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End of the Year Meme [Dec. 31st, 2014|08:10 pm]

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Here is my end of the year meme for 2014:

End of the Year Meme )

General Goals for the year:

1. Do well at St. John's College. Read a lot, make new friends.
2. Volunteer at educational nonprofit(s).
3. Improve at Parkour, lose fat, gain muscle.
4. Continue learning Spanish and start learning German (I'm a few lessons in on Duolingo).
5. Make vids for Festivids, VVC, pleasure.
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Beginning of the school year!...Kind of [Sep. 1st, 2014|04:17 pm]

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Even though I'm not in school right now, the beginning of September always feels like a new beginning to me. It seems like a good time to share my plans for the rest of the year and the time to come as I finally have some ideas of what I want to do.

First a catchup of the last three months. In May, I went to a fun Ingrid Michaelson concert with [ profile] beerbad and had a great time listening to some of my favorite songs. Mother's Day was pretty sad and I tried to avoid the media but eventually gave in and just scrolled through and watched some sad TV shows and cried some. One of the most fun things I did was go to Malibu State Park and go to this little pond (not sure what the right word is here) where they had cliff jumping rocks and I went to the highest one (about 30 feet) and jumped off of it. It was SO fun and I had been feeling kind of meh about the world and it gave me an adrenaline rush that made me feel happy and full of hope again. I just love feeling like I'm flying and being that high in the air, I really felt like I was in the air on the way down and it felt amazing. I also went to a fun Harry Potter roller skating event where there was a ton of people dressed up and they played Harry Potter songs and it was just really fun even though at the end the music was meh so I put on my headphones and listened to shippy songs for my favorite couples (mostly Kane/Toews). I went to a Memorial Day BBQ with other geeky/fannish type people and had fun playing Cards Against Humanity and talking various TV shows with people. I had a lot of fun going to see the Chicago Blackhawks play the Los Angeles Kings at the Staples Center in my first live hockey game and I was lucky enough to see it with [ profile] celli and get to see Toews score a goal right in front of me. [ profile] celli and I had a lot of fun talking hockey and various real life stuff after the game and it was fun getting a chance to get to know her better. I also went to see a screening of the Mindy Project season finale and got to see a cast Q&A and later got to meet Mindy Kaling for the fourth time - and she remembered who I was for the third time ever. It was pretty cool and she even took a selfie of her and me. I also went to my second cousin's bridal shower and got to catch up with that side of my family and got to see my grandma's sister as well which was nice and I'm looking forward to going to his wedding in November.

In June, I spent a lot of time finishing my Femslash Premiere and my Premieres vid for Vividcon which was a bit stressful but I was ultimately able to finish by the deadline. I was also following the NBA draft and super happy when my favorite player, Tyler Ennis was selected 18th in the draft and another Syracuse player, Jerami Grant went to the Philadelphia 76ers which has a Syracuse player, Michael Carter-Williams who just won Rookie of the Year and who I slash with his friend on the team, Nerlens Noel so I'm looking forward to OT3ing them together. I also started watching the World Cup, following it seriously for the first time ever and fell in love with the USA team, most of all the coach, Jurgen Klinsmann. Jurgen who was a big star in Europe who won the World Cup with Germany in 1990, coached the German team to a 3rd place finish in 2006 (in Germany) but who loves the USA and lives there with his family so he decided to coach the USA team in 2011 and is attempting to turn the team around so it can eventually win the World Cup with the men's team. I really love what he's trying to do and his personality and I have a lot of hope that he can help us win it all so I began to follow the US team and was in ecstasy after we beat Ghana and went to a USA bar for the Portugal game with [ profile] cenedrawood and was SO HAPPY when USA came back from a 0-1 deficit to be winning 2-1...only to lose in the last thirty seconds in one of the most heartbreaking sports moments ever for me. Thankfully we still had another game against Germany where Jurgen was coaching against his friend, Joachim Löm (who was his assistant coach when he coached Germany) and since I ship them together (thanks to [ profile] caesaria), it was an entertaining game for me if terrifying. We lost by one but were still able to make it out of the group stages where we played Belgium which I don't even want to talk about because I'm still super bitter and prefer to think about how Tim Howard made 15 saves and Julian Green scored a goal on his first touch even though he's only 19 years old and was another young player that people complained about being on the roster and yet was one of the many players to prove that Jurgen knew what he was doing cause he's an amazing coach <3 Anyways, I started out rooting for Brazil (because they were at home, it meant a lot to them and they spent so much money at least they could get SOMETHING out of it), Germany, England, Italy and I also added the Netherlands after I saw their first game against Spain and enjoyed watching Robben and van Persie play. Eventually Germany and Netherlands were my favorite teams as after watching a documentary about the 2006 German team and falling in love with Robben as a player I wish I could be like, I emotionally connected with them, plus it helped that both teams did super well.

In July, I was really into basketball as the NBA summer league started and all the new rookies, 2nd year players and undrafted players trying to get a spot on rosters were playing and I watched the 76ers team do well in Orlando with my guy, Jerami Grant. The major summer league was in Las Vegas though and I decided to go to Vegas, buy tickets for the games (they're cheap) and let out my basketball feelings while trying to meet some of my favorite Syracuse players since many of them were going to be there. I had an amazing time, getting autographs and talking to Tyler Ennis, Rakeem Christmas (current SU player), Jerami Grant, Michael Carter-Williams, Baye Moussa Keita and Brandon Triche (former SU players) as well as watching a ton of players play for their teams. Unfortunately my car had some issues so I stayed longer than I wanted to but I also had fun hanging out with n0apologies (twitter) who I had met at Wincon and we had a great time talking about our lives, Adam Lambert, Queer as Folk and other fannish topics. I was also there duing the World Cup final and went to a bar to watch Germany play Argentina where thankfully Germany won and I was SO HAPPY as Jogi Low and the team had come soooo close to winning in the last 8 years and always came up a little short so I was super happy for the team to finally win it all and I just had such a fun time celebrating, happy crying and joining in the celebrations at the German bar.

Finally I got back to LA and had fun going to [ profile] elipie's karaoke birthday party and then going to a Lady GaGa concert with her where we won free seat upgrades and got to hang in the VIP lounge with free drinks and hang out with hot half-naked boys while we could easily see Lady GaGa especially when she came over to the platform right above us. It was super fun getting to hear her sing some of her classic songs and she's an amazing performer so we had a fun time singing her songs and enjoying the performance. At the end of July, I went back home to Syracuse where I spent some time with my dad, caught up with my best friend and hung out with my cats at home. I also drove down to Pennsylvania to visit my cousin's family and spend some time with my aunt. My cousin is starting her own business so I spent a little bit of time at her shop and we also went with her family and my aunt to one of my favorite amusement parks where we used to go almost every year as a kid so it was very nostalgic to be back there again. Speaking of nostalgia, I also went to visit my childhood elementary school and was bummed to see they tore down the playground I had loved although they are building a new one, it's not the same. After that, I went to Vividcon which I'll talk about in a different post but the Wednesday after that, I had an amazing time going to Six Flags Magic Mountain with [ profile] elipie getting a chance to talk about Vividcon, new vidding ideas and other fannish stuff.

This summer I had planned on taking some courses related to college admission counseling but after a couple of days trying to take them, I realized my heart wasn't in them as I wasn't sure yet whether that's what I wanted to do as it might not be big enough for me career-wise. Thankfully I was able to get a full refund and another thing that affected my decision was a revelation I had thought of while reading books about colleges. I kept having regrets while reading on how I wish I had gotten a true college experience and had gone to a more intellectual school when I realized - I could still do that. There was a college I had first heard about in high school called St. John's College that covered in four years, many of the so called Great Books but without lectures, it's all discussion based or laboratory based as they cover science using classic experiments and original texts for everything. Two of the most interesting aspects is learning Ancient Greek and learning math from classic books like Euclid's Elements which I've always wanted to do to understand more of where the English language comes from and understand the basis of math which I've always though could be interesting in the right context. The college is pretty intense but that's exactly what I want, a place where people want to read and think about some of life's biggest questions by reading some of the most enduring books many of which I've always wanted to read and just needed some more structure and people to discuss them with. I feel like my intellectual development has been pretty stunted the last seven years and I know I need to take a big leap to become the person I've always wanted to be and this college is the perfect way to take my communication skills both written and oral to the next level. I am an ambitious person and I have big dreams of doing things to change the world but I need to build a strong foundation so that I can accomplish that so I think I need to take a risk to go to this college and become the person I want to be.

During the summer I started working on my application which consists of three essays talking about why I want to go to the college, a book that has influenced me and a significant experience that has left an impact on me and I'm working on finishing that up by the end of this month. The college has a January program that I'm looking to get accepted at where by going to school over the summer, I'll be all caught up with the freshman year program and will be a regular sophomore by the time next September comes around (but thankfully I will get a summer vacation right before the first potential Vividcon weekend). The college gives good financial aid so I'm not too worried about the money aspect, the bigger opportunity cost for me is the time but I think the education I'm getting will be worth it and I'll be doing part time jobs, volunteer work and internships during the school years and summer to help me figure out the best work for me to do after college and I always have a backup job as a programmer as well. One of the biggest negatives is the college is in Santa Fe and although the weather is not too much colder than LA (averaging 45-85 plus like 6 snow days blech), it'll still be a big adjustment leaving the city (and friends!) I love to be in a much smaller city with less things to do (although Albuquerque is only 45 minutes away and Denver/Phoenix are semi-close too). But I think it's worth it for this oppurtunity that I can't get anywhere else and I feel like I'll always regret it and wonder what if, if I decided not to do go. Plus I'll definitely be visiting LA during breaks, Escapade and during my free summers so I think I'll be able to survive. Another concern is the book list is not that diverse but I know there are book groups there that cover more classic books written by women, minorities and Eastern writers so I'll be sure to be reading them. Something I'm excited about is they have a lot of sports intramurals so I'll still be able to play soccer, tennis and there's lots of nature for hiking and even rock climbing. Most importantly, I'll finally get to have a true college experience and make lots of new friends as even though the college is small, people are very self-selected towards the kind of people I tend to get along with (minus your obligatory pretentious arrogant idiots) so I'm looking forward to that. It'll be a big life change for me but I think this is the best step I can make in working on becoming who I want to be and for my development to being able to help the world solve the major problems we're facing.

I originally was applying for this fall semester but I was having a hard time being ready for that so I decided to wait til January although I have a plan for what I will be doing in LA until then. A friend recommended to me a friend of hers who has a philosophy PHD and is willing to meet with me to go over classic texts that I want to start reading this fall so I can have some accountability and someone to discuss things with to prepare me for St. John's College. I'm planning on working on doing more reading (besides fanfic of course) this fall as I sample many books from nonfiction to fiction in many genres. I'm going to be focusing especially about reading books about California and LA as I want to work on solving problems in the state and want to become more knowledgeable about the issues surrounding the state. I also am going to be doing some volunteering with various organizations to learn more about LA and start figuring out what exactly I would enjoy doing for jobs. I also have a part time job I'll be working on to earn some extra money. Another big goal of mine for this fall is to start seriously trying to date while I still have time in LA which should hopefully give me more motivation to do it. I'm also continuing to work on improving my Spanish through Duolingo and translating Harry Potter and the Sorcerer's Stone from Spanish to English using my Kindle App Spanish to English dictionary. And I definitely want to spend more time with my friends in Los Angeles while I'm still here.

Another big focus for me this fall is heath and fitness as I'd like to lose about 15-20 pounds before the end of this year. I signed up for an accountability type service which has been good with keeping me on track with my eating and exercise goals. Something inspiring for me was watching Kacey Cantanzaro complete the city finals course for American Ninja Warrior, an obstacle course competition where participants can win 500k for winning the finals course in Las Vegas. That inspired me to look into parkour and rock climbing which are two training aspects that some of the best competitors do. I figured that even if I don't make it, it'd be a fun goal to try to train for the course as it looks really fun and it's something that anyone can accomplish even if they don't have a lot of training when they were younger (unlike most sports). Thankfully there is a parkour (more accurately, freerunning) gym in the LA area and I've already taken two beginner lessons there and had fun practicing in the opening gym sessions. So far it's pretty basic, working on vaulting over objects and precision jumping, jumping from one ledge to another but it's been really fun and a great workout and I look forward to being able to do the crazy workouts I see in the gym. I was super scared about doing a flip from the high ledge into the pit (filled with soft foam stuff) but finally managed to gather my courage and did as well as do some flips on the trampoline. I also attempted to run up the warped wall they have in the gym and tried to jump from one bar to another (not there yet). I've also been into soccer as I really enjoy team sports so I signed up for a three days a week soccer class at my local community college and although it's a bit intimidating as it's all guys except one other girl and many of them want to compete on the soccer team at the college, so far I've been having fun playing (minus getting blisters on my feet from my new cleats). I even scored a goal during a game! We've been mostly just playing games which was a bit disappointing as I hoped to practice some skills work as well but it's been fun and I've been learning a lot even if it's been pretty hot playing during the summer. I've also been keeping up with my strength training workouts since March and been continually adding more weight to my lifts. Food is always tough for me as I hate cooking and love delicious food but I've been making a lot of progress and have lost three pounds so far.

I can't wait for the new TV season! I've been watching some of the trailers for the new shows and have added a few shows that I'm going to check out this fall. While A to Z has a couple of annoying things about it, it also features the Mother from HIMYM and as soul destroying it is seeing her, the show looks really cute and right up my romantic loving alley with the whole matchmaking element. I'm also excited for How to Get Away With Murder as Viola Davis looks amazing in it, the premise sounds fun and deliciously messed up and I will always trust Shonda Rhimes to do crazy things. I'm also going to check out Utopia which fascinates me as I've always loved thinking about how to create the perfect society although the reality show format makes me keep my expectations down. I am also looking forward to checking out Survivor's Remorse which is about a BASKETBALL PLAYER (!!!) who becomes successful and must deal with everything that comes with it which sounds super fun for me to vicariously see that side of things and is produced by Lebron James (who I've come to not hate since he went back to Cleveland) so I'm very curious to check it out. I kind of wish I could watch The Flash because the lead actor is a guy I found SUPER hot on Glee (Sebastian!) but I've sworn off all superhero shows unless it features a female/PoC lead so I'll just be checking out Agent Carter. Mostly I'm going to be listening to friends and critics to see if there are any high quality shows I should check out. I'm really looking forward to The Mindy Project, Faking It and Scandal coming back especially the first two as they feature two of my favorite ships. I'm mostly planning on using the fall to continue to catch up with some well written shows I haven't watched yet including Deadwood which I MUST finish by the end of the year. On the movie side of things, this summer I LOVED Maleficent (Maleficent/Aurora all the way!), enjoyed X-Men: Days of Future Past and am looking forward to seeing The Hunger Games 3, The Hobbit 3 and Annie (love the trailer!). On the sports side of things, my new soccer team is Bayern Munich since they have my favorite player, Arjen Robben, lots of German players from the national team like Müller, Neuer and Götze and my fave USA guy, Julian Green (although he's on loan to Hamburg this year) so I already have an emotional investment in them and will be watching all their games. I'm casually following the English Premier League (mostly for my USA/Germany people) and some college football as well and will be checking out my usual NFL teams this fall (although I'm still super bitter there's no LA team) such as the Bills, 49ers, Giants, Chargers and Jets. We'll see timewise what happens as once NBA seasons starts in late October and Syracuse basketball in November, most of my attention will go to that because YAY BASKETBALL. Hockey will be back in October as well and I will check out some Chicago games sometimes.

