Unfortunately gravity has always stood in my way. But this goes beyond my physical self being in the air or not. Gravity is more of what is holding me down. It is what keeps me grounded to this concrete world rather than letting me stay in my preferred world, up in the world of possibilities, of imagination, of things which are not describable. Not only that but there is a feeling of flying, a feeling that is very intense and mystical that I love to experience. I want to delve into this world and enjoy its wonders. So I must be everything I am to defy gravity and become a soul who can truly fly. |
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