Super excited for Festivids! I have about 6 possible nominations at the moment although I worry about qualification for a couple of them but I'm excited about them and the vid ideas I want to make already. Before I get my assignment though, I need to start working on my Escapade vid as that's going to require a time committment and I have another vid idea I want to make for next year that I need to get started on clipping right now to get it done in time for VVC. I have another vid that's almost done that I should hopefully post in the next week as well. I have a couple ideas that require me to stretch my skills that I'm really excited about even if it'll be a challenge, it should be fun to do. Other fun fandom-y things coming up is a bunch of NorCal (and elsewhere) fangirls are planning a Fandom Beach Vacation where we rent a beach house and just hang out all day and I'm so excited to hang out with my fandom friends in November :) I also need to plan out what to do for my birthday in October this year, I have an idea and need to check if it's realistic. I still can't believe I'm going to be that officially late 20s? Eek. But hopefully with all the plans I have in place, I'll be ready to enjoy this time in my life shortly!
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Yay October! And September update [Oct. 1st, 2013|11:46 am]

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Happy October everyone! As I posted on Twitter, I'm really excited about this month because it's my birthday month and I have some super fun stuff planned in store. This coming weekend, I'm going to see Gravity with a friend of mine after we do some hiking and on Sunday I'm going to see Maroon 5 (and Kelly Clarkson) in concert!! Soooo excited as I've fallen in love with Adam Levine after watching him being a hilarious, competitive, adorable dork on The Voice who can't stop flirting and being in love with Blake Shelton. HAVE I MENTIONED THEY ARE SUCH BOYFRIENDS??? Who say things like, "I would never cheat on you Blake?" THAT IS A THING THAT HAPPENED.

Ahem. I'm getting ahead of myself. The weekend after that or rather, pre-weekend on October 9th in the evening I'm driving to Las Vegas to go to Wincon! I'm going to be rooming with some awesome SF people and I'm looking forward to seeing [personal profile] nikibee again along with [personal profile] cee_m and many others! October 11 (friday) is my birthday and there will be fannish panels, hanging out with fannish people, a VIDSHOW (of which I have two vids, one premiering), Once More with Feeling and Rocky Horror Show screenings and hopefully a drunken birthday party full of fangirls. I'm sooooo excited! Plus I'm totally going to ride that roller coaster I saw last time. I am going to be going back early Sunday morning but that's because I have tickets to see the Blind Auditions (ie Adam/Blake FLIRTING NONSTOP) of The Voice with [personal profile] elipie! I can't wait!! Other fun things I'm planning on doing is getting a tattoo on my right ankle. It's my first tattoo as I've wanted one for a long time but could never justify the expense. It's going to be Nala from The Lion King like in my main icon. I figure I've been a fangirl of it for 21 years, I think it's a forever thing plus I've always felt my spirit animal, what I've been in another life, etc is a lioness so it's really important to me. The biggest thing for me is I'm going to go skydiving! It's always been in the top 3 things I want to do in my life since I love flying and want to feel like I am if only briefly. Will probably save it towards the end of the month.

A month ago I had an amazing time Labor Day Weekend getting to hang out with [personal profile] nikibee in the Bay Area. We watched Game of Thrones, Teen Wolf and Parks and Recreation and had a vidparty where we watched Vividcon vids with [personal profile] franzeska (who I had a great talk with!), Alice, Michelle, Dani and I think that's all? It was so much fun! We (Nicole, Alice and Michelle) also went to Oakland Pride and got to see En Vogue in concert and it was so great to get a chance to have some good talks with [personal profile] nikibee all weekend. I also went back to San Francisco near where I used to live and work and got to have lunch with someone from Dev Bootcamp which I also visited and got to talk to the founder who changed my life with letting me go to it. Unfortunately I left my favorite hoodie there and haven't been able to get it back :( I also visited the Berkeley campus which is SO BEAUTIFUL! Probably the prettiest one I've ever seen, it's like half nature reserve. Finally I went to a Haven party [personal profile] franzeska (who else? ;)) was throwing and got to say goodbye for a couple hours before I had to leave to catch my flight. Gotta say Southwest was awesome, they gave me a better seat when I complained I didn't know I had to check in for the return flight. It was a super fun weekend and I'm so glad I went!

Other than that, I've been working a lot. We had a big deadline a few weeks ago before our company presented a website at a conference. Some of the weeks I worked on interesting things and that was fun especially getting to pair with my mentor here but a couple weeks I didn't like what I was working on and kept getting distracted by the internetz at work which was less fun. We did go bowling last week as the conference went awesome and that was really fun! I've also been running more and I paid for a personal trainer so I can actually get a REAL strength training workout and that has helped a LOT with developing some muscles. I've always wanted to do chinups so that's my long term goal. I've been thinking about running a marathon next year as I need a big running goal to get me inspired to run more and I want to beat my last time (5.5 hours) and hopefully have a rain free experience. I've been eating a lot cleaner lately and did lose a little weight but got a little bored with it and regressed last week. No worries though, I varied my diet up and am doing better now. If there's anything I learned in the past it's not to give up and let little backslides trip you up.

The big news is I've decided to quit my job soon and go back to college to finally finish my degree. It's something I've always wanted to do and I've had enough of a taste of the real world working on something I kind of like but not love (even with the nice money benefits!) to want to go back to school and work on finding what I really want to do with my life. I'm going to continue study programming on my own and help code for the AO3 along with working on personal projects I'm hoping will lead to possible job opportunities or at least direction. I'm going to go back to community college for Spring 2014 and I'll be applying in the next two months to UCLA, CSULA and CSULB as a Philosophy major. Yes, Philosophy because I've loved the courses I've taken in it, I've always wanted to learn it and it requires a very low amount of credits so I can graduate fast as I'm aiming for May/June 2015. I'm also planning on volunteering at College Track during the time and maybe seeing if after I graduate I can get a job there or at a similar organization. Or maybe I'll do another programming job to save money/pay off debts, I don't know, we'll see.

Let's see...a couple weeks ago, [personal profile] elipie came over to watch vids, vid and talk with [personal profile] jetpack_monkey and I and it was a lot of fun! I've been trying to go to more meetups lately to meet new people and feel less lonely and so I went to a happy hour and met some cool people DTLA and also went to a hiking group last Saturday where I had some good talks with a couple people. The weekend before that I went hiking with my friend, Jen who has turned out to be one of my closest friends in LA even though she's a bit older than me. She used to be in a rock band but now is learning to program so we hang out a good amount to do that. But we hiked in Griffith Park and had a really long talk about life, fun things in our history and the future which was really great.

I've been missing my mom a lot lately. I didn't fully appreciate that when I felt lonely and couldn't reach any of my friends to talk, I could always call my mom and know she'd be there for me. It's just tough sometimes and earlier in the month I was feeling really lonely. I think of her every day whether in small moments or longer memories and it just hurts a lot. I just really wish she was back again :( Last Sunday was the three month anniversary of her death and it feels so far away and yet so close like I can vividly remember getting the call that she had died. I called my dad the other day and it was good to talk to him and hear he's doing well especially after my brother freaked me out saying he couldn't get a hold of him. I'm still terrified he's going to die, I just heard that statistically spouses are more likely to die after one of them dies so even with my dad's health issues, it's even scarier. I'm really looking forward to going back to see him for the holidays and my cousin and aunt as well, both who've been there for me a lot. I went to a meetup last Saturday with a group that's about women who've lost their mothers and it was really helpful talking to other people like me there. Someone said that the worst part is even if you have other people who help fill the hole your mother left, it's not the same as having MY mother there, she's mine and no one is mine in that way. And that's totally how I feel. It was helpful though and we got to smash plates and mugs to help let out the anger :)

On a happier note, I'm so happy fall TV season in back! I'm watching sooo many shows right now, omg. Monday I have How I Met Your Mother (ahhh THE MOTHER, brb happy crying), The Voice (Adam/Blake are SUCH BOYFRIENDS who flirt constantly, yay Christina and CeeLo being back and I love so many of the contestants already), The Blacklist (reminds me of Alias with Sydney and Jack (and Irina)) and I'm watching Mom purely out of love for Allison Janney who is a goddess. Tuesday I'm giving Agents of Shield a couple more episodes before I give up as I didn't like the characters (minus Coulson) and the plot, Brooklyn 9-9 (I really like it! it's funny and GREAT characters), New Girl (close to letting this one go again), The Minday Project (still sadly only love Mindy) and The Voice again (Blake is not doing an all country team again yay!!). Wednesday is Modern Family (yay gay marriage!) and I'm going to give Super Fun Night a try. Thursday is The Big Bang Theory (still sometimes funny, I love Sheldon but my god the gender issues), OUAT in Wonderland (going to give it a try), Glee (KURT/BLAINE DYING FROM LOVE AND SQUEEEE) and Parks and Recreation (still perfect and still LESLIE IS THE BEST). Sunday is Downton Abbey (I need to catch up actually), Once Upon a Time (MORE SWAN QUEEN, less boys pleeease) and Homeland (didn't really like 301 although I LOVE Carrie still). Lucky 7 is getting cancelled soon but I enjoyed the premise and focus on working class families so I'll continue watching. I didn't like Sleepy Hollow at all so I cut that. Any other good shiows I should watch? I'm currently catching up on Scandal (OLIVIA IS SO AWESOME and I love the addicting plots), Spartacus (deserves its own post but AWESOME!!!) and Twin Peaks (so pretty and I enjoy the plot).

On a happy/sad note, Breaking Bad is over :( But it went out on top! I was lucky enough to get tickets to the Hollywood Cemetery to see the Breaking Bad series finale live with the cast and creators of the show. I went early to get good seats and spent the day reading books (including Clash of Kings! still working on my reread) with blankets and my pillow until [personal profile] elipie showed up and we got to go in. We got good seats near the center but further back because there was a big VIP section for all the industry people who showed up. I went to checkout the RV where Walt and Jesse cooked their first meth and people were getting pictures with it and then AARON PAUL showed up and I quickly got in line but then he left but right near me so I was like 6 ft away from me. I got a picture in the RV though and it was so cool! We saw the Pilot of Breaking Bad (introduced by Aaron Paul being amazing) and then saw the Finale which was AWESOME!!! I'm so happy and fully satisfied with it. Sooo much better than The Sopranos and many other shows that can't stick the ending. I'm looking forward to doing a rewatch of the whole show and hopefully making some vids to it because it still needs ALL THE VIDS!! I read Sepinwall's review like my usual tradition (he helped me get into the show) but not reading any more because I'm sick of the negative stuff. I really loved seeing the cast Q&A after the finale, it was great to see it in person.

I've been working on a Game of Thrones vid that I'm really excited about so I'm looking forward to posting that sometime this month. I need to clear these vids off my plate because Festivids is starting!! I nominated some things and I have some requests but mainly I'm excited about making vids for people because I'll have more time than last year without the OUAT exchange. I already have 7 vids I want to make and I'm really excited to get my assignment and start. Last year was amazing and I'm hoping to have a wonderful experience this year as well.

Oh and I'm going to Europe next month! I can barely think about it, it makes me too excited and happy. Some background: I've been dying to go to Europe since like 2005? Since college started definitely especially London and Paris. It's something I want to do before I die and I've had to cancel every plan I've had to do it because of money but now that's no longer an issue! So Thanksgiving week I'm going to go to London, Paris, Munich (to visit [profile] infiniterain!!!) and Belgium (to visit [personal profile] indybaggins!) and I'm sooo excited to see some of the touristy stuff I've never seen in person. If you're in the area, let me know as I'd love to hang out! It's going to be an epic adventure I'm sure.

Wow that was long. This is what happens when I don't post for a month. I love that people are posting more to DW/LJ and am going to try to do the same, weekly is a good goal for me. I'm gonna see Laura Veirs with [personal profile] beerbad tonight which I'm excited about! A great start to my October :)
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I came to win, to survive, to prosper, to rise, to fly [Apr. 2nd, 2012|03:54 pm]

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So I'm back in Los Angeles. SO HAPPY!!! There's something about this city that makes me feel alive, energized, inspired, whole and fulfilled. The beautiful, wonderful weather helps a lot too. Sunny and 70s!!! It makes me want to dance on the streets of LA or drive with my windows down and sing as loud as I can (I may have done one or both of those things). It's just really good to be back. I took the PCH down from San Francisco even though it took longer and it was SO worth it. It was so beautiful to see the hills, forest, mountains, countryside, cliffs and best of all, the ocean. Wow, it looked even more beautiful than I remembered especially around the Big Sur area. Also got a chance to check out Santa Cruz and Monterey although it sadly got dark before Santa Barbara. It was really nice to get to see the coast again, I haven't done it since 2007 (with a great WL roadtrip!). The night before I also had fun as I went to a gay club in the Castro as it didn't feel like a real San Francisco trip without that. I had too much to drink but someone who I thought was hot danced with me briefly so that was cool. Also I went to Yosemite a couple weeks ago and had fun climbing 5000 ft of mountains. My legs hurt like hell the next two days but it was so worth it and I got some awesome pictures. I did get lost a little in the dark one night but it turned out alright in the end so I can look back on it in a good light now. The falls were so pretty!

I was planning on going back to college but I've had some trouble getting into classes I need so I've decided to not do that and just try to get a web developer job instead. It may take me a few months so I'm going to look for something more temporary in the meantime. I'm really excited about it! The last month has been a lot of fun learning Rails and various parts of the stack and I'm excited about continuing to do it in a Los Angeles environment. Plus I can't wait to hang out with vidders in the area! It's sooo nice to be home.

On top of it, TV is back! I just finished reading Game of Thrones yesterday and although I tried to start the second book, I finally gave in and watched the S2 premiere. It's funny, when I read the 1st book I thought I would have enjoyed the first season more if I had read the books first but now I'm thinking it's better to NOT read the books. Reason being I'm a believer that TV/movies should VERY closely follow the books so little things like dialogue reeeally bother me when they change things or leave stuff out. Part of the problem is I'm reading the books way too close to when I see the TV show as then I remember and get annoyed at everything. For example, I enjoyed the last Harry Potter movie much more because I don't remember a lot of the little specifics of what happened and just enjoyed it for what it was. But anyways, I did love the GoT premiere. The books made me like all the characters a LOT more and now the only one I hate is Joffrey (omg I hope he dies soon). So that's awesome. Arya is still my most favorite ever and I can't wait to see more of her. Also enjoying Mad Men (PEGGY!) although I'm only half through the most recent episode. Sundays are SO awesome now! I do miss Parks & Rec :( Come baaaaaack. Thursdays suck now.

I also went to see the midnight showing of The Hunger Games and LOVED it. No movie could capture the magic of the first book but I loved that it did a great job staying true to the book (they did the smart thing and gave the author screenwriting duties). All of my worries about the casting were thrown away quickly as all the actors totally sold their characters. It was all really beautiful, fun to watch and great to watch with a group of people laughing, crying and making funny comments in all the right places. And I'm so happy it did amazing at the box offic, I KNEW it would. I'm hoping to see it again once I do a reread of the first book which I read in one sitting back in July. If you haven't read it yet, READ IT! It's so addicting and fun to read. Katniss is SO awesome although Cinna is my favorite.

I've been hard at work vidding...vids that are NOT my Club Vivid vid. OOPS. The good news is one of them is almost done and I'm out of the honeymoon phase so I can devote some more time to getting that done along with maybe some other vids I'm working on. It was so much fun to get addicted to vidding something without a deadline and just be into my ship SO MUCH and enjoy seeing them all the time while vidding. It's good to be more productive vidwise again. If anyone want a vid made to order, check out the Vividcon Auction vidders here, there's so many that I wish I had more money to buy!

I still can't believe I'm back here in LA after dreaming about it for two months. There's no place like home...
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A new start... [Aug. 29th, 2011|12:58 pm]

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So things have been up in the air for the last couple weeks but I finally know what I'm doing this fall. Unfortunately although I applied again to appeal the decision (with some great people helping me), Chapman once again rejected my appeal. So I'm not going back to Chapman University. At least I tried my hardest to get back in and now I see it as their loss. After much angsting and thinking it over, I finally found a backup plan that has its own benefits. I'm going to be attending Los Angeles City College this fall and then look to transfer to Cal State LA or Cal State Northridge for Spring (waiting on results now) or Fall of next year. I'm going to be taking some GE and business courses this semester (a speech and health class, computer science for MIS, managerial accounting and Business Law at the moment) and I'm really excited to have a fresh start and do well in them. I also want to start looking for internships-paid would be best but even unpaid would be helpful for experience. Basically I want to not repeat my previous mistakes and actually make the most of college.

The best part is the college is near Downtown LA which is my favorite place in the city so I'm going to get an apartment in the city and live there. I'm soooo excited. For those unaware, downtown LA (referred to as DTLA) is undergoing a revitalization at the moment and there are a lot of people moving there along with new businesses, restaurants, etc popping up everywhere. It's really exciting and there's a lot of activism and the like there to try to improve the community. I love the aura of DTLA, it's so exciting and invigorating and I can't wait to live there. I love being around tall buildings, lots of people, events and fun places to go to no matter where you go. I already found a really cool coffee/sweets shopa, cute lunch place with great food and a beautiful bookstore to hang out in. The best thing that's happening right now is Artwalk which I haven't gone to yet because of conflicts but I'm going to the one in September and I'm dying to go. Basically they close off the streets, tons of people come out to check out the art galleries/restaurants and there are specials and I've heard it's amazing. I really want to get involved in the local community to help create more of a community and help prevent poverty, homelessness and any other social problem around here. I'm really interested in learning more/experiencing more of the educational system (for a few startup type ideas I have) so I'm looking to get involved in tutoring and after school programs that help enrichment. I want to really experience what it's like living there so I can use that knowledge to think of ways to help.

Fandom wise it's been hard to keep up internet wise since I've been going to a lot of free internet places (I'm waiting on money to get my own place). I'm working on reviewing source for a upcoming vid I'm dyyyying to do so that's taking a lot of time right now. One other problem is the PC side of my computer isn't working which is causing another delay in getting my vid up. I hate dealing with this kind of stuff argh. Glad my Mac can bootcamp though, probably need to reinstall Windows. I've also been catching up with Breaking Bad which is AMAZING. I stopped watching S3 in a slow part and then of course it speeds up after that episode. The end of S3 just destroyed me completely and now I have no idea what's going to happen. Jesse is still my total favorite and keeps me from being too depressed about it. But Gus is pretty awesome too and reminds me of Stringer in some ways. I really can't wait for Fall TV to come back (GLEE) as well as Mad Men which I miss a LOT. It's not the same without it and it's usually on in August so I miss it a lot (especially when seeing Banana Republic's clothing displays at The Grove).

I am really looking forward to getting settled here and not being so all over the place. But hey, I'm in LA, I'm looking forward to my future and I feel good about the possibilities of life so I'll take it.
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Glee and Sadness [Dec. 2nd, 2009|09:51 pm]

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It's been a day full of ups and downs today. First the ups:

Spoilers for Glee 112 )

In other great Glee news, both Adam Lambert AND Idina Menzel would love to be on Glee!! So hopefully Ryan will be able to get them both on this season or next at the latest. Next week I will be savoring this last pre-hiatus episode sooo much it's not even funny.

On the not so great side, motivation for college is fading very very quickly. It is getting very difficult to fight my screw it, I don't care side. There have been small victories though and hopefully I'll be able to get some stuff done this weekend. Going to LA this Friday to shoot some photos for my final project, do a gallery report AND hang out with some fans so hopefully that'll go well. Another bad thing is my bike got two flat tires AGAIN after getting them replaced a month ago and I don't have the money to get them replaced. The good news though is that I got a job as an assistant here! Also made some money in an economic experiment here so that helps a lot and lets me buy a hard copy of Adam's CD and not just my free Amazon digital one :)

In sad Adam news, ABC canceled his free concert with Jimmy Kimmel. I am so sad and angry as I had a ticket to go to it. Ugh it pisses me off so much. I am so sick of this kind of crap. Add that to finding out the NY Senate voted down the Gay Marriage bill, I'm disgusted and disappointed by the discrimination in this country. I know we'll win the war in the end but goddamn it losing all the time is depressing. On the good side, Dave Valesky whose my representative who previously was on the fence voted yes! Good to know that maybe my communication with him might have had a tiny impact. So I will have to support him in his next campaign as he's up for re-election and they're sure to use it against him.

[personal profile] sdwolfpup being the awesome person she is started a Vidding Love Meme and my thread is here. It is so great to see all the vidder and vid love going on over there! I am already feeling more motivated to work on my [community profile] festivids vid this weekend :)

On a Fanfic Love note, I just want to thank ALL the writers out there who write fanfic for all of us in fandom. After reading amazing fanfic over at [profile] queenbitchfest, it reaffirmed my thankfulness of writers who create so many stories for everyone to enjoy. It reminds me that true romance exists in the world, that there are endless possibilities and so many different imaginary worlds to explore. I am in awe at the talent of the writers we have. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for bringing me and others so much joy, or dare I say it, glee.
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Music <3 [Nov. 27th, 2009|02:55 pm]

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Courtesy of [personal profile] falulatonks, I found a cool site, The Sixty One that's like a combination of and Pandora. Basically you listen to music, most of it from new artists and you can save or heart music you like (you only get a certain number of hearts per day). The stuff that the most people like gets featured so it's easier to find. It's a great way to discover new music. I've already found The Orange Peels who I love, they sound like Owl City with more rock. There's also fun quests that are kind of addicting to do in order to gain more hearts and reputation points. If you sign up, if you could say that Anoel referred you, that'd be great :)

I had a good Thanksgiving. Went to a nice restaurant here with some students who stayed over break and one of our Trustees paid for a meal for all of us so that was nice. Also watched some TV including a two parter Will and Grace Thanksgiving episode that gave up nicely in my queue since I'm watching the show right now. I'm on S4 and I love that for this show I love all the main characters equally. I probably love Karen the most though, she cracks me up so much especially when she does her "I feel so bad for you/I'll be nice... *laugh NOT* It is entertaining, funny and delightfully gay. I like it.

After the December 9th episode of Glee, it's not coming back til April 13th. FOUR FUCKING MONTHS!!! *sobs* I don't even know what I'm going to do. Rewatch my DVDs, vid and hang around in fandom a lot I suppose. I don't know what I'm going to do without my usual happiness bringer. Like this week's episode with so much amazing music and character love. Oh and I was thinking of my dream Adam Lambert guest star appearances and I have two. Either he's a rival school's glee club's director who leads a group of kids like him who dress glam rockery and sing great songs and are all edgy and fun. But then it'd be hard to get him to have solos with the kids. So then my second scenario would be to have him be the vocal coach that they invite in so he gets to sing songs and have interaction with Kurt, Rachel and everyone else. It would so be the best thing ever.
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Life, The Universe and Me [Nov. 21st, 2009|10:15 pm]

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Update about me, college, TV/fandom, Adam Lambert and my plans for next year )

Adam Lambert's CD, For Your Entertainment comes out Monday!! Everyone go buy it, for it is awesome. My favorite songs so far are Music Again (best.chorus.ever.) and Surefire Winners for it's great lyrics (I was born with glitter on my face/My baby clothes made of leather and lace/And all the girls in the club wanna know/Where did all their pretty boys go?...!!!) and I love the pure dancability of Fever (there HE goes, my baby walks so slow...HE!), Strut, If I Had You and For Your Entertainment. I also love Soaked (ORCHESTRA epicness!) and Sleepwalker is ridiculously beautiful. All the songs are just so amazing, I can't even say. He is definitely worth supporting. And he's performing his single for the first time at the AMA's tomorrow! I am so excited I can't even say. I'm sure the concert will be presented amazingly like him.

Speaking of Adam, I have a favor to ask. Please please please if you could click this Demand It link to get Adam, Kris and Allison to perform in NYC (I wanted LA but NYC is ahead so let's go with that-plus I may be closer anyways who knows) it would be awesome. It only takes a minute, I swear. You can put New York City or zip code, 10001 in the box. I need to see some Kradison live in concert!

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Too Much To Do [Sep. 15th, 2009|03:24 pm]

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College is really overwhelming me right now. I feel like the walls are closing in on me and there's not enough time to do anything or give anything the time it deserves. I had fun at the Outwest Bootcamp this weekend but because of that I lost almost my entire weekend so I'm massively behind on these two big projects for my design classes due TOMORROW. And I feel so out of my league because I haven't really done anything like either of them before and I'm afraid I'm screwing it all up. This is not even talking about the vidding and reading projects I'm putting on hold right now and I'm barely watching any TV just Mad Men and Glee (which I'm MASSIVELY and ridiculously in love with and it's completely made for me) and a few other shows (Entourage, Project Runway, Gossip Girl, Supernatural) which all deserve a lot more posting time than I can do right now. And stupid crap keeps bringing me down so I feel like I'm on this roller coasters of highs (good TV, good Adam/Kris fanfic, good conversation) and lows (deadlines, money shit + too much to buy, pressure, other stupid stuff)

Kill me now.

(On another note, it kills me seeing Adam in Syracuse when I'm not there. Stupid dates.)
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Go prompt! [Sep. 4th, 2009|05:39 pm]

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[profile] daybreak777 is holding a Itty-Bitty Viddy Ficcy Thon (with Icons too!) this weekend where people leave prompts for short ficlets/vidlets or whatever (any fandom!) and people create them this Labor Day weekend. Prompts close at 12 EST tonight so go leave some! I may be making a few vidlets if all goes well.

Had a bad morning yesterday but college is going pretty good so far! I am actually really enjoying doing homework for my classes (although that may be the beginning of the semester starting). Had two interviews today and those went pretty well although there's a lot of competition so who knows.

The exciting news is my mom might buy me a MacBook!!!!! I've been dyyyying to get one to have a new computer with mutable sound, a battery that works, a keyboard that works and the option to use Mac or Windows so I'm super excited about it. Even if she just wants to do it to get the free ipod Touch/printer ;) It's crazy to be getting so much of what I want all at once. I love it and after what I've been through, I say it's about time.
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Back Home [Sep. 1st, 2009|08:36 am]

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So I'm back at Chapman. I got in Sunday night at 10 pm Pacific time and was just glad to finally make it here. Sunday morning started good with the beeeeeeautiful Colorado mountains which I fell instantly in love with and Utah had some amazing ones as well. But I got sick of driving on them and driving in general so it just got bad after that with the exception of Las Vegas which I drove around in for 10 minutes and was taken by all the crazy grandiose stuff they have there. But yeah, first I almost run out of gas because I wasn't paying attention and then in California it got really congested and full of idiot cars swerving in and out and I just wanted to get home and it sucked a lot. It's a wonder how much Bale Out will describe your mood. But I was focused on getting back to Chapman that night and made it home and it was so beautiful seeing everything again for the first time driving. We Are The Champions was my mood music then.

Of course, then my ID card didn't work to get me into my room so I had to go through an hour process of trying to get it to work and then having to prop my door open to bring my essential stuff in. Not a good day. Thankfully yesterday was much better. I woke up and met the person who I'm sharing a bathroom with who is really cool, likes Dexter and we get along pretty well so it's nice to finally have a roommate whose a bit more like me. Definitely think I might have a fun so happy about that. I also got in off the waitlist of a class I reeeally wanted to take, Foundation Course in Design and was SO excited at the first project which is the collage type thing that I have a ton of ideas for. Good to be excited about a class and get a feeling that it fits me perfectly. Got my ID fixed and then had lunch in the new dining hall which is amaaaazing. It's huge with pretty lights and giant art murals and cute booths and I love it a lot. The new building where I live is generally awesome and I can't wait to try the rock climbing wall.

My other two classes were okay, History of Political Philosophy is where I'm excited about the content and there's not a ton of work and I like my Dancing in World Cultures professor a lot (funny and cool is a good combination) so at least some of the writing for that will be worth it. Then I was going to a floor dining together dinner thing but we took too many people on the elevator and got stuck on the second floor for 30 minutes. Not fun in a lot of heat, I can tell you that. Then I had my Introduction to Graphic Design class which was...intense. Really scared for it as it's all, this is the real world, everything has to be professional, lots of assignments, etc etc. I just really want to do well more than any class I've ever taken so it's a lot of pressure. Thankfully I could go back to my single room and get some alone time and enjoy some Adam who makes everything better.

Way behind on my Flist and still have to get stuff from storage and apply for jobs and a bunch of other housekeeping things but thankfully I only have one class today so I have lots of time. I'm a bit overwhelmed though, there's so much to do and so much to learn and I don't know how I'm going to do it all. It is really nice to be back in California, it makes me happy and I have a wonderful view from my floor where you can see the city.
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Road trip! Road Trip! [Aug. 26th, 2009|02:57 pm]

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Soooo...change in plans. Instead of flying on Friday to California, I am DRIVING there tomorrow in my car!!! OMFG. I'm going to see so many states I've never seen before which is exciting. I've never driven for such a long time and all by myself and holy crap, this is actually happening!

The plan is to drive through NY, Ohio (Cleveland), Indiana, Illinois (Chicago) and Iowa on Thursday, Nebraska (Omaha), Colorado (Denver) and Utah on Friday and the rest of Utah, Nevada (Las Vegas) and California (!!) on Saturday. Of course this is subject to change based on how long I can drive and whatever else happens but yeah, going to be a long ride. If anybody is along that route (highways 90, 80, 70, 15) and wants to meetup for lunch/dinner or whatever, let me know. Going to bring LOTS of podfic (recs welcome especially long ones!) and audiobooks so I should have plenty to listen to.

I am SO psyched to have a car in the fall! The amount of freedom I'll have, to go wherever I want and not have to worry about getting around is so amazing. I'm overwhelmed right now by that and the fact that school starts in less than a week! Gah. Really exciting though. Of course I'll be without internet most of the time so don't expect activity from me then.

Eeee road trip! *sings* See the USA in your Chevrolet...Too bad I don't have an Impala ;)
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Fandom Love (Mad Men, Project Runway, Adam/Kris) + College [Aug. 23rd, 2009|02:38 pm]

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Mad Men's back YAY! I got a download from the hotel and watched it Monday morning and have resisted getting too into it before I finished all my VVC writeups (okay I do have a couple more coming but those are not as much write asap). But here's my episode thoughts on the third season premiere!

Spoilers for Mad Men 301 )

I love this show. I love that it doesn't do what I expect, I love that it uses metaphors, I love the slowness, I love the prettyness, I love all the characters (or love to hate) and I love the history of it. And I'm so psyched that we're going to get more Sal this season! As I said at VVC, if this is the way fall TV is going to treat me, I'm going to be a very happy person this fall.

It is SO good to see the Mad Men fandom giving Sal some love. Makes me super happy :D
Links: Great Bryan Batt (Sal) interview
Old Hollywood Comparisons with Mad Men
Bryan Batt at Times Square

I am so jealous of the people who got to see Mad Men in Times Square. I love seeing Bryan Batt there and the communal viewing is so cool. I wish there was a lot more of that kind of opportunity in the world.

More Mad Men tonight OMGYAY!

And then Project Runway came back which I'm super excited about!

Spoilers for Project Runway 601 )

And then I've fallen more and more in love with Adam, Kris and Adam/Kris. Been reading some wonderful fanfic at night. My favorite so far is Apples Are Not The Only Fruit (Adam/Kris AU, NC-17) which makes me SO HAPPY. Like watching Save The Last Dance over and over again, bouncy squee kind of delight. It just perfectly captures fan squee and has a wonderful slow buildup and is basically perfect. They're just SO CUTE! It reminded me of Seduction of the Desert Prince and not just because of the fruit love. Also I loved The Fairytale Story of Adam and Kris (Picspam with captions) which is filled with hearts and flowers and sparkly unicorns!

I am just experiencing am overload of fannish squee right now with vidding/Vividcon, Mad Men, Project Runway, Adam/Kris and yes, The West Wing, I am still madly quite in love with my show. To add to that, now that Vividcon is over, it is beginning to hit me that I'm going back to college in a week OMG! Well, Friday actually. I'm the most excited I think I have ever been this year mostly because I am doing a major I'm really interested in learning about AND I have my own room (and soon car eeeeee). And I know I'm so very privileged for getting all this which is why I'm so over the moon in getting it. I just really *need* a place to myself even if it's only to be able to ask over friends and not have to apologize to a roommate for it or to be able to dance crazy and not fear a roommate walking in. Plus I'm super excited to be back in California and SoCal and with a car, I can actually explore it so much better! And this year I really want to focus on creative pursuits and getting marriage equality in CA and I'm super excited about doing both. I'm going to the OutWest Bootcamp at USC in September and I can't wait to learn more about running campaigns (in terms of overturning Prop 8).

I can just feel that this year is going to be amazing and I feel so much more in control of who I am and what I want to be. Getting my VVC reports done for once helped show I can get things accomplished even overwhelming, tempted to procrastinate ones. I know I can create the life I want and I'm excited to be on this journey and just, yay life! It is truly an awesome thing right now.
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NYC Writeup [Aug. 10th, 2009|01:03 am]

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The videos will have to come later as I'm too tired now to edit them all together but here's what happened when I went to NYC and saw Adam/Kris/David, Allison Janney and fans...

Details of my NYC trip )

And that was my trip. I'm just glad I didn't lose my backpack this time and nothing went disastrously wrong. It was amazing really. And it made me look forward to Vividcon so much more because there really isn't anything like hanging out with fans. It's just satisfying in a deep kind of way. Anyways, thanks to everyone who I hung out with for making my trip so much fun! I'm thinking of going back to NYC actually to see the ball drop. We'll see...I think I am going to have to get really into Allison Janney and Adam Lambert because they are too awesome to be ignored.

On another note, have I mentioned I'm getting a car in January? I'm soooooo excited!! It'll help me get around in LA and I'll actually be able to go out and night and do stuff and not have to worry about sucky public transportation. The freedom!! I really can't wait. I will need to buy a TV for my dorm and I'll have to spend some money on that because I love big tvs and don't think I can settle for a small one. Can't believe I'm going back to college in less than three weeks. I miss California a lot though so that'll be good.

I can't believe in one week I'll be watching Mad Men. At Vividcon!
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From LA to NY [Jun. 3rd, 2009|08:12 pm]

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So back in Syracuse again. Ehh. The worst is seeing events in LA and not being able to go to them like the Paley event with Hugh Laurie. At least it's not the whole cast/crew I guess. I keep reminding myself that this should be the last summer I have to do this. The good thing is I get to see my kitties again :)

I went to LA the night before I left and had an AMAZING time. First I went to The Kills concert, didn't have a ticket since I just learned about it but I hoped to score one and did. It was easy actually, didn't even have to ask. But it was my first real concert and I had a blast. I did have to stand through two hours of other bands and wait for awhile for them to appear but when they did it was one of the best experiences of my life. Cause let me tell you, The Kills in concert are AWESOME. They played a whole bunch of my favorite songs like URA Fever, Sour Cherry, Cheap and Cheerful, Alphabet Pony, Black Balloon (someone actually had a black baloon!), Fried My Little Brains and No Wow among others. I wished they had played Cat Claw and What NY Used to Be but was happy with what I got especially Sour Cherry. I just loved the energy of being with all the other fans and singing along and most of all getting to see the artists perform. They are just so amazing in terms of charisma and sexiness and really getting into the music. And they'd get close to us, I was in the fourth row or so and a few times it looked like he was looking at me even if he wasn't. It's so indescribable. And after they left, we made a lot of noise and they came out again and played Hook and Line and another song with the other band, The Horror. Towards the end they fell on the floor and got all tangled up in each other, it was funny. I can definitely get now why people go to concerts, I must go to more.

Then I biked to Factory Nightclub in West Hollywood which wasn't too far. I liked it a lot, very big, had big screens like Club Vivid with pretty lights and confetti and many pretty boys :) It started out perfect too as I was high from the concert and went up to the bar and started talking with Jonathan who was super nice to me and we talked about a couple things before he hugged me and left. Then I gulped down a drink and went out to dance and just was transported to a place where I could dance my heart out and not care what anyone thought. They played a Lady Gaga song (not Just Dance breaking my clubbing record at four but I came in late so I'm sure I missed it) and best of all, Girlfriend so I could yell out the words pretending it was the House vid up on the screen. They also played Circus which was SO much fun not only because I imagined it being the Star Trek vid but because I accidentally hit this guy (not the good part) and then he came over to dance with me and it was so much fun. I danced to they chased us out and I'm sure part of the free part was the alcohol but it just felt like one of the best experiences of my life. Mmmm.

Of course the crappy part came after that when I had some trouble getting home since the freaking subways close in LA at night...don't even get me started. I decided to bike down to try to catch the bus I needed to took longer than I thought. It was nice to see some of LA though and I managed to catch the Downtown Disney bus so it all worked out in the end. Managed to get a few hours of sleep before I had to get up to pack and take my stuff to storage. Barely managed that in time but I got home alright so it all turned out okay.

I got my job back as soon as I came home so at least I'll have some money. Been working this week in the morning and then going home and napping in the afternoon. Last Tuesday I went to Buffalo to visit my grandma since she had a seizure earlier in month and wasn't doing so well although she was home with people taking care of her. She can't really talk except for a few hard to understand words (think Failure to Communicate) but can see and understand people talking. It's so sad to see her that way :( Makes me appreciate my life and health more at least. Finally got internet there last Sunday (see West Wing post). Also spent some time with my cousin (first removed) and she was really nice. Turns out we both watch Ugly Betty and like Harry Potter so that was fun to talk about. Also in other family news, my favorite cousin is pregnant and due in August so that'll be the first baby of the family I know. I don't know what to think, we'll be cousins first removed but I like my cousin much more than my brother so I care more about this kid than any other ones. We'll see what happens.

In good Chapman news, my new major got approved! And I did really well with grades, much better than I thought :) Got two A's, an A- and a B+ so I'm really happy with that since two of my professors must have been very kind to me. A bit worried about money for next year but hopefully that should work out alright. Next year I'm taking Introduction to Graphic Design, Computer Science II, History of Political Philosophy, Foundation Course in Photography and Dance in World Cultures (GE). I'm looking forward to it although bummed I can't take History of Television (same time as major class, too many credits unless I wanted to overload myself).

Trying to work on my Premiere vid and not freak out about time and getting it done. The Vividcon schedule came out and once again I'm forced to make tough decisions between panels and vidshows. Probably going to do all panels except my own of course (I'll need to find someone to take detailed notes on Vid Watching 101-price I pay) but it's so frustrating to have to choose between Also Premiering and Understanding Audience *sigh* Ah well, better to have too much to do than the opposite. Had another vid idea for The Wire which I do like but it's so frustrating that I keep getting ideas that aren't what I want: interesting exploration of the people and ideas expressed in the show.

Reeeally hoping Federer will win the French Open this year! Nadal left it open for him so I'm calling it as fate for him to beat Pete's record by winning the only grand slam that Sampras never won. God, how I love them. Hope he doesn't let me down!
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Let the old week end and the new one begin [May. 4th, 2009|04:21 pm]

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So glad this week is over. It was deadline hell week over here with a big hw assignment due on Tuesday and a test the same day. And then I worked most of the next three days on my Club Vivid vid, freaked out about it being a little late and then learned I had extra time til Sunday (had a self-imposed LJ sabbatical to work). THEN I of course forgot to turn in an assignment that's going to have BIG grade ramifications *sigh* You know those times when you can't stop laughing because everything keeps going wrong, kicking you when you're down and there's nothing else you can do but laugh? (and then you weep) Have done that twice this weekend. This is my life. Yesterday I took a break and watched TV and relaxed because deadlines are of the evil for a chronic perfectionist procrastinator like myself. On the good side, done with the vid which I like very much (was in sucktitis for awhile there) and VERY excited to do my Premiere vid. It's a good reminder that vidding with my heart greatly increases my motivation levels.

I'm on Dreamwidth! My account is here (does anyone know how to get the little DW user symbol?). As mentioned previously, I'll be crossposting and leaving comments open on both sites. I'll be moving to DW once I add everyone on DW (it's coming along slowly) and customize my journal so I like the way it looks. I'll be making a filter on LJ for non-crossposting people so I don't have to read things twice and since I don't want to defriend people. I'm just excited open beta is finally here and it's actually happening. Paid accounts are only $3 for a month and there are plenty of free invite codes flying around (check my friendsfriends if you need one). And bonus: no advertising whatsover. Including anti-gay marriage ones that were found on LJ the other day, joy joy. My prediction is most of fandom will migrate in 1-2 years but who knows.

Have I mentioned I lost my old hard drive? Yeah, it was going to cost 650 to fix WITH the discount (originally 200 more) and no way can I afford that. So I lost my vid collection and lots of important documents and clipping for a vid. Ugh. As I'm rebuilding, I have to ask: can people make zipped documents of ALL their vids? Because it'd be so much easier to just extract that and not have to redownload every single link. I'm just saying, it'd be nice for the lazy among us. I will of course do the same.

I still have lots of stuff to catch up on and it's kind of overwhelming. On the good side, my roommate's been gone all weekend and next year I'm getting a single!! I am SO EXCITED because I really need my own room. I like my privacy. Plus it's in the Film/TV living learning community so I'm happy about that and hope to meet some cool people. Although as I have been reminded this semester, I really suck at making good friends. It's just so hard to figure out if people really want to hang out with you or how to ask them (like Fraser in Burning Down the House!!) and whether you can trust telling them the more intimate parts of your lives and how. Blah the internetz are so much easier.

I have the last Pushing Daisies episode in my posession but I haven't watched it yet. I don't want this show to be over :( God, what a tragedy. DAMN YOU ABC. I've been so cynical about ratings and shows being saved (Chuck, TSCC, Dollhouse) because it's just all about the money as shown by ratings and it's so depressing. I want to help change it but I don't know if I can either ability wise or in terms of ideal career wise. We'll see I guess. In good news: there's going to be a special preview of Glee at Paley next week!! I am soooo going, I've been dying to see this show. And I'm hoping and praying that Victor Garber will show up...I'd die of happiness. At least I'll finally get to use my membership since the last two times I've been foiled with car troubles and vacation trip.

I've been catching up on Desperate Housewives since Marc Cherry's coming to my school this Tuesday. SO excited! He's supposed to give great presentations. But I'm totally loving this show and I can't remember why I quit it. It has exactly the kind of funny that I love, the deliciously evil kind and omg that is so horrible, I can't believe she just said that (I love her). I love all the characters (well Susan's a bit boring) but Bree, Gabby and Lynette are made of awesome and deliver the best smackdowns. It's so much fun to watch. I'm in mid-S3 right now, hoping to be done with it by tomorrow night.

Are episode titles/writers spoilers? If so: Future House episode title and writer spoilers ONLY (nothing about the episode) )

Oh god, guys I am so in love with House/Wilson I can't even. Like last night I was all GIDDY watching vids of them and listening to vidinspiring music and omgtheyaresoinlove. Everything I say seems so inadequate to describe them and my love for them. THEIR LOVE IS SO DEEP AND UNSAID! It's House Day yay! And one more week til the finale. All is well in my world.
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Catchup [Apr. 22nd, 2009|01:42 pm]

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[Current Mood |stressed]

Miraculously I am caught up on my Flist. Remind me to never do that again. Thank god for being able to read all entries on a certain date. Also mostly caught up with TV, did some of that in Florida which was great. House was very happymaking and it was so good to watch it with [ profile] indybaggins and squee over the House/Wilson stuff together. I could never break up with that show <3

Anyways, I had a fun, wonderful vacation in Daytona Beach, Orlando and Miami with all my friends, old and new. I finally went to Disneyworld which I've wanted to do since I was a kid. Back in the day, everyone at school would always go for vacation and I never did and always wanted to. My best friend went instead of going to my birthday party which always made me sad so now I finally got to experience it. I visited all four parks, went on most of the rides and got to meet Timon and Rafiki (lots of Lion King love there) so I was happy. Favorites were the Aerosmith roller coaster (LA!), Soarin' (CA!) and the Everest mountain roller coaster. Also had fun at the Daytona Water Lagoon and Daytona Cubs game as well as seeing the pretty, pretty Miami beach and South Beach. I made it home alright to CA thankfully with a small travel curse mishap at the end but it was okay in the end thankfully. I took lots of video with my shiny new Flip Mino video camcorder that I'll share later in the week.

It is nice being back in CA and not having to go back to cold weather (in fact it was really hot). Unfortunately I am really overwhelmed with school right now and on top of that I have a Club Vivid vid to make in nine days. I don't know how I'm going to do it. I'm feeling really frustrated because I'm having a hard time doing any college work and it feels like a repeat of my freshman year and I'm really, really worried I'm going to mess up again. It just feels so much easier right now to ignore it and hope it goes away even when I know that's a really bad idea. I'm behind on this one class and I try to read and focus on it and I get distracted and start not caring at all. It's so hard to get out of vacation mode. I have this one assignment due late tonight and I hope to god I can figure out since it's really hard. I do have lab today so I can ask my professor for help.

We had this TV class night where graduates from my school with jobs in the industry came back to talk about it which I was hoping would inspire me and it did a little early but at the same time scares me if I can even hope to find a place for me in there. I still find it so frustrating not knowing what I want to do for a career. I just want to do something I enjoy but it feels like nothing I enjoy doing can be done for work. I just wish I could stop constantly career angsting but at the same time I really wish I had the motivation to know THIS is what I want to do.

I'm definitely moving to Dreamwidth on April 30th although I'll still be crossposting to LJ and have comments open. I'm probably getting a permanent account if I can get the money. I'm just so glad there's finally a journal service that has improved features, listens to its users and won't pull the crap that LJ did with Strikethrough and similar as I trust its founders.

Thanks so much for all the comments about my grandmother, I really appreciate it. Unfortunately it doesn't look good as she has an agressive brain tumor with a very low survival rate/remission. I can't really believe this is happening, I usually can't deal with this kind of stuff unless I can see/hear it. I just hope for the best right now.

On a Vividcon note, I'm doing my first vidshow this year! It's called Motion Roller Coaster and here's the description:

Showcasing vids that feature a strong emphasis on motion, from external to internal, from found within the source to created, and for thematic, musical, emotional, and just plain shiny reasons. Get ready for a ride in every direction!

Please suggest any vids with a lots and lots of motion here or just fill out this poll and I'll check them out.

[Poll #1388224]
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That's me in the icon right there. Moodwise that is. [Feb. 18th, 2009|11:26 pm]

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[Current Music |"It Had to Be You" by Motion City Soundtrack]
[Current Mood |high]

Fangirl highs are the BEST. I am currently in one because of House spoilers for the next episode ). I have this vid idea that needs as many sparks as it can so this is wonderful. I am trying to contain myself but it's hard and this is after I ran around the block. Basically in my head it is a wonderful party of screams and squees and OMGs and super happiness. Ahhh this is why I ship my heart out.

In other fannish news, I have completely fallen for Andy/Oscar from The Office. And you know, I've been wanting a good slash ship on this show for awhile now and although I love Michael/Dwight and Jim/Dwight and Michael/Ryan and the general slashiness on the show, nothing really stood out to me. And I've always liked the Andy/Oscar stuff since Business Trip but it just took that hint of canonness in the episode before last week to make me full out shippiness. I'm surprised it took me so long as they have exactly the dynamic I love with the whole see through the hard exterior to the jelly inside as Andy says so perfectly. I'm such a sucker for that. But now I'm watching their scenes together and dying for more scenes together. I swear this is like right after I got into Michael/Jan and then had to wait a month before they had a scene together. It's SO frustrating for my shippy brain.

Some thoughts on Dollhouse: Not really spoilers but just in case )

College is going pretty well so far. Still trying to get a balanced schedule but I'm procrastinating somewhat less and reading more so that's good. I'm taking Computer Science 1, Visual Programming, Introduction to Financial Accounting and Primetime: The Game of Television. The last one, of course, is my favorite. It's like a TV industry RPG where there are producers who pitch shows to the networks who sell the shows to the networks and then everyone votes for what shows they watch. It's really fun! Unfortunately I'm stuck being a producer since there was some miscommunication in my network group and we didn't turn something in. It's hard for me as I don't gave a lot of workable TV show ideas (suggest some if you want!) but I'm working with my old group so that helps. I actually sold one of my ideas! It was all about using social media and stuff like that to stay in touch over long distances. Thank god for other teammates helping out with fleshing out plot and characters. The other classes are going well too, I like them all but there's not much to say about them. It's kind of lonely at times as it seems everyone else has a lot of friends and I'm just trying to meet people I have a connection with but I'm hoping I'll find a few as I get more involved with clubs and stuff. Although with my crappy luck, two clubs meet the same evening I have class for 4 hours. Arghhh.

I took the Census test because I really need a job and it pays double anything I've ever been paid. Plus it's proving hard to find a job on campus. And I reeeally want to go to Paley, hopefully to see Dr. Horrible and meet Nathan and if I get lucky, see the Battlestar event. Sadly the Pushing Daisies one is when I'll be off on Spring Break but I'm sure they'll show the episodes on the DVD or at another time at least. Can't wait for The Office tomorrow! And John Hamm on 30 Rock is soooo hot. I am all swoony throughout that show now.
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California [Feb. 1st, 2009|09:17 am]

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I am now in California. It is GLORIOUS. I'm all settled in my new room. The good news is apparently my roommate is never around so I'm going to have the bedroom mostly to myself \o/ Just what I wanted. Know what I'm wearing right now? Pants and a t-shirt...and I'm HOT. It is amazing and wonderful. I had to take off my long sleeve t-shirt last night and it made me so happy. I walked around campus with only a light coat! I'm NOT shivering or all bundled up trapped in the whip of cold. These are beautiful pleasures I have missed so much.

The bad news is I missed my flight by five minutes due to a variety of factors (like say two baggage checks, bad snowy weather - gotta love that travel curse) so I didn't get to go to the California Museum of Photography after all :( At least I had my laptop and free wireless internet to keep me company. Number of times I almost started crying/cried during the flights over? Too many to count. It's just...I made it back to my favorite place in the world! I'm home and I love my city so, so much. I see palm trees out my window! Taking the shuttle back, I kept looking out the window in wonder. Nothing can ruin my glee at being here, nothing. By chance, I met the RA right when I got to the apartments and so I was checked in, no problem. The two roommates I've met have both seen nice too. I walked around Chapman today and it was just as beautiful as usual. They did add these beautiful colored lights at this fountain thing AND a new swimming pool which I can't wait to try out (brief pause to consider swimming outside in February). I really love it here.

Today I am heading out to Venice Beach as I miss it desperately and want to again walk around like I did my first time here. Full circle and all that. Plus I need to do some shopping for footwear (and a new cellphone, again). It'll just be great to see all the creativity and the beautiful beaches. I will have to miss most of the Superbowl but I'll be back in time to see the end of it and The Office (*SQUEE*) so I don't mind.

Brief BSG Spoilers for The Oath )
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Going Back Home to California [Jan. 31st, 2009|12:29 am]

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[Current Music |"California" by Rogue Wave]

So I got back from Inauguration last week which was a memorable experience. I plan to write up a report on Sunday but the short version is, I hung out at the MSNBC station and met Rachel Maddow who is super nice, hung out with a new friend all night first in line (fence really) of the non-ticketers with freezing feet (but everything else fine mostly), saw the inauguration in person which was amazing even far away and got kind of lost in the massive crowds. Made it home sick but after a day of rest felt better. Sorry I haven't been around or posted, just got in one of my withdraw-y moods.

The best news is I'm going back to Chapman tomorrow :D Everything seems to be working out and I have an apartment to go to. I really can't wait, there are no words for how much I've missed California and my college. I can't wait to be with the sun, the warmth, the palm trees, the pretty buildings, the industry, the ocean, the feelings of discovery and beauty and creativity and innovation and hope. Yes, that. I can't wait to start classes, I can't wait to meet people, I can't wait to experience and learn and have fun. I finally feel that this is where I'm meant to be and this is the way to do it. Honestly, it's scary. I really am going to stop procrastinating so much and try to stay more organized and on top of things and changing out of my comfort zone terrifies me. But my goals are so much bigger than that and I know I can achieve so much if I put my mind and body to it.

For all the students out there, I recommend Study Hacks, a blog about how to do well in school and life after it. He has a lot of great ideas about study techniques and life structure and prioritization that I'm finding really helpful. If anyone has any more tips for doing well, I'd love to hear them :)

I'm going to be going with [ profile] heyiya tomorrow to go see [ profile] lim's Us being shown at the California Museum of Photography. I'm really excited that it's being featured and can't wait to go! Perfect way to start out my time in California.
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The Plan (no, not that one) /SFU reference [Jan. 13th, 2009|07:53 pm]

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So I've developed a plan for my year to try to get some of my dreams and goals accomplished. I'm really excited about it and have been making daily to do lists in order to keep tabs on what I need to do. I'm using a small notebook to write down all my thoughts and ideas and so far it's proving very helpful.

My first thing is getting the money to go back to Chapman or my backup, Santa Monica College. Who knows how that'll turn out but I've been working on getting financial aid from both. Chapman starts classes on January 26th so hopefully I'll be leaving a few days before then and Santa Monica starts in mid-February but I'll be trying to leave as soon as possible to get out of the cold. I've decided to major in Computer Information Systems while taking some TV classes and doing a lot of TV research and experience on the side so I can get in the industry or some job related to TV after I graduate. I'd major in TV but the major at my school is focused on the creative side of things and as much as I love art, I'm just not an artist in the true sense of the word and don't want to waste my time struggling through scriptwriting classes (not to mention the application). I'm interested in getting some computer and business skills so this major totally works for me (low on essays helps too). So for the rest of my list:

1) Get all A's and B's in my classes. This is the most important thing and goes before everything else. I need to prioritize and not save things til the last minute which can be paralyzing if it's a big task. It's a huge boost to my confidence and self-esteem if I do this so I'm going to keep it at the top of my list. This blog is proving helpful with lots of good tips for any students out there.

2) Be at a healthy weight and stay healthy by playing a sport. I reeeeeeally can't wait to get back to California so I can play tennis outside along with many other sports. Running is alright but I don't like to exercise unless it's fun and sports are lots of fun for me.

3) Meet new people, find new friends and develop some good relationships. I really miss my friends at Chapman (and my cushy job) but I'd really like to branch out and meet more people like I wish I'd done more my freshman year. I especially want to meet some more TV lovers even if they don't go to my school.

4) Make every effort to have a romantic relationship. Cause I really, really want one and I have lots of romantic experiences I'd like to have. Doesn't hurt to try.

5) Finish at least three vids. I'd even limit it to two just as long as I finish my auction vid and a Vividcon one. I just need to get something done this year as my fannish output last year was quite pathetic.

6) Keep up with TV and finish at least The West Wing, The X-Files and The Sopranos.

7) Build, organize and listen to music collection including classic albums and top contemporary ones.

8) Read Wicked (finish), LotR, The Temeraire Series, The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy and Watchman.

9) Read Plato, Aristotle, other classics and nonfiction about TV and business.

10) Volunteer for LGBT rights/Obama.

11) Watch vids, keep up on feedback, stay caught up in fandom.

12) Learn Spanish because it's necessary when living in Los Angeles.

That's the plan. Now it's just a matter of going out and doing it.

On another note, once again my computer is having problems (of the unmountable boot volume variety) and I am ready to throw my computer off my desk, Lex style. Or Barney style as the case may be. So I may not be around as much until that gets fixed.
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Everyone deserves music [Dec. 18th, 2008|09:50 pm]

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[Current Music |"Love Invincible" by Michael Franti & Spearhead]
[Current Mood |tired]

So I think somehow I ended up in music fandom? In any case, it's my new fandom and I am overwhelmed. Probably not the best idea to get into it on finals week. But I think I aced or did good enough to get an A on all my finals so I'm happy there. Of course continuing with my bad luck when it comes to NYC (last time I lost my backpack including bus ticket back, a few clothes, a few DVDs and a few other things but the end was just a nightmare), tomorrow there's going to be a snowstorm so I'm going to have a hell of a time getting there. At least there will be Rachel (OMG) and Dr. Horrible making me feel better.

So late on this and I don't expect anyone to give me any of this stuff or anything but here's the Wishlist meme:

My Wishlist )

I got tagged with the Happiness Meme and so I'll start that:

1. Post about something that made you happy today even if it's a small thing.
2. Do this everyday for eight days without fail.
3. Tag eight of your friends to do the same.
Do it if you like!

Today music made me happy! This may be a repeating theme. What I Be by Michael Franti & Spearhead in particular is a great pre-finals song. Love all the imagery. Also The Kills stuff is great and being able to recognize artists in people's music lists is fun. And just the feeling of being DONE with a final and knowing I did a good job and being able to run down the steps exhilarated at that. I want to chase that feeling /Toby. Oooh yes! Pretty, pretty Alec finally showing up on Dark Angel. Sooooo hot. Hotter than Dean even in only shallow terms. Very yummy. And rewatching Arrested Development still makes me laugh. S3 gets a lot of flack but even the British episodes are brilliant and hilarious if going too far (reminds me of S5 of The Wire that way).

I am lucky I got into music at the end of the year with all the best of year lists that help me get caught up on recent music. I deleted my entire iTunes library and am adding albums one by one and rating them all. It can be hard but in general 5's are my absolute favorites I can listen to over and over and not get tired of them, 4's are songs that are special and make me want to listen to them again, 3s are good but just okay and I listen and move onto the next, two are not as good but I'll hear once in awhile and 1s I only want to hear very rarely. It's fun to do actually especially when I find good stuff.

Man tomorrow's going to be crazy. I really, really hope it goes okay *crosses fingers*
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A few things [Oct. 8th, 2008|11:16 am]

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[Current Music |"Good things get better" by Keaton Simons]

So my computer isn't working again. By this point I'm used to it. But it's really frustrating to fix as I can't find my XP disc to repair it. And I'm getting behind on a lot of my shows which is not good at all.

Now concerning college. Well I'n doing pretty well. Getting mostly A's, a 99 on the Logic test and actually studying and reading. But. It's all the last minute for the most part. I feel like I'm regressing back to my high school self of only doing things if they're due the next day which IS better than my college self of not doing things at all. I just need to get back into doing these ahead of time and having enough time to do them well. At least my love of learning and reading (when it comes to academics) is coming back.

Is it sad that I forgot to ask for my birthday off but remembered to ask for the next House episode off from work? Maybe a little but the latter is my TV present so it works for me (plus I managed to get it off anyway). Without my computer, I've been rewatching my House S2 DVD in the background and man, I love that season SO MUCH. It's the best. I forgot how much this show cracks me up and if you put all the hilarious moments together, it'd be almost as funny as The Office. And I love House/Stacy and their doomed relationship. And not to mention it is SO slashy. I cannot believe all the great House/Wilson moments there are. And there are some, like when the lyrics "We might kiss when we are alone" come over right when Wilson looks at House and GAH SO CANON. It amazes me. And I'm dyyyying for next week's episode and am going to buy the new TV Guide just for those pretty pictures (and great interview) of Hugh and RSL. I never buy magazines but I must for this one.

I was in the mood for fanfic last night and read some super hot House/Wilson fic so I must rec all of [ profile] recrudescence's fanfic. SO GOOD.

New community: [ profile] acnt_the_positv that tries to focus on the positive and brighten up people's days.
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Wilson is sad and so am I. [Sep. 30th, 2008|11:59 pm]

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I'm feeling so bummed tonight.

Ruminations about my life and college )

Didn't like House tonight. One guess why. Promo > Episode. The thing that disappoints me about House is it's never going to be the show I want it to be. I hate the episodic procedural plots sooooooo much and the ducklings are all boring and I don't like them besides Kutner who is very cute. If it was up to me, it'd just be the issues and craziness of House, Wilson and Cuddy's life with minimal medicine stuff when relevant. Also House and Wilson would be together and kissing a lot but hey. And as much as House is my favorite and I always enjoy his hilarity, Wilson is just pure love. I am kind of in love with his voice. And RSL was oh so cute in that interview with Lisa. Saw a little bit of Clueless and Safe the other day and OMG I love House/Wilson and miss them so much. Also saw Failure to Communicate tonight and awww I love House/Stacy too. They're totally doomed but it makes it easier to ship as I can just adore their cuteness and that beautiful hotel scene. I can't help loving the shared history type couples with that past you can never go back to but that connection remains so you can't help but be drawn together.

Back in July in Montreal, I had this wonderful dream where House and Wilson were sitting against a wall (ever notice that Wilson always sits to the right of House/left to our eyes?) and Wilson was all unsure of their relationship and vulnerable and such (post S4) and House leans over and kisses him to try to reassure him with the words he can't say. It was perfect. I blame it for making me desperate to see them kiss. But I was thinking whether it'd ever be possible for me to recreate that dream with vidding. Like in the future can we get actors to be in different positions when they kiss or however you'd do it. Sounds impossible but who knows? And then I had this dream recently with House kissing Wilson on the cheek and it was all so sweet.

I'm dropping Fringe which completely bores me and True Blood where I don't like the characters and relationships because I can't get myself to care to watch them. Maybe I'll catch up with reruns later. I am watching Greek which is enjoyable especially with the great gay storyline and Freaks and Geeks which is not my kind of humor (Judd and me don't mix) but I love Lindsey and James Franco and Jason Segall are incredibly hot, plus cute geeks so I'm enjoying it. In the last week, one person on my list was converted to The Wire and another to Firefly so I'm very happy there :) I kind of want to change my mood theme to an Irina one but it's been so long having this one that I'm not sure I want to change, I just miss seeing it on my Flist. I probably will change back but maybe I will when I have the time to mess with it.

Still have no money, probably won't get hard drive for another month. I have way too many wants for the amount of money I'm making which is one big reason for college then why am I having such problems motivating myself to do well in it? Argh. And I reaaaally miss LA. First it's getting cold here and I hate it more than words can say and then I miss out on Office writers, Arrested Development events and cons in general. Wish I could go to Dallas too so I could see Doris Egan do an informal commentary on House vs. God, still my favorite episode. On the bright side, I now possess the Pushing Daisies DVDs and they are so pretty. Pie-lette is just as perfect as I remembered. I am forever charmed by that show. On my list of favorite all-time shows, PD wins over fifth place which hopefully will continue into TOMORROW, yay!


[ profile] bop_radar's First Vidding Chat talking about vid planning. Feel free to share your thoughts! More background on it here and poll and more discussion here.

The Organization of Transformative Works has released the new fan wiki, Fanlore! Everyone is encouraged to write their own fan history and edit the history of the fandoms they're in.

New community, [ profile] queer_as_tv! Basically a community about GLBT representation on television. As I'll watch almost any show that features a gay storyline (case in point, Greek), it's perfect for me.

I love looking at TV ratings cause I love TV too much but if you're interested in how your shows are doing, check out TV By The Numbers. The best thing is the Renew/Cancel Index which predicts which shows will be cancelled or might be by looking at their 18-49 demographic ratings which need to be at 92% of the network's average to have a good chance at surviving. So far Til Death, Old Christine, Lipstick Jungle, Knight Rider, T:TSCC (why is this show not doing better numbers :(), Gary Unmarried, My Name is Earl, Privelled, Prison Break, The Unit, Cold Case and Ugly Betty (noooo) are in danger in order of severity. Thankfully The Office, House, Heroes, Grey's, HIMYM, Gossip Girl, Brothers & Sisters and Supernatural all seem pretty safe. I find it all so fascinating.
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[Sep. 21st, 2008|07:32 pm]

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On the Emmys: Yes, I'm watching. Yes, I still think they're total bullshit. Ignore The Wire on it's FINAL season? Stupid ignorant sluts. So, sure Mad Men will almost certainly win and it's an amazing show but it did not win FAIR. And it does not deserve to win over The Wire. So whathefuckever. I'm just watching to see all my favorite actors and writers and I'll probably be doing other stuff while it's on. It would be very, very nice if Steve would win but I won't be surprised to see him and The Office get robbed again.

On politics: Can someone PLEASE make the election be over? I thought the primaries were bad but this is worse. I hate McCain and Palin (oh god, the CRAZY) and all I want is Obama to win so I can have a little hope in this country and not want to kill myself watching Brothers and Sisters (TV: the only place I can't avoid politics) or actually getting a chance to watch The West Wing. I actually had to leave my History of Women class and plug my ears during half of it because they wouldn't shut up about politics. It fills me with so much rage that I've had to completely unplug from the election for my own sanity and peace of mind. I feel like this country is so going to hell no matter how much I want to believe that the future slowly gets better. The only thing helping me is remembering that no matter what happens, I'll still have the bastion of happiness of fandom not to mention TV, LA and most importantly, friends. This quote from QaF helps too: "So the "thumpa thumpa" continues. It always will. No matter what happens. No matter who's president. As our lady of Disco, the divine Miss Gloria Gaynor has always sung to us: We will survive."

Premiere week is upon us! Almost all my shows will be back during this week. I am still working on catching up on TV after marathoning Sex and the City but I am having a great time watching all the episodes I stored up. Also, found a new show! So this show called Lost in Austen looked fascinating so I gave it a try and loved it! Basically a girl who loves Jane Austen/Pride and Prejudice is transported to that world. Great concept and I adored the Pilot. The main character is very cute and I can't help but love a girl who escapes into books. She reminds me a lot of Gwyn physically but thankfully I like her lots better. Definitely recommend the show to everyone! I actually have never finished Pride and Prejudice, I've read 3/4ths of it twice (better than LotR, I've read the first few chapters like five times) so I'm hoping this will give me more motivation to finally get it finished. In my copious spare time, ha. I am so behind on everything.

On the school front, I like most of my classes so that's good. As expected my two Philosophy classes are my favorites. Sooo fascinating. Ancient Philosopy is incredibly interesting, I love thinking about all that kind of stuff and logic is just so useful and cool to understand. That one I can definitely see being useful with contructing arguments for vids and such. Also plus about my Ancient Philosophy class, the professor is REALLY hot. Like, Mohinder levels hot. Which is why I'm calling him Mohinder especially since the class is on Monday night and I have to speed home to have a chance at watching Heroes. So far they are going well but not too much work so far, thank god.

Loved House last week! I have more thoughts on it but for now, awwww House and Wilson. Make up and make out guys! This is my slogan for this season (really any season). And I even have a pretty House and Wilson kissing wallpaper that makes me happy everytime I look at it. Also, The Office premiering this Thursday! I'm so excited for my favoritest show to be back :D
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TV, Gossip Girl, College and NYC [Sep. 2nd, 2008|11:53 pm]

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I'm so happy the fall TV season is finally starting! With the premiere of Gossip Girls and Prison Break yesterday, it's finally begun. I can hardly believe it's September already. I'm still working on catching up with Prison Break so Gossip Girl is my first show of the night. In an effort to not procrastinate and wait to write things until they're perfect thereby never getting to writing them at all, I'm going to try to start posting my first reactions to all the TV I'm watching with some shows getting longer thoughts later or at first. So to begin it, my fun, pretty, melodramatic soap opera is back:

Spoilers for Gossip Girls 201 )

At the moment I'm most excited for House because House/Wilson OMG. Sant Doris Egan proved once again why she is our saint with this AMAZING interview. Mild spoilers for the season but worth it for me. I seriously could not be more excited about this season. Everytime I think, how can it get any more slashier, more canon? And then it does! I mean, look: "I feel like House and Wilson, they deserve mythology. They're larger-than-life characters. YES YES YES. ILU Doris. And when I read that I was like, House and Wilson, they're the stuff of legends. And THEN I remember that Doris wrote two great episodes of Smallville, Hourglass and Hug and in the latter, that's what Lex says to Clark. Clearly, she's awesome. Spoilers for this season from the article )

Funny enough, I just got into Dark Angel and I'm loving it. It's so cool that Doris was a writer on it! The show is definitely appealing to me with kickass Max and the whole character backstory and the world and I LOVE the plotline. Lots of intrigue, great action and suspense. I wish we could get rid of the loser dude but I love her friends. Not into the Logan/Max thing which feels like they're shoving down our throats which I hate but as friends, they're nice and Logan is very hot. Can't wait til Alec shows up though. I'm only on 105 but I can't wait to watch as much as I can! Wish I had the time to marathon it completely. I love that feeling though between this and Slings and Arrows (SO MUCH LOVE), it reminds me why I love TV. But I will say between Dark Angel, the sickening events in Minnesota and a bad experience with a police officer (no ticket though thank god), I'm feeling very anti-police. Way too much power and it freaks me out. On the new TV front, I'm starting to watch Bones and I enjoyed the pilot so at least there's that. Not sure if I'll ship Brennan/Booth but that one wall scene was HOT. I am easy with walls.

I went to the Great NY State Fair for the first time yesterday since I was a kid (which I don't remember) and it was fun! I rode the roller coaster there and the ferris wheel, tried to climb this rock climbing wall (it was HARD), saw a seal lion show which was super cute, petted and saw goats, ponies, llamas (VVC mascot love!), sheep, pigs, chickens and the cutest rabbits ever, saw some fireworks and walked around and saw everything. It was great to finally see everything. At the sea lion show there was the cutest moment when the trainer through a ring for them to catch too far and the other sea lion picked it up and put it on the other sea lion. Awww.

So tomorrow I start college again. I'm taking four classes at the local community college to make sure I'm ready for classes again before I go back to Chapman (plus it's cheaper). I'm really nervous and I know I need to do well after I crashed a nd burned a year ago during spring semester. I'm taking:

Monday, Wednesday and Friday: 9-10 Logic, 10-11 History of American Women (although I may change this if I can find something I like better)
Monday: 6-9 PM History of Ancient Philosophy
Thursday: 6-8:45 PM (can make it back home in time for The Office!) Intro to Microeconomics

I'm much more motivated to do the work and study for them after my time off in the last year so hopefully that will help. Mostly I'm just scared of failing though *worries* I just want to get back to trying to do well in school like I did back in say, seventh grade.

So on Sunday I'm going to NYC to go see the US Open final but I'm going to leave on Saturday so I can do some sightseeing and such (I miss the city!). Does anyone have any recommendations of things to do? I've already seen the Empire State building, Statue of Liberty, Chinatown, Little Italy, Rockerfeller Center, Times Square and probably some other famous attraction I'm forgetting but it was only one week so I probably missed out on a lot. Also, does anyone who lives in the NYC area want to hang out and either come with me or just watch TV/vids? I miss being with other fans! And if anyone has an extra bed or floor space that I could crash on Saturday night, I'd really appreciate it.

I totally forgot about The Office S4 DVD coming out today *facepalm* I've just had a lot on my mind and I didn't see any reminders about it so I totally forgot. Hopefully Target will still have the DVDs with the extra footage on them because I really, really want one.

Okay, time for some 90120! New TV YAY *happiness*
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Today is an awesome day. [Feb. 16th, 2007|04:21 pm]

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For so many reasons. First of all, happy birthday [ profile] heresluck! I hope you have an awesome day and a great year full of vidding and great food, music, books and tv shows. It was so wonderful to meet you at Vividcon and I am still constantly amazed (and entertained) by your vids. May there be many more to come!

I am still on a high from the last Office episode. I still can't believe this show gets better and better every single week. Not to mention making me love Michael more and more.

The Office: Business School )

Nice to see people loving Michael again. This show just makes me so happy. After I saw this episode, I went to this ice cream social on my floor because I was in such a good mood and believe so much more in *people*. I had a lot of fun too, I gave my Office DVDs to my RA to get her to watch the show and played Spoons with some people which was great. Nothing like an intense card game to make the day better. This month has been SO WONDERFUL because I love almost every day. I like my classes, my work, my friends and my show that always cheers up my day. Not to mention it was a beautiful 80 degrees today :D Life is wonderful. Especially with the weekend here. It makes me so happy knowing that in less than a week I'll be at Escapade! Watching a huge shipper squee episode of The Office and then Grey's Anatomy and Supernatural with fans :D I can't wait to be in a fannish environment again.

Also a HUGE reminder for everyone to sign up for Vividcon this Sunday, February 18th at 1 PM EST/10 AM PST. If you love vidding from watching vids to making vids to reading vid meta, this is the convention for you. I am still reeling from going to Vividcon last year for the first time where I had the time of my life. Seriously, it is that good. I know of nothing to compare to seeing your favorite vidders and vidfans, watching (new) vids on big screen, talking about vids all day long and being in a general fandom-loving, vid-loving environment. It was worth every penny of my money and more. I would definitely recommend staying for as long as you possibly can. If you feel jealous hearing about Vividcon, it probably means you should come. So set your alarms, get your friends to remind you, have a friend sign you up if you can't be at your computer at that time. Just make sure to register early as last year it sold out in about 5 hours and this year it'll probably be sooner. I really, really can't wait for Vividcon now. Is it August yet?

Also? [ profile] sisabet made a new Supernatural vid!!! Go download here It is freaking amazing and heartbreaking and GAH soo good.
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Thursday TV Roundup [Feb. 5th, 2007|07:46 pm]

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Happy Birthday [ profile] sisabet and [ profile] coffeeandink! It was great to meet both of you at Vividcon :) Also Happy Belated Birthdays to [ profile] yhlee, [ profile] almostcanon and [ profile] clayangel! Hope you all had great days.

Nothing makes me happier than walking outside into 80 degree, sunshine filled days. It puts a smile on my face whenever I do it, knowing that I'm living the dream when I would have been freezing only a year ago. Second semester has begun and my days are pretty packed from 8-5. The good news is I'm making a lot of money and taking two awesome classes I'm loving, Social Psychology and Cognitive Psychology. So interesting and the professors seem great so far.

I'm still obsessed with The Office and have now rewatched all the episodes twice. I'm planning a third rewatching as well. It's just SO GOOD and I am completely in love with all the characters (except Andy). The show makes me so happy with Michael always making me smile. I've been watching a bunch of vids for it and found two that were well edited and wonderful here: with Love Machine being fast paced and fun and Lovin' Each Day being super cute, funny Jim/Pam goodness. Since I've been in a comedy mood, I've been rewatching Arrested Development and I think although both shows are about equal in quality, The Office has been more successful because of its ability to fully love and relate to the characters as well as having a big ship that people can get behind. I tried 30 Rock but didn't find it that funny and I'm beginning Scrubs now which I have yet to form an opinion on yet. And I'm still continuing to watch Gilmore Girls and Due South, both which I still enjoy very much.

Thursday night is definitely the best night of the week with The Office, Supernatural and Grey's Anatomy.

The Office - Ben Franklin )

Supernatural: Playthings through Houses of the Holy )

Grey's Anatomy - Wishin and Hopin )

Is it Thursday yet?
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[Dec. 1st, 2006|11:37 pm]

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So I am having a very good week. Everything just seems to be coming together.

-The sun is shining and its warm outside. And its Decemember! Hee, it never gets old. It was actually really windy on Wednesday which I wouldn't mind if it wasn't freezing. Disappointing California, disappointing. But I'm not afraid to use my winter coat. Luckily it didn't come to snowpants. I suppose I should feel bad for the snow and cold that apparently other parts of the country are experiencing. *thinks about my 18 years of cold winters* Nope, I don't think so. *gloats*
-I finished my big essay! And it didn't suck. My perfectionist side is happy and I'm glad and relieved its done. Now I just have to get through the next two weeks of finals and papers but I think I can do it. And in one of my classes I can even make a vid for my final project :) And in another essay I can do poetry so it's looking up on the academic front.
-Christmas is coming! I love the cheerfulness of the holiday season. I can't wait to see my cats again not to mention my friends and parents. And get them to buy me things. I actually bought a cheap printer/copier/scanner and relented in finally getting a cell phone as presents for myself on Black Friday. And speaking of presents, [ profile] charmax made me some vidding icons that I love madly. Vidding icons, yay!
-Speaking of vidding, I can't wait to be able to vid! It's killing me to not have the time. My space is running out on my hard drive as I have *counts them* 4 fandoms heavily represented on there (mostly in DVD format, whole episodes). And I want to squeeze in another one. Is it Decemember 17th yet?
-I'm still behind on a few shows but I'm nearing the end of BSG S2 (Lay Down Your Burdens Pt1) and I am still loving the show. I can't wait to have time to watch more shows. My current schedule of shows I want to watch completely by the end of January (after BSG):

1) Due South (I'm on the 1x12, I think)
2) Stargate Atlantis (I'm on 1x15ish)
3) The OC (2x16ish), Lost (2x06ish, watching mostly because of Nathan/obsessed friend), Wonderfalls (1x03ish) *I have no idea what order I'm watching these in but I want to get them caught up/finished
4) Farscape (I want to understand those vids!)
5) Hopefully I'll have sometime to rewatch some BtVS, AtS and SPN episodes

If you don't know by now, I have a high tolerance for TV shows. If you doubt me, I watched Laguna Beach and didn't completely hate it (which in my defense, I only watched for the pretty California shots). This holds true for a lot of things including music, books/fanfic and movies but except for music, I am decidingly more picky with the latter two these days. This is really helpful in that I'm also slightly spoiler phobic. I find it enhances my viewing experience when I don't have any advance idea of what happens except for a preview or two. Which is not helpful for vid watching as I don't like being visually spoiled much either. Which is why I plan to watch a lot of shows and why having a lot of vids in a fandom motivates me to want to watch the show. I like to actually understand what's going on in the vids.

This leads me to the always helpful posts where vidders post commentary on awesome vids making me really, really happy. Go watch, read and feedback!
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Thanks [Nov. 23rd, 2006|06:19 pm]

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Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Also Happy Birthday to [ profile] melina123 and Happy Belated Birthdays to [ profile] cereta and [ profile] tinamishi!

I am so much more thankful today than I was last year and that makes me incredibly happy. It's my first Thanksgiving in California and I spent it with some relatives I have around here who were nice and provided good food and football watching. I'm thankful for everyday waking up to feel warm sunshine in my face and for being in the beautiful state of California. I'm thankful for being out of high school and in college where freedom, learning, creativity and kindness reign. I'm thankful for being away from my parents but having a much better relationship with them because of it. I'm thankful for my cats who I miss ridiculously but who I just appreciate more. I'm thankful for all the friends I have, from the ones I talk to everyday to the ones I talk to once and awhile to the ones in my past. I'm thankful for my precious laptop and iPod and all of the wonderful books, music, tv, movies and other things I have available to me. I am oh so thankful to the internet that allows me to connect with so many people and find out so much information. I'm thankful for fandom, for vidding and vids, for ships and fic and for this amazing community we have here. I'm thankful to be alive, to be more independent and to have an idea of who I am and who I want to be.

That's what life is all about.

A meme in the spirit of the holiday: Comment with your username and I will tell you why I'm thankful to have you on my flist. Or just thankful for you in general. And then post in your own journal if you would like to share the thankfulness! (If you wish to opt out on this part, it's quite alright.)
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[Nov. 11th, 2006|11:31 pm]

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Happy Birthday to [ profile] sweetestdrain! It was great to meet and talk to you at Vividcon :) Also belated Happy Birthdays to [ profile] vagabondage, [ profile] astartexx, [ profile] fairshare, [ profile] sarah_p and [ profile] ckll!

So Bascon was lots of fun. I definitely needed that (although not the hellish transportation experience but I'm trying to forget about that). It was so wonderful to see some people from Vividcon (including [ profile] permetaform, [ profile] lierduoma, [ profile] laurashapiro, [ profile] morgandawn, [ profile] fashes, [ profile] paraviondeux and [ profile] falzalot) again, have lots of vidtalk and see a vid show. The panels were all interesting and fun to listen to (I did say a few things so yay courage!) with my favorites probably being the Supernatural and Race in Fandom ones. And Vid Review of course. Part of my goal for the con was to not miss Vividcon as much (9 more months!) and it did help to get some fannish and vidtalk interaction. Also I checked out San Francisco which I loved, very different feel from LA but lots of cool things to see like the Golden Gate Bridge, Fisherman's Wharf and Union Square. Now I can't wait for Escapade in February :)

I voted for the first time last Tuesday in beautiful California *loves state some more* I'll forgive you even if you did reelect Schwarzenegger. More importantly, Democrats won the House and Senate! Yay! Normally I hate politics because I despise the hatefulness, bashing and dishonesty that goes on for both sides and it often depresses me of the state of the nation. But I've been so happy and optimistic about it lately and have actually read some news articles about it. It's just a refreshing change from 2004 when reading my Flist depressed me and now I'm just bathing in the positive. The bipartisan spirit that's going on gives me so much hope. I really am an idealist at heart.

At my college, during them month of January we have an interterm where you can take a course, travel or just stay home. I'm definitely staying in California as there's NO WAY on earth I'd deal with a month of cold weather since that's why I came here in the first place. Besides this is home although I will admit that I like my parents a LOT more when I'm away from them (especially when they send money hehe). Also, my roommate is staying home so if any of you want to come down to SoCal and stay with me (for FREE), consider yourself invited :) Anyways during January, I've decided on just taking tennis and no academic course as I really need a break from the academic obligations. But I'm totally making up my own course which will be Vidding 101 otherwise known as heaven. I even made up a description for it!

Vidding 101: This course explores vidding through a variety of methods, both theoretical and applied. Traditional reading selections will include material on film theory and aesthetics, editing, color and movement, music, narrative theory, rhetoric and other applicable topics. Internet readings include a wide range of vid meta that more directly addresses the topic. Theoretical readings will be applied to viewings of a wide variety of vids, from a diverse selection of fandoms and vidders. Written responses include both short and long feedback, vid recs with descriptions, personal reflections on vidding, commentary on personal work and original vid meta writings. Siginificant time will be spent vidding to vids in different stages of development and applying concepts learned to the vids in progress. Other supplemental activities include watching shows that vids are made from to understand the context and improve the general vid watching experience.

I'm so excited! *looks forward to January* Ok, here's the Six Random Facts Meme as I was tagged by [ profile] dualbunny and [ profile] maddie508
Once tagged by this entry, the assignment is to write a blog entry of some kind with six random facts about yourself. Then, pick six of your friends and tag them; no tag backs. This explanation should be included. I'm not tagging anyone, do it if you'd like.

1. My most precious possessions is my laptop, video iPod and external hard drive. I'd save them first from a fire anytime.
2. I can be very absentminded and lose a lot of things. This semester I've lost my room key twice and my mailbox three times although I found it two of those times.
3. Ridiculous is my favorite word. Because it's fun to say and because the entire "Ridiculously Romantic" B/J scene is my favorite scene ever. Second goes to California as I love saying it and being here.
4. I have a hard time coming up with things at the top of my head which is making this meme hard for me. I like to read things and then make connections to my own life (which I believe is my Ne ie extroverted intuition showing).
5. I love sports such as football, basketball (just found out my favorite player, Hakin Warrick is doing well!), soccer, tennis (Roger Federer and Peter Sampras are my favorite players), skiing (what I'm doing Thanksgiving weekend at Big Bear or Mammoth) and ice skating which I'm going to do next Thursday. I love that adrenaline rush.
6. I am still hopelessly behind. My problem is I set a big task ahead of me and don't allow myself to do other work before that but then just procrastinate on doing it by doing fun stuff. Le sigh.

Off to reply to posts and watch Firefly. I love Saturdays.
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Update On Me [Nov. 2nd, 2006|11:20 am]

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So I've been really busy the past month and it's really interfering with my fannish life as well as a multitude of other things I want to do. The good thing is November shouldn't be as bad so I'll actually have time to do stuff. I'm working on catching up to LJ right now so if you get a comment from me from a post you posted awhile back, that's why.

The best news is that I'm going to [ profile] bascon and I'm sooo excited! It gives me a great excuse to check out San Francisco for the first time and I've been dying to see the city. I can't wait to see and walk along the Golden Gate Bridge as well as check out all the other sights. I just remember seeing it on the Disneyland Soaring over California ride and thinking it was beautiful (have I mentioned how much I LOVED that ride?). But most of all I'm looking forward to seeing some people from Vividcon, meeting some new ones and discussing slash, TV and fandom. Should be lots of fun and I've been looking forward to it for awhile. On another I love California note, I'm ridiculously happy with all the great weather. It feels so nice to go outside and feel the sunshine shining down on my face. It's what I call my heat and sun therapy as it really helps to get rid of the bad memories of the cold. And I went through my first Santa Ana winds! Which is not fun to bike against, I can tell you that much. People say California gets no seasons (to which I say, thank god) but 80s+ for summer, 70s for fall and spring and 60s for winter works just right for me. And I'm planning on going skiing in the mountains for Thanksgiving so there's my winter. I love my state.

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I love my video iPOd with all my heart still. How did I survive without one so long? Playing vids and tv shows on it is just the coolest thing in the world. It helped me get through Life on Mars which I finally finished and loved. Awesome show, now I actually understand all the vids to it (which all rock btw and I will be leaving some feedback soon). Also I had the pleasure on Tuesday of having only one class and all my other obligations cancelled, so I got to curl up and read a book. Which happened to be His Majesty's Dragon of the Temeraire series as I went out and bought all three of the books. I am SO glad I did because I LOVED the book. I absolutely adore dragons and am now dying to have one. Particularly Temeraire who is the best dragon ever. And did you hear the books might be made into a movie by Peter Jackson?! So awesome. I'm planning on reading the next two on my way to Bascon and back. Speaking of reading, I also read Flowers for Algernon which I had read a short part of it about eight years ago and really liked it. But reading the whole thing destroyed me, the book gets to the heart of a lot of my emotional issues and broke me with all the emotion. Amazing book though, I definitely recommend it and the Temeraire series wholeheartedly.

I've been loving the TV season so far and sadly do not have time to write about all of it. But Supernatural, Friday Night Lights, Torchwood and Grey's Anatomy all have been great. I will hopefully be able to get caught up on BSG so I can watch that as well. Just finished the first episode of Heroes and liked it, it has some potential although I need to connect with the characters a bit more before I can really get into it.

Okay, I'm done. Off to [ profile] bascon!
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[Sep. 11th, 2006|10:30 pm]

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I just have to give a huge Happy Birthday shout out to my good friend, [ profile] l13vi11e! Thank you for being there in the good times and bad, for the wonderful conversations and being such an awesome friend. You have my heart *hugs*

In other news, college is still a bit crazy and I'm trying to get on a schedule that works for me. However, I still love it here and I'm not homesick at all (although I miss my kitty). I fell asleep at 4 AM on Saturday for my first late night in California. It feels weird not to be going to bed so late which I blame entirely on still being on East Coast time. It is the best thing ever not to have to wake up til 11 AM though. I love college. And I got to help out with my first film, my friend was shooting a 2 minute piece for school so we went to the beach and filmed it. I was even in it for a brief moment although I prefer to leave the acting for others. It was a lot of fun though. And I met some other people who love sports as much as me and we're going to go to a Lakers game together which I'm soo excited for. I have not lost my love for being in California, I live in amazement each day that I am in the most beautiful place on earth and that I can wake up every day and love where I am. That's my advice for everyone, find a place that you truly love and live there so you can know that you're in the place you were meant to be (as I am).
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[Aug. 31st, 2006|11:32 pm]

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First of all, a big Happy Birthday to [ profile] sdwolfpup! You are an amazing vidder and I am lucky to know you. And if anyone hasn't seen her latest vid, Fix You-BSG then you definitely should.

I'm still enjoying college although I didn't have the best day today. Sometimes I just feel so pessimistic with life and myself and its hard to shake that. Tonight I went to listen to this comedian and that made me laugh and feel better along with some happy B/J vids. In other college news, I'm looking to join Chapman Radio so I can have my own radio show, which would be beyond cool. Plus it would easily allow me to pursue my goal of expanding my music horizons and discover lots of new music that I've never heard. And I would so be playing vid songs that I love as well.

Ooh and also I got a replacement hard drive (1 day shipping! I loove SoCal) so I can now vid so much easier, yay! I have been in a very vidding mood lately and hopefully when I can find some time, I can work on that. Which reminds me, I love all my classes so far but Introduction to Film Aesthetics is the BEST. I am so excited about learning everything in it and connecting everything to vidding. I cannot wait until we get to the section on editing obviously. But today we watched Fargo and I took a whole bunch of notes on it and it felt like I was getting ready to vid to it while at the same time it made me more aware of all the things I've learned from vidding. It really has opened my eyes to how you can look at visual texts.

Am still catching up with LJ and I wish I had spent more time doing so beforehand as I'm afraid I may have missed some VVC posts and others from way back that I can no longer get to (LJ really must let me skip past 1000). I can't believe its September already. On the plus side, only 1 month and two weeks until my birthday and a shiny new video iPod!
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Small Update [Aug. 23rd, 2006|05:52 pm]

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[Current Music |Club Vivid vids]

I'm really behind on reading my FList and commenting and it makes me feel so bad and guilty and I really wish I could but I am so busy with Orientation. I moved into my absolutely beautiful campus on Tuesday and met my roommate who is really nice and we seem to get along well. There have been a ton of events that I've been going to along with getting to meet my RA who is really nice and fun and who I got to talk to along with some other kids on my floor. One of the best things has been getting to meet the Psychology faculty which made me really excited for classes to begin with all the opprutunities in the department as well and plus I met my advisor who also is teaching my Statistics class this semester. It was great to be in a room of people who all love Psychology like me, reminded me of Vividcon with the vid love. Also checked out some of the services and activities available and I'm so excited to go to all the clubs, to go to concerts, lectures and sports games and to volunteer. I just love that now its possible for me to do this easily, that I want to do it and be part of the community, to get the full college experience. I'm so excited for everything that's coming up and I'm really happy here so far. I can definitely see that its going to take awhile for me to find some good friends as I keep getting into overload mode and getting shy and quiet to take in my surroundings but so far I'm okay with that. Its nice just getting to know people and even if I know I probably won't be connect with some people, there seems to be some cool people here. I still kind of miss Vividcon (I really did have an awesome time with everyone!) but it's great having another wonderful experience to continue the happiness. I promise that as soon as I get some free time, I'll try to catch up on everyone's posts. Hope everyone is doing well!
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California=Paradise [Aug. 20th, 2006|10:01 pm]

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[Current Location |Orange, California]
[Current Music |I Enjoy Being a Girl vid]
[Current Mood |cheerful]

So I'm here in California right now and I'm having the time of my life. It's just as amazing as I expected it to be and even more so.

I barely got any sleep in anticipation for my first plane ride and that was fun. I love the great feeling at takeoff and the speed on the way up and down, so that was fun. The plane ride itself was alright, up in the air it doesn't feel like you're flying much but its great to be able to see everything look so small on the ground. I loved seeing the Grand Canyon from up in the air and I really can't wait to see it on the ground someday. We arrived at LAX with no trouble and besides it taking forever for our luggage (6 huge suitcases with mostly my dorm stuff) to come and then find it, we got out okay and then spent some more waiting time getting a rental car. We (my mom, brother and me) then went to visit some relatives who I don't really know but were really nice and took us all out to Venice Beach. I LOVED that! At this point, I was already in love with the weather (sunny, warm with a breeze), the palm trees and other unique plants and the gorgeous architecture not to mention all the great big buildings and entertainment ads (there was a Grey's Anatomy one!) in LA. But then I got exposed to that long boardwalk full of people selling their art and other products and I was spellbound by all of it with the impressive mix of talent and creativity on display. Not to mention the stunning diversity of people which was amazing to watch. There were some great musical artists that contributed to the artsy feel along with bikers, skateboarders and rollerbladers that made it seem so much like the California I see in movies. Not to mention the beach which was gorgeous and pretty and I soo missed the ocean and was happy to see it again, the Pacific coast this time.

Next we went to the hotel we were staying at, 5 minutes from Chapman and got our stuff settled in before heading off to Chapman University for the last few minutes of daylight. I had seen pictures of Chapman and loved it but seeing the real thing was even more breathtakingly beautiful. I really love the buildings, they're mostly white but look so beautiful and grand. The campus is filled with gardens and palm trees (my new favorite thing) and fountains that makes me love it even more. I'm really looking forward to going to college there. Also, I got to see my dorm room when my RA let me into see it and it look big enough so I think I should be fine even though being in a triple makes me a bit uneasy. I love my residence hall though, its very pretty (like every other building) and closest to campus. I wasn't expecting it but I'm even falling in love with the city of Orange as it even has different sections arranged by ethnicity so I can be immersed in even more cultures. I can't wait to explore my surrounding and beging to really know the place. I really feel like I've made the right choice and its good to know that my impressions I formed online were right.

I'm so happy here and I feel like I've finally found my real home. This is where I was meant to be, I just know it. Sure, I know it has its problems but right now California is beautiful in every way for me, imperfections and all. I keep seeing palm trees and being amazed that I'm actually in this paradise, that I'm here at last. Looking forward to being on my own but for now I'm enjoying southern California in all its glory. This is my perfect place and I've finally found it :)
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California: Here I come! [Aug. 20th, 2006|12:32 am]

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So it's finally here, the day that I move to California. I can hardly believe it, I've waited so long for this moment and now I'm leaving. I'm just about done packing and ready to begin the next chapter in my life. I'm leaving this morning around 5 AM and I move into Chapman University in Orange, California on Tuesday. I can't wait for it to begin and I've planned this for so long that its great for it to actually be happening. But before I go, some reflection on why I hated high school, why I decided to go to college in California and why that college turned out to be Chapman University.

Long explanation under the cut )

Going to sneak in a vid rec too. Everyone should go over and watch [ profile] absolut3destiny's new vid, I Enjoy Being a Girl. One of my favorite vids ever with a perfect mix of Sydney Bristow, Buffy, Starbuck, Veronica Mars and Zoe being perfectly edited to the music with awesome parallels and kick ass fighting. I've been listening/watching it nonstop ever since Vividcon and it made me miss Veronica Mars and Firefly even more. It's just amazing. *am still in vidding mode*
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Spring Break [Apr. 9th, 2006|08:18 pm]

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So its finally Spring Break and boy do I need it. I plan on spending it by watching lots of TV shows (mostly Due South and Buffy), reading, vidding and of course, sleeping. I may even try my hand at a bit of writing, not sure.

I'm trying to see if I can finish most of the episodes of Buffy the Vampire Slayer this week as I've only seen random episodes and vids for the show and figured I need to get the whole experience. Compared to Firefly, I do struuggle a bit with really identifying and loving the characters but I do relate to Willow somewhat and like all the characters, especially Giles and later I love Spike. I will say though, that Angel looks sooo much younger in the first season and that it makes him so much hotter. He's so pretty and has the whole mysterious thing going for him. Speaking of pretty, Fraser has reached the top of that scale for me. I'm on the sixth episode now and I keep repeating how beautiful he is. In that pure, utterly gorgeous and angelic type way. Definitely one of my favorite characters of all time as I can't help falling for his good character and honor and cuteness. And I love all his different environment pain and naivity to the ways of Chicago. Fraser and Vecchio are just too cute together, really funny and although I'm more behind them in a friendship with a light side of slash way, they definitely have their moments. I'm looking forward to the Fraser/RayK episodes though, after falling in love with them by seeing Burning Down the House and Eclipse and am now restraining myself to stay in order. And it is here where I have to rec one of my favorite videos from [ profile] heres_luck, "Out here" which shows Fraser's pain so well but also has an amazing sequence with so many emotional stages and final victory. It's blows me away everytime. Also another rec for a story for Fraser/RayK would be one of my favorites, Heavy Bag by [ profile] katallison that gets to me everytime I read it. And while your there, End of the Road is one of the most amazing stories I've ever read.

Speaking of fic recs, I just read one of my favorite fics ever that's gotten me back into Duncan/Methos and fic reading. Check out Straight and Low by [ profile] lastrega. Found it randomly and got hooked with its funniness and it being incredibly HOT. Some fics just hit my kinks *perfectly*. Walls and seducing always get to me and this one did not disappoint. So now I'm back into DM/M and planning on seriously working on my video that I planned for them last fall. It'll be much better now since I can use my dvds to vid. And I have another vid idea for them which I think could turn out well. Duncan/Methos vid ideas don't come to me very often but when they do, they hit hard. It feels like the song is made for the ship and the voice just calls to me that its completely them. Really want to vid them now, overtaking the two vids that I actually wanted to work on this break. But I don't mind, I just need to vid and stop doing nothing. It's been too long since I seriously undertook it. This couple is actually the one that I'm going to try to write for. We'll see what happens there.

On another note, I got into Chapman University with good financial aid and a nice scholarship and I think I might be going there. Having a great film school right there is extremely tempting...

ETA: I am reeeally excited for VividCon. I can't believe I'm going and that I'll have a chance to be around tons of vid meta, new videos and amazing vidders. Sounds like heaven to me.
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Cold/College Thoughts [Jan. 11th, 2006|07:24 pm]

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[Current Mood |sad]

Been feeling down about the weather and my chances to go to college in California. It's above normal for the weather here and I still feel cold all the time. Our school is freezing in every room and even though people complain, they do nothing about it. Some kids today actually decided to open a window because they were "hot". What the hell? So stupid. It's hard to concentrate when you're shivering and it's hard in a school setting to wear more than two layers. I just hate the cold so much, it is my most hated enemy and represents to me the lack of freedom I have. It constrains me, chains me to my present life and dulls the life out of me. I just can't stand it anymore and the thought that this is my last winter is the only hope that's keeping me going.

I'm applying to 6 colleges in California and I think I'll get some of them. Problem is, my parents are messed up with the financial system and probably won't be able to pay the EFC on the FAFSA. Filling it out now and it doesn't look good especially as our income increased without much change in money saved for college. Everyone always says the state college but I can't do that because I can't stand the weather anymore as well as the close distance to my parents who I really need some freedom from. Everytime I try to even consider that option, I start crying and can't take the thought so that's no option for me. I'm going to California no matter what, if I can't get into college there, I'll just fly by myself and go there, get a job, see what happens. It's just it sucks to probably be losing the dream to be able to have a new chance at college. I've never had a fair chance at my high school because of the weird schedule, the cold and being stuck with my parents and I really wanted to try to be on my own and enjoy and learn from my college life. Oh well, I guess. Life is just so unfair.

I'm been feeling emotional lately and just tired of school, tired period because my sleep schedule's way out of whack. I've got a lot of stuff to do but I get stuck on some of them and have a hard time completing the rest.

ETA: So I filled out the FAFSA and the predicted EFC doesn't look so bad so maybe there's hope :)
Sorry for the depressing info. I go through cycles of good and bad and at the moment the latter is prominent.
